#the revenge was worth the cost; that he doesn't regret it in the slightest; that it was 'redemptive')

[lisbonsteresa]

[through gritted teeth] i am so normal about this

#no no no it's just like.... #the difference between just these two instances from s1 to s3 is FASCINATING to me #he's not asking in the first he's just stating a fact and he's having his belief confirmed #(by a man who's now almost definitely going to be in jail for the rest of his life - #the less extreme of the worst case options jane's had in his head but still nothing to scoff at) he's told with passion and conviction that #the revenge was worth the cost; that he doesn't regret it in the slightest; that it was 'redemptive') #and that's exactly what jane thinks that's what he's built his life around for the past - at least 5? - years #but he IS asking in the second; it's years after the first and he's not the same man he was then #he does still believe in vengeful justice i think but it's not just him that he has in mind now #there's other people to consider - people that found their way into his head and his heart (despite any of his efforts to the contrary) #and he's asking this question to a man who's just been cleared of all charges (were they murder charges? idk i need to watch that ep again) #it's not just him he's thinking of now and it's not just the most concrete costs either #it's....idk it's a shift from the objective costs to the emotional costs; it's the shift from being told to asking i'm just obsessed #(also interesting that these are both men when the only time i can think of off the top of my head where he has this kind of interaction #with a woman is the s1 country club episode? the one with liz forbes? where she breaks down and says it doesn't change a thing #that's a completely new tilt to it too that's something to consider all of this actually has no point but where else am i gonna say it) #tm