#theres a reason i forgave most the ppl who made my life hell ages 6-14

[florenceisfalling]

don't worry guys if you're ever in a bad place emotionally and seeking guidance some woman with an entirely different outlook on life than you will thrust shitty advice upon you whether you like it or not and then make you feel completely fucking awful about her wealth of wisdom that she is so genuinely convinced she has despite not having any idea . this will make the bad place so much more bad also

#this is the last thing i am posting related to the events of my day i dont think i will ever get over just how insane it was but i hope #things will improve bc the lady is someone who i am very close with #i just always sorta balanced her out with my mother and that is not currently possible #i dont want to be angry at her anymore but it was so genuinely bad. like what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck #yknow a lot of bad things have happened where im able to put myself in the other persons shoes and go ''yeah sure'' like #theres a reason i forgave most the ppl who made my life hell ages 6-14 #but this was so unreasonable. i literally cannot even fathom why she would do that outside of ''she wasnt thinking she was just doing'' #because people arent reasonable and thats usually the explanation why stuff happens that you can't understand #i would not let anyone else speak to me like that and i honestly should not have let her speak to me like that but we live on #its not the healthy or godly thing to keep this on my chest nor put it out for others to see but it literally shook me so bad #on the bright side #usually i shake when im angry like literally physically shake #and i didnt this time! cried though! not when she was in the room idk what my body was doing #i like definitely was not the guy in control of my body for a while there #i still dont think i am i keep doing little things and going hmmm i dont think im florence rn #but it was . something.