#the height terrifies me yet i can feel the rocks making the roof under ny feet

[thesoundofmadness]

do you ever just think about it all. my dad is down stairs in his hospital bed sleeping fighting for his life. I'm upstairs admiring the view from the 5th floor, worried a security guard is gonna force me to go back to my hospital room. somewhere else, someone else has no clue what I'm doing and I have no clue what they're doing. Somewhere else someone is taking care of their new born baby or their 15 year old teenager. somewhere else someone is working overtime, desperately trying to make ends meet for their family. somewhere else two people are on a date, getting drunk and having their first time together. somewhere else a group of friends is getting high together. somewhere else a person is getting sleepy at their shitty partime job waiting for their shift to end so they can go home and sleep. somewhere else a cat is terrorizing their owner by meowing at 2 am. somewhere else a dog is running around in the backyard. somewhere else a homeless person is probably freezing their ass off. someday I will meet these people without ever realizing it. or maybe I won't. we're all just stuck in our own lil worlds, parallel lines never meeting.

#it might just be the favt that its 1:30 am im sitting alone on the 5th floor of a hospital #the lights touch everything and nothing at the same time and the elevators groan with every movement #the lights of the city that i've lived in my whole life yet know nothing about look so pretty #lights are too bright to see any stars yet the sky is so dark #a cloud is slowly but surely passing overhead #the height terrifies me yet i can feel the rocks making the roof under ny feet #i see christmas lighrs and an office lit up filled with who knows what #do you ever just think about it all #the docs