#the latter could be totally true since i'm worried about my internship + niji audition + a specific class that is Shaky Grade oooo

[shiningstages]

I’ve kind of been head-empty when it comes to Actually Writing; I’ve literally just been thinking about everything in my head but I just. Can’t type / forgot how in a sense? And I really don’t know how to get out of this specific funk since it’s not my usual bluh or tiredness or anything, so...IDK?????

#;big bubble blowing baby! ( ooc ) #( maybe the tired has evolved??? or maybe my brain is just thinking about too much right now??? #the latter could be totally true since i'm worried about my internship + niji audition + a specific class that is Shaky Grade oooo #that's................probably it fgdgxdhfgj like how i semi-ghosted people because my mind was so focused on classes and niji #which i'm so sorry btw for people who have been left hanging for days on end last month!! it was an interesting time #i think i'm also grappling with the huge desire to actually become a vtuber but the knowing that i won't be able to like #do it all alone; and i guess a self-esteem connection in feeling like people would / do like me but also no one would dhfggfgj #and i only have my laptop........if i even passed the first step i'd be a million times more motivated to clean / write / buy pc #my mind was so committed to niji actually omg.........i've really been narrowsighted; the end of the month needs to get here #so i can know if i get an email or not ( really wish they had an auto email for those not accepted too like unis do ) #my brain has honestly been so foggy outside of that; i need to get my act together.....hopefully with chorus practice; that might help )