#so while I agonise over my 6 unfinished drafts plz feel free to lie on the floor with me about them always

[theclaravoyant]

my brain turns to goo every time i try to write this into a fic . but there’s this little scene in my head playing out where izzy has been avoiding ed and avoiding ed and avoiding ed coz he’ll be fucked if he actually has to have this conversation before he can sublimate it into 10000 more sharks … but ed’s known him forever so it’s actually not that hard to piss him off enough for him to take a swing and it’s easier to be honest when they’re fighting because they’re fucked up like that and isn’t that the whole problem?

but anyway they get into one and izzy finally lets it absolutely fucking rip with something like , “YOU WERE THEIR CAPTAIN! THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO TRUST YOU”

and Ed feels guilty of course he does . but he’s also hurt . because … and he says it quietly, his wounded inner child, the wounded soul who tried to cope in a healthy way and instead got jabbed at like a pitfight dog til he bit

“You were my best friend. I was supposed to be able to trust you.”

#fuck me up (fuck me up inside) #these twoooooo #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ancient relationships and unhinged levels of devotion in this chilis tonight #me trying to write these two having A Conversation is like them actually having a conversation #so while I agonise over my 6 unfinished drafts plz feel free to lie on the floor with me about them always