#she didn't walk back the breakup and she never spoke or wrote to isabelle again

[blujayonthewing]

🤔 juniper wondering if it was possessive of her to break up with isabelle after being told no, you silly thing, of course I won't marry you, but I can assure you that my eventual husband won't mind that I have you, everyone has mistresses after all

was it selfish, then, to want her all to herself? was it only that she couldn't stand to share, like a petulant child? would it not have been enough just to be allowed to stay near her...?

#after all if she was TRULY so devoted wouldn't she happily-- gratefully-- accept as much or as little of isabelle as she was given? #after all what more COULD she reasonably ask-- much less expect? #she didn't walk back the breakup and she never spoke or wrote to isabelle again #but she was sick with grief over her for ages #first love... :') #now it's been seven years and she's MOSTLY good about being secure in 'I deserve more than being a rich woman's pet??' #but sometimes she thinks about the children belle must have by now-- children whose lives she might have been a part of-- #and it feels like a black pit inside of her #having a girlfriend who has repeatedly and proactively asserted her support for juniper exactly as she is-- #has done a LOT to counterbalance the years-nagging sense that she carelessly threw away the best relationship she could possibly hope for #isabelle was not a good person. she was completely aware of the power and experience imbalance in their relationship and relished in it #I do think she loved juniper in her own way-- but in the same way a wealthy young girl loves any sweet and devoted pet #I imagine she was more furious than heartbroken when juniper left #my OCs #juniper