#tbh im fucking scared of the massive amounts of change that are about to hapo3n

[bumblehaven]

My evening is full of complex emotions that I'm not sure how to work through. I feel that this is part of my depressive response to a lot of things coming to an end in my life, giving way to a new chapter...but honestly I'd really like it if the catastrophizing thoughts didn't target my nearest and dearest friendships, please? I don't want to be worrying about the eventual fall of my close circle, or whether me sending an extra message to someone I care about and am thinking about will be the butterfly wingbeat that convinces them I'm not friend material after all. The trauma speaks loudly tonight, my friends, and I just want to live in peace and let the river flow.

#self text #in which bre reveals that she is struggling with negativity spirals #and doubt #and the meaning of life and adult friendships #tbh im fucking scared of the massive amounts of change that are about to hapo3n #the middle path is hard to find