#so yeah… that’s definitely my biggest regret (esp since i’m still working on mending those relationships)

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ignore everything i said back in late may/early june. i was hypomanic and, consequently, unreasonably angry for most of that time. 👍👍👍

#or at least both myself and my therapist hypothesize that i was #this is about all those times i claimed that i could no longer be a fan of a very specific celebrity #i’m not gonna say i agree with everything she did at that time bc i don’t #but also who am i to judge i’ve literally never been in that situation before??? #anyways i was cutting ties left and right with people for no fucking reason back then so um… #i wasn’t exactly stable #i was just itching to be insanely mean to people and i said some shit that i very much regret!!! #saying that i hated/could no longer support said celebrity is definitely not the thing i regret the most… #i mean i literally blocked my aunt and uncle and refused to speak to them for the stupidest reason imagineable #the reason? they sold their house #do/did i have any emotional attachment to that house? nope. they literally only lived there for like two years. #and i’d only been over there like six times during that time??? #so yeah… that’s definitely my biggest regret (esp since i’m still working on mending those relationships) #but like publicly denouncing said celebrity when i actually still really like them is definitely on the list of regrets from that time #like i feel like a flip-flopper but IN MY DEFENSE i was really fucking angry for no reason back then!!