#so like theres also that... n i think seeing alligators in louisiana a few weeks ago b4 coming here uh got me a lil more on edge

[hollowfairybabybat]

woke up took my usual 1mg of a xan n an edible im just goin 4 it 2day

#not it that some of u may think lmao but im just getting high af fuck consequences lol i do have to b able to kayak tho bc its pretty enough #to do that but i can totally do that high just prolly no videos of it this time but i got kinda good at it at the end n could slowly paddle #n film at the same time also they r drier than i thought tbh still too close to the water to make me fully comfortable like canoes r bad but #safer bc like theres a barrier between me n the water but on a kayak its like the barrier isnt there n the things in the water r so close #which ik theyre rly not usually minus tiny fish n if im being stupid n get near snake spots or a snake in general but some alligator gar n #paddle fish get so close to the shore n theyre both harmless but way too big that jusy thinking about them im startingnto get anxious n feel #sick lmaooo so uh yk anyway i have a weird fear of fish that seems to only get worse i think its from watching jaws as a toddler i hav no #no memory of that but hav been told i wouldnt get in the bath by myself for a while after soooo #either that or im just straight up scared of fish like over 9 inches n thats pushing it okay fish should not b big idk #dont even start on the ocean also ive lived in louisiana most of my life so also i have that *oh fuck alligator* in me any time i see a log #so like theres also that... n i think seeing alligators in louisiana a few weeks ago b4 coming here uh got me a lil more on edge #i rambled oops #batbaby rambles #but like fr lmao