i have this starvation To Belong and recently it keeps peaking and peaking i didn't know it could become this strong. i'm afraid to live and experience what actual peak of this starvation will look like. it's all i can think about, can't focus on any work, keep impulsively watching youtube and tiktok just to see people similar to me at least on my screen, keep watching series and live through them to feel like i'm Part of Something... i just need someone to See Me for who i am so bad it's so scary how this feeling makes me rely on anyone who just looks at me like i exist.
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