#they need to invent concerta that doesnt keep me awake till 2am. Which i do unmedicated anyway but

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my own thoughts annoy the shit out of me and i like consciously try and be zen about it like they are only thoughts let them go by undisturbed..but i also have like 6 voices in my head peer reviewing them and being like lol cringe and derivative try thinking of something true and beautiful. Also the instant i get bored i start psychoanalysing myself which is really unhealthy and also fucking exhausting. This is why i love adhd medication bcos it slows it down to like 1 thought at a time so i can consciously be like STOP wondering if youre actually insane or just faking it as an excuse and look at a flower or some shit instead of like [thinking im exaggerating everything][i need to make appointment i need to fill out form did i forget something][remixing 2 songs together in my mind] all at once

#they need to invent concerta that doesnt keep me awake till 2am. Which i do unmedicated anyway but #i like almost certainly need counselling again lol but i never do anything about it do i look like a guy who can make appointment 😂 #ive always done like the obsessive internal analysis of all my thoughts and behaviours but it definitely got worse during covid 😐