#running around the fountain in the duomo and getting splashed by stray droplets

[pointsfortrying]

woe to feel nostalgia for a culture that had never been your own yet you had participated in for years,,,,,

#rye rambles #saw some photos of italy and mention of santa lucia.... #we'd leave out grains for her donkey once in elementary school the class set up a lil place for santa lucia #and the next day the grains were scattered on the floor bc of the teachers ofc but our tiny kids minds were blown!! #head in hands #italy had Several issues but god i miss miss the vibes #never rly got to explore the town i lived in (bla bla mental health stuff) and i regret it constantly! #my memory is So shot bc of repression etc but the few things i do remember that are good are just... holds gently #library and parks my beloveds #that one underground furniture store that had the Tiniest arm chair #the one store out of the way that only had 1 display window and it was filled with katanas #christmas market and also thursday(?) markets that guy who gave me an apple for free but i didnt like apples so i gave it to my sister #running around the fountain in the duomo and getting splashed by stray droplets #the pizzeria store and the food trucks that sold french fries #it rly just is that isnt it you'll always miss the things you don't have anymore #always regret not having cherished the good things more #and thats okay #i cherish the few positive memories i have and i try to cherish what i got now more as well even if its hard #sdfjklsdlk #ignore me i am just having Thoughts #been in a vibe recently contemplating just how #different my life is #things change #and its weird #but it doesnt have to be all bad #simply... thinks...