#sorry i'm unstable fjjdkd

[iwillbestronger]

I feel like all you'll ever need to know about me as a person is how I put off watching the final episodes of Shadowhunters for literally as long as I possibly could because after the one year hiatus I was reasonably detached from the characters and I just knew that getting into the show again too soon knowing that it got cancelled would break my heart into pieces once it ended soooo basically I've finally started 3B and I only have the final episode left now so guess who's crying like a lil bitch baby because her smart plan of not being attached to the characters anymore DID NOT WORK OUT AT ALL and your favourite TV show ending HURTS man

#i feel like this says several things about me #one being that i'm a gigantic drama queen who gets far too attached to tv shows #but man...shadowhunters was the first tv show i ever really became a fan of as in like #i didn't just watch it casually but actually got invested and joined the fandom #in what was a really shit time in my life #and it hurts man it wasn't supposed to end yet #and god i really don't know how i'll manage the final episode #i know malec are getting married i know they'll be playing 'i get to love you' #which - the thought already makes me sob #and i know we're getting a jimon training scene which - no i did not forget about my otp #simon was also the one who ruined my plan lmao i was over her like 'okay i can watch it now i just won't get attached anymore' #and in the literal first episode i was just sat here like 'good god i love simon lewis. so much. how could i ever have forgotten' fjkskf #anyway shadowhunters was once my number one favourite tv show and it will always have a special place in my heart ❣ #i will cry SO MUCH #i'm just sat here listening to the songs from 3x20/21 and being on the verge of tears lmao #i guess this post is also for everyone wondering why i just stopped posting about and making edits for the show #sorry i'm unstable fjjdkd #debbie rambles