#stupid shit and it’s going to impact my credit and im not willing to let that happen but at the same time i don’t want my nigga like

[zouisalmightie]

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#my friend just asked me to co-sign her new apt cuz she’s being kicked out of the one she’s currently in #and this is the 3rd place she’s been kicked out of because between her and her mom they just have no capacity for how to use their money #like they’ll be behind on hella bills and then book a cruise which like that’s your money do what you want #but i have been their go to person for like rent-a-center and things like that and i ALWAYS get a call from those places trying to find them #cuz instead of paying their bills they go shopping or whatever and i still feel like shit telling her no I won’t do sign #co-sign* cuz i work so so so fucking hard to get my credit to where it’s at rn and it’s sexy my credit score is so hot and i want to start #the process of buying a house in the next year or so and i just know if I go into this they’re going to do some #stupid shit and it’s going to impact my credit and im not willing to let that happen but at the same time i don’t want my nigga like #in the streets cuz they can’t find a spot but there’s no way for me to police how they spend their money #even if we were to sign some co tract at the end of the day IM going to be the one that is going tiger harmed by this #but im the person who fixes things so I wonna like cuz i said no but i need to be selfish about this like #credit scores are fucking STUPID and we need to get rid of them but for rn i cannot fuck mine up because they already don’t work on theirs #like between the two of them their credit is so bad they’ll need a third person and like we are all 30+ in this situation like nah i can’t

[generouspeanutkitty]

random stuffs

just want to get all of my soul out before going my bed PRAY FOR A GOOD NIGHT because I literally have a panic attack in the middle of last night and cant fucking sleep! RIP 

I wish that college is easier to choose. LIke it would be more pathetic but but better if i only have 1 choice and i must go to that shcool .then I dont need to be this stressed that having a buch of suicidal thoughts at 2 am and bail my eyes out.i fucking hate that bitch giving false info and forcing me to go to a school of her choice and then said something along with “no pressure” haha duma may . I fucking know shes using her credentials to impact on my stupid mom with no informations and like any other boomers believe everything people said except her daughter that literally gain more value in scholarship than her assets right now. fuck it. 

I feel like giving up but at the same time i cant see myself giving up and be a con rối for my mom, following whatever my mom told me to do. If you dont like my school? give me the same tuition that you would pay that the school you prefer. dont want to? okay imma fucking pay you all of the tuition fees and housings and whatever money that you need to pay except books and insurances and flights because it literally cost the same if I attend other school. ok 

it’s not even 100k im sure I can pay you in less than 15 years. with interest if you want. but then i think imma cut any connection with you because your such a shitty mom and unsupportive with your daughter. 

and yea thats why noone want to live with you mom :) or should i call you Mother then. 

Fuckk stop forcing me and guilt trip me. crying in front of my cant do shit. I can cry too, want a competition? 

Mother stuff aside. I know college stuff is stressed enough. I’m really doubting myself but Im sure im gonna do well no matter what.im an INFP and I follow my ideals, not anyone else. I know im good and capable of many stuffs. A college doesnt matter shit and I genuinely want a good time in college. I want to try and involve in stuffs i like. I want to make friends and create life long connections. Not a type of school that students come and go and so controversial over the value of the school itself. I know what I want and im willing to sacrifice for it. I wont ask for your help. EVER. because I sense that you gonna out it against me anyway. I need people that respect my choice and support me, not downplay me and chửi me like một con chó. no thank you. 

You r making hating the school more. I was genuinely interested in that school until the day you forced it to me and suddenly I hate it so much. I think that just please stay away from my thought process and let me decide myself. Im a grown-up and I’m responsible for any choice I made. If I struggle then it’s my fault. If I thrive then its my accomplishment. I dont want to credit anyone that I dont want to.