#that led to that incident and the attitudes they perpetuated. thats all ill say . other than its dumb that this still affects me

[caruliaa]

op of a post is in the same ""cringe"" fandom as me so i can openly be a fan of it in the tags without the fear of being singled out and mocked by them and then all their followers for it incident 13 resurrected 27 healed

#this happened twice today. w the post i j rbed which was being shared by swifters but feels like it cld blow up soon #to the point of everyone rbing it and if op wasnt also a swfite id b scared to even mention tswift let alone blast style lyrics #and also w the post abt characters from fandoms u sued to be in staying w u ik the op is an ex tss fan so i shant be mocked there either #(tho i also know they werent big on romantic prinxitey but like. theres a difference between that and getting anons telling me to off mysel #bc the op thought it would be funny to point me out as the cringe person for everyone to mock) #im not kidding this is a real like. fear of mine even if i want to i wont mention tswift in tags on a post out of fear of being singled out #and thats also the reason i j say roman if i mention him in the tags of a psot even though its confusing bc everyone into succsesion #part of me feels like im letting a fear of ppl judging me dictate my behavior and i need to stop caring if ppl think im cringe #but at the same time it is like. a genuine fear that if im singled out by op to be made fun of ill get legitimatly harrased #by their followers or if its in a rb by other people who see the post and laugh at it #idk !! im very weird about this and i think its the fault of. not an incident that happened last year but two specifc ppls behavior #that led to that incident and the attitudes they perpetuated. thats all ill say . other than its dumb that this still affects me #but it just does i guess !!!. i do wanna start not caring me though j also be cautious like ill wait unti the post is at 10k+ notes yk. #anyway !! how come i never shut up up huh im always talking in the tumblr post tags . and then like two ppl care. and i love them 4 it<3 #flappy rambles