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#sighhhh sometimes it feels like... oh why bother making friends when. this is all such a temporary thing.
birdmenmanga
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1 year
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hope everybody can understand!! feeling that immense loneliness despite the closeness tonight!!
#just thinking thoughts...
#I don't know.
#there's so much love but it's so lonely out there.
#I can't express myself properly in chinese...
#I worry that I'm a burden on everyone.
#That they have to explain everything to me because my vocabulary isn't good....
#that the motorcycle guy has to take me home every night...
#surely he must not want to be tied down to me. it's got to be a pain.
#I don't know. I think I'm rejecting everyone's kindness because I feel bad.
#I was offered a jacket when I left with him at 3 AM.
#but I felt like I couldn't take it you know. I didn't feel clean enough. and I didn't feel close enough to her.
#but maybe it was rude of me not to take it.
#I tell myself that I love taking people home and such. but it's soooo hard for me to believe that other people might also feel that way
#I think I'm going to have to get him flowers next week. the guilt is killing me
#like legitimately. it's killing me. I'm sorry about me. are we friends? are we even friends yet?
#even if we are I don't think he likes me enough to really be enjoying it. I don't know.
#I asked him if it was okay to message him even if there wasn't anything. and he said it was fine. but it's not like he could have said no.
#sorry for cornering you. I didn't think about it.
#sighhhh sometimes it feels like... oh why bother making friends when. this is all such a temporary thing.
#when I'm going to be gone in a year.
#but I'm going to die like this. I need someone to hold my hand. I need someone to give me a hug. I'm going to cry like this.
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