#so maybe i shouldnt bleach my hair anymore

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Not to brag but I'm super hot and my hair is green now

#im a big fan of the green #my hair is naturally medium brown and i used to use this dye over the brown #and this color (sea witch by lime crime) is super bright and gorgeous even over brown hair #but today i bleached my hair and then put the green on that!! and its so much more bright and vibrant!! #bleach is so fun but also i have a terribly dry scalp and probably psoriasis #so bleach fucking burns horrifically #so maybe i shouldnt bleach my hair anymore #but it makes the colors look so prettyyuyyyyyy #like over brown its a nice dark emerald but over this its so nice and bright!! #im like a fucking plant!! #im just really cool and hot and you cant tell from the picture but im wearing a crop top #which helps how fucking hot i am #love yall!!

[the-kipsabian]

i just bought two new bottles of hair dye help

#but realistically what am i supposed to do when i see they now have PASTEL BLUE available??? #i only went in to look for green and i had to also grab that like. what is a bitch supposed to do?? #a little bit something else for my overflowing collection of darker shades of blue and purple lmao #just got very inspired as my hair is at the point where dyeing it is actually an option again so. fun colors!! #and i wanna do something else than the blue i get stuck with lmao or purple ive done twenty times already #maybe i could do pink idk. i would need to bleach which. bleh. but at least i will be going back to green eventually #anyways just. just a heads up. i shouldnt be left unsupervised anymore apparently lmao #night is an absolute mess on main

[coastlineas]

wanna know something about me? im constantly wishing there was literally any way i could just shed 15-20 pounds i dont even fucking care if its because im using drugs or taking dieting pills or skipping as many meals as i can ive literally tried EVERYTHING and im not as skinny as i wish i was. it drives me crazy and because of it im constantly sick because the pills i take to help curve my appetite lower my immune system. im always losing my voice and it gets raspy and its not cute. and wanna know something else? i wasnt born with pretty hair so im constantly having to buy new extensions because it wont grow past my shoulders and i dye it bleach blonde to get the shit brown out and it still is dry and frizzy and doesnt look half as good as the girls with natural blonde, silky hair. and guess what else. yeah i was blessed with a skin type of dry dry dry skin and eczema that patches all over my arms and wraps around my neck and i do my best, i apply the best prescribed ointments and i take cold showers so it won’t irritate it and im constantly applying chapstick but my skin is still flakey and red.  and yeah obviously theres more. i have a missing tooth on the right side of my smile so if you sit on my right side ever i’ll try not to smile. my skin has never been clear, i’m not sure why but my acne just forbids it. i dont have money to get my nails done, or to get a weekly spray tan. so im paler than all the other girls and i still have spots of purple on my nails from like two weeks ago. and as much as i try i dont have time or car to drive to all the photoshoots or to keep my instagram and theme updated and perfect so that boys fantasize about me. so im just average in that way. sometimes i get too fucked up and dab out at parties and i do things that embarrass me in the morning and i’ve hooked up with boys who never deserved me. im too lazy and tired to get ready half the mornings and i half ass a lot of things i really shouldnt. im constantly worried people are talking about something i did last weekend or something and im forever hoping that certain people fall in love with me, not because i want to fall in love with them back, but simply because i want to be worthy enough for their infatuation. i don’t catch feelings for boys anymore. i don’t think i really have in years. however, for some reason my brain will just be bored or something- god knows- and pick someone random to obsess over but in the end it will just make me look stupid. i try to tell myself i’m cool enough to be everyone’s friend, and that if they really knew me that they’d fuck with me, but it’s so damn hard when no one can even get past the fact that i’m not perfect like all the other models here. don’t get me wrong- some of you insta famous, soundcloud rappers, socal celebs ARE actually as cool as you play it off as you are... but most of you just aren’t. it’s been a real slap in the face. although somewhere, deep deep deep deep deep DEEP down i must know that i belong here............ i literally will NEVER be enough. and maybe that last sentence should be the end of this very self-absorbed rant, but it’s just not. because ending it with me never being enough sounds like i accept that, that it’s just the way it’s gonna be and that’s it. but i’m not okay with it. and i want to become enough for someone.... at least myself.