#stupid and dumb and a waste of brain space fr but it’s so hard for me to just SAY what i FEEL to people

[officialkatie]

whatever it’s MY blog and I get to choose the coping mechanisms and tonight it’s rage and also the Void

anyways i forget how to do a read more on mobile so just journaling in the tags.

#why is it So Hard to just communicate. why is it easier to peel off my own skin #i guess i just don’t want to do through with something irreversible that will make someone sad #but IM sad doesn’t that matter too? it literally doesn’t even matter but i’m upset and no one gets it #stupid and dumb and a waste of brain space fr but it’s so hard for me to just SAY what i FEEL to people #i don’t wanna keep living under false pretenses!!!! just let me BE i’ll feel better eventually anyways #i hate that i let things bother me so much #i HATE HATE that i can’t let go even tho i need to #it really wouldn’t make a difference at this point which is sad not on my part #throwback to a year ago when i predicted this exact thing would happen and everyone told me i was being silly #my paranoia and anxiety wins again #i bought myself something today but now i just feel stupid about it #everything STINKS #ok im better now