#the shampoo incident actually happened btw. I was 16 and had to stop our whole group bc. I forgor 😔

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

sometimes you forget not to pack a full bottle of shampoo

long nights full of counting headlights on the road and early mornings in airports

dawns on the ground and midnights in the sky

doesn't anyone want to keep me around?

I'm never asking (why)

carpets and windows I know like home but cleaned by somebody else

lost and found books and love note caffeine

held against windows and blankets and knees

how do I say "this takes too long" without it sounding far too mean?

"but maybe I don't want it to end" instead but only inside my head

nobody needs to hear

something out of a fever dream (but cold blown air instead)

((what if really I'm dead))

the only place that smells like home and where it's impossible to be seen

maybe that's the thing I'm wanting even if it's not what I need

~ L. T.

#like so much of my life has been spent in airports and I love them so much and this is just some of the feels of that #and before anybody gets concerned about the dead line: remember my circa post from the other day?? #yeah as a middle schooler I had a bunch of (in retrospect) stress dreams about dying from cancer #and it was a time when I was doing some of the most air travel bc my grandpa had cancer the FIRST time #so this is partially calling back to that #as our family is... kinda going through that again #the shampoo incident actually happened btw. I was 16 and had to stop our whole group bc. I forgor 😔 #hashtag uncanny wentzian poetry hours on main!! yeah babey!!!! #Lu rambles #Lu writes #living in liminalities #sometimes I think I could write poetry