#sorry im rambling. i smoked a joint mid day and now im a teary mess

[despite-everything]

the knowledge that ted has helped guide richmond to be a healthier and more supportive place and now we're seeing nate returning to the fold after being forgiven by beard the way ted had forgiven and offered a second chance to beard himself and jamie has a support system and rebecca has been growing more self-assured and open and keeley has been able to achieve so much and roy has become a great coach and an even better man and and and and-

and. all the foreshadowing about ted going back to america. learning that not only was ted trying to give michelle space, but that he's been afraid of hurting his son the way his dad hurt him - acknowledging that and being open about his pain with his mother. do i think that ted is going back to kansas? yeah. but i'm scared that his time in richmond will have changed him so much that he won't be able to step out of his life there so easily anymore. he's always been a coach, yeah? he's there, and so supportive, but at the end of the day he's on the sideline. but not only has ted been helping encourage openness, forgiveness, and growth around him, we're seeing it within himself. and it hurts to think of him leaving that behind, even if it is to be there for his son. but maybe he's ready for it. i don't really know. but seeing how much love he's brought into richmond and then seeing that love returned back to him makes the idea of leaving heartwrenching

#i just want ted to understand exactly how much HE means to the people around him #and he's been such a cyclebreaker that i can't imagine he'd ever truly leave henry behind #the way his father left him #don't take that as me blaming ted's dad - but he clearly didnt have the support he needed and that also hurt ted #but it makes my heart ache to think of ted returning to kansas and leaving behind these people who love him #though i cant imagine the people of kansas were thrilled with him leaving either #idk man. im fucking emotional #and knowing that beard probably wouldnt come back to him now that hes had his cathartic moment hurts #sorry im rambling. i smoked a joint mid day and now im a teary mess #ted lasso #tree talks