#so i do not quite know why my heart is still achey even after closure. i don't know why it's taking so long to get over it

[thebirdandhersong]

I am:

done exams (AT LONG LAST)

sleep-deprived but slowly paying back that sleep debt :)

truly blessed by the friends here at the dorm

still tired lol but not exhausted anymore

still horribly, horribly heartbroken despite the good ending of that arc and despite still being friends with him!

still have no idea how to move on :')

#i am no longer bawling my eyes out on the regular but this old sadness won't kick the bucket!!! #i do not know what to do exactly because my mind and my heart are not listening to me #not that i ever had any expectations because i KNEW from the start that he was interested in someone else #so i do not quite know why my heart is still achey even after closure. i don't know why it's taking so long to get over it #(okay well i DO because i know i've never felt this strongly towards someone before) #but anyhow!!!!!! ouch!!!!!!!! aughaughaughagugauggh!!!!!!!!!!! #it IS still a physical pain in my heart. i am so tired of it #the waiting room chapter