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lads and ladies I have written up about 17 pages of notes in 5 hours and revised with 3 more pages I am literally perishing but the exam is in 8hrs30min. this is not a slay as the kids say but soon it shall be over !!!!!

#BEDTIME MY FAVOURITE TIME OF DAY

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clocking in for another day at the i dont wanna factory

#i'm almost halfway through review so all is well! i still don't wanna but i'm a big girl and know how to do things i don't wanna do!

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#YEAH AND ?????

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lol you may be thinking: that's a lot of posts for someone who still has an exam tomorrow, Songbird. and you're right. it IS a lot of posts for someone who has an 8:30 tomorrow and hasn't studied for it

#it's an essay exam i know most of the material at least that's what i keep telling myself #the simple fact of the matter tho is that i simply don't give a darn anymore :) #somewhat concerning but when an exam is worth 20% and you've JUST finished two of the most brutal exams you've ever taken #it's hard to give a darn about the last one

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do you know what I mean?? true love being precious and rare and revelatory and something astonishing and real?

#something that's been on my mind tbh #this comes from the fact that i cried listening to the alchemy recently. that song just gets to me man #taylor swift

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— Mary Oliver

#there is something i think about writing poems specifically about people because try as you might you can never fully capture what it is #that you find spellbinding and significant and special about them. there will always be something lost in translation #there will always be some mystery that is never quite spoken or said right #at any rate idk if this is an actual mary oliver quote but im thinking of it as i read over my poems #i am waiting for the volta for the miraculous turn for the story to change if it ever does! for the genre to change.... #perhaps one day this will not be a constant tragedy :')))) #it broke my heart! but it has eased my heart too. and i know it will pass

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All my haters become taters when i harvest the root vegetables of success

#happy things

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there’s a lot of return imagery in The Alchemy, it’s a song about a triumphant comeback. but I don’t think it’s an adequate interpretation of the song to chalk all that up to her relationship with her fans or her public, even if the titular alchemy is the Manuscript-esque justification of her pain by its transformation into art. when we look at the bridge, “wheres the trophy? he just comes running over to me”, there is clearly a romantic love interest, the return to whom isn’t merely an old habit. so how do we reconcile the return and the romance together? I think I figured it out.

alchemy is turning base metals to gold—a magical transformation Taylor has written about many times before. deep blue, but you painted me golden. I once believed love would be black and white, but it’s golden like daylight. in the middle of the loss of her life, Taylor stops looking for the alchemical turn. I felt aglow like this never before and never since. I may never open up the way I did for you. I’m so afraid I sealed my fate, no sign of soulmates. there is nothing to redeem the catastrophe, no link on the invisible string that can provide an explanation for what happened.

and then she circles you on a map. and suddenly, what happens every few lifetimes is happening again, and she’s back. I haven’t come around in so long. but I’m coming back so strong. someone is offering her his heart. no more benchwarmers who don’t know how to play the game and sit on the sidelines while she does all the work. from now on, her partner is aiming to win just as much as she is. what was hopelessly blue is turning, inexorably, to gold, all over again. and that’s terrifying. there’s a part of her that wants to resist, wants to flee. but: honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy?

the return in the song is the return of the tiniest bit of faith—of faith in love. and if Taylor Swift believes in romance again? you really can call the amateurs and cut ‘em from the team. nobody does it like her.

#taylor swift #taylor in her element! cutting to the heart of things and knowing and feeling so deeply #that no love is wasted all love is transformative!

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So sick of having a darkened intellect, weakened will, and disordered passions.

#me and st augustine shaking hands

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to be a wretched old man

#aint that just the way

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tell me in the tags what ttpd lyric is in your head RIGHT NOW

#where's the trophy? he just comes running over to me #i did in fact cry when i first heard this lyric i was like what in tarnation what the heck !!!! #taylor swift

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"how was work" carries the same energy as "how was school"

#ya

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snoopy reads mary oliver!!

#AS HE SHOULD !!! #mary oliver

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Florence and The Machine, from 100 Years Mary Oliver, from Sleeping In The Forest

Vincent Van Gogh, The Sower (detail)

#mary oliver #hope is on the horizon!!

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#taylor swift #SLLD:FJSKLDJFK #a post that made me holler and send it straight to the group chat

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I remember talking to a friend last week and saying that if I'm reading obsessively it either means I'm extremely happy or extremely in need of help. alas goodreads my good pal you have GOT to be kidding me

#we hit 76 the other day so things are going a-okay

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thinking about 2014 taylor working on 1989 and polishing herself and her story up to be palatable and relatable vs. 2024 putting out a record that absolutely lays her entire self bare and dissects her in front of the entire world

#taylor swift #i've been thinking about this one actually ii've been thinking about it a lot