#specifically how he’s always going on about how once he kills atem he’ll be ‘free’

[ectoplasmer]

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#image has nothing to do with this post i just needed to put something that wasn’t keysmash shdkdhs #bumbling on about marik don’t mind me #thinking about how he views his title of tomb keeper #specifically how he’s always going on about how once he kills atem he’ll be ‘free’ #going as far as to compare his position as heir of the tomb keepers to a cage #specifically something tied to humiliation and sorrow etc #like. in his (/string’s) and atem’s battle. just: #‘what do you feel now that you’re locked up… imprisoned in that steel cage? humiliation? despair? sorrow? that’s how i’ve felt my whole- #-life! that is the fate of the tomb guardians!’ #i’m always going on about how his motives always tied back to his family somehow someway #and i do genuinely believe that was something that caused him to go on and try to kill atem!! #he was trying to make up for the thousands of years his family spent underground #but with this quote. how he mentions how those are the things *he’s* felt all *his* life #before going on to add how it’s the ‘fate’ of all tomb keepers #something about it stands out to me. yes he’s probably doing this for his family too #but this early in his story i think this whole plan of killing atem is just for himself more than anything #also this: #‘you could say i was given life to guard the secret… but it doesn’t matter anymore.’ #seeing his life as a cage. something that constricts and contains him into fitting into one place #feeling tied to his family (or rather just the tomb keepers in general) and feeling that the only reason you (or anyone else in your family) #exist is because you’re meant to wait. you’re meant to serve someone you’re not even sure will come back within your lifetime #and still you have to carry the burden of waiting. you still have to have his secrets carved into your back. you still have to be the one- #-to shoulder it all because that’s what your family was made for #makes me feel sad. he never got a chance to live a life outside of the pharaoh even after he left the tomb keepers #he just went on to track him down for years to get the chance to kill him because he thought that would ‘free’ him :( #something so so important to me is how ishizu emphasizes that the tomb keepers aren’t *just* the tomb keepers #they’re still a family. they’re still something outside of the pharaoh and outside of the duties they were meant to carry out #just. i don’t know. something about how marik views his family throughout bc. very important to me #i love him but also i don’t think i have the brain cells to completely understand what is going on with him ever </3 #with you i feel alive