#third game night in a row that ive cried bc aomething triggered me

[meandacat]

feeling particularily forlorn with life today

#im depressed and rambling im sorry #im tired of feeling okay for a few hours or maybe a day if im lucky only for it to turn into heavy sadness again #i just want to feel loved and wanted #im so goddamn lonely abd i think its slowly killing me or at least making things Worse ykno #i just want someone to take care of me a little bit #and love me a little bit too #and then i can love them a little bit #and care for them too #im tired of being sad #where are the ups #do i live like this for the next thirty years if im lucky? #my dad does #and im more like him the older i get #and hes the loneliest person ive ever met #the only person i dont feel lonely with is already in a relationship #so idk #i guess i keep going #im just tired #third game night in a row that ive cried bc aomething triggered me #im tired of finding bew triggers #i wish i could be fun and happy and able to laugh easily #im ok #im just tired and sad again