#sososo much making me feel like this from casual racism to constantly misgendering or even deadnaming my siblings

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#so close to this trip w my grandparents being done but im going kinda nuts #i wanna cry or scream or smth #sososo much making me feel like this from casual racism to constantly misgendering or even deadnaming my siblings #and then my grandma sending pictures of me to family witjout my permission (not new not a boundary i have set but it doesnt feel good i+ #+dont like how i look in them at all) #(theyre tame just candid pics w my face in them in a way i don't like yk?) #and like ive had so much fun seeing canyons and rock formations in arizona w them but i /need/ to go home tomorrow #good thing i am! but not soon enough imo #i love them to death and my aunt is making this trip bearable at least #queva irl