#tbh when going to those fairs it was under the pretense of being (mostly) Scottish

[arctic-hands]

Related to my tags on the Irish American reblog, how long have bastardized "Celtic" crosses been neo-Nazi symbols? I wasn't aware of this stupid use until I was an adult and my father was equally unaware until I learned about it, and in our Celtic (American) Pride we often used Celtic cross imagery in decor and accessories. Granted these usually did resemble actually woven/knotted crosses (which by no means meant they were authentic. At best a few came from local Celtic Pride fests–which as I said in those tags was plagued by Confederate and Nazi imagery), but most of them came from like JoAnn's or Michael's or Walmart whenever Saint Paddy's Day rolled around. That said, the woven pattern of a Celtic cross is a bitch to draw especially when you have yet to nurture or be nurtured in any art skills, so when my borderline-Gothic ass would doodle graveyards in my school notebooks I would often doodle simplified Celtic crosses as grave markers, which unfortunately just meant a simple cross with a simple circle in it, unfortunately reminiscent of the neo-Nazi symbol.

Me and my family were staunchly Indiana liberals (to be fair that wasn't that shocking in our democrat enclave city) and have only become more leftist as time goes on, so those who knew me well would know I didn't mean anything by it, but like I have to wonder/worry that those who didn't know me well (like most of my classmates. I was pretty lonely in high school) or people who would briefly visit my home or come across us while we were wearing Celtic pins that day or something came away with the wrong impression. I'm especially dismayed at the thought that the kids I knew to be actual neo-Nazis might thought I was one of them

For the record I left school in like twenty eleven and had been doodling graveyards for years and wearing Celtic imagery for even longer. I can't really find out when the "Celtic" cross became a dogwhistle

#Celtic cross #Celtic Pride #tbh when going to those fairs it was under the pretense of being (mostly) Scottish #it was all a farce my dad leaned into because he was adopted by a Scots-Appalachian man with a Scottish name going back to an actual clan #BUT i was never supposed to know he wasn't my biological grandfather (even tho it was pretty damned obvious) #so my dad played heavily on Scottish pride #that said we had Irish ancestry from other branches of the family so we indulged in Irish pride and imagery too #plus we just felt the knotted crosses were pretty and cool looking #anyway i/my dad did end up having more Irish genetics than Scottish pending our DNA tests #the Scottish is there but the Irish is more. especially in me because my bio maternal grandfather was also Irish Appalachian #(i have some Ulster Scots too but less so. which is more surprising because it's more common for 'Irish' Appalachians to be Ulster instead) #somewhat-Gothic because i usually aligned with goths in personality and depression but rarely wore black #i usually wore boys graphic tees with stupid sayings and memes on them #at least until the obscenely stupid dress code went into affect (search my blog for that if you're interested lol it's a saga) #i was lumped in with the goths for lack of better placement anyway but arguably i was more boy scene #my high school didn't really have cliques or anything strictly categorical so like goths would hang with 'preps' and such anyway #but i did have more commonality with Goths and most of my few friends were #anyway I'm losing the thread #rambling in the tags