#seeing you guys interact so effortlessly was something ive always envy put until now and it makes me think

[ikihtoe]

HELLO MY LOVES

it's been so long and I've finally got the time to get on this app omg I missed this place.

i have a few words for my mutuals in the tags so I hope you read it a bit at least—I've decided to post this because, idk sending them to you one by one is a bit time-wasting.

#i missed you guys truly #so i wanted to patch things up between us. me and you. because it feels like the follow and follow thing is just a status and not us— #—really being mutuals. i truly love you all but as you all know ive NEVER bring up a conversation let alone hold one and therefore— #—im very sorry #i dont know what and how you guys think of me during all these times but i hope not all of them are bad things #having mutuals was actually something i really wanted but now that i have you guys i dont know what to do because— #—the thought of talking with people online and getting to know each other was so thrilling but it made me realize how poor my— #—social skills are and also made me realize that im a big fat wuss #seeing you guys interact so effortlessly was something ive always envy put until now and it makes me think #“how can i be like them” #so i hope that i can go further into this making friends thing instead of looking for mutuals and i hope you guys can tolerate me as— #—i will try my utmost best to communicate #ill also try to send asks frequently so i can stay online on this hell site (im searching for miguel content as well) #also like i said i want to be more than mutuals i wanna be friends to you guys so hopefully youll see me as one too #thank you for reading this far i truly appreciate i #lovies .* ˀˀ #by the way #i hope this post doesn't rub off the wrong way i just really hate being like this and i wanna fix everything😭