#this is my.blog so i hahe the mental spirals

[monsterkingdom]

i hate how therapists are so quick to give you paperwork to make you figure yourself out instead of trying to let an organic method happen like I cannot tell you how much of a trigger doing paperwork to try and box myself in this little cube of answers is.

putting my emotions on a schedule and methodically writing down the times when i had breakdowns and why doesnt help me. it makes me feel worse i wasnt keeping track. guilting me, even. makes my emotions FEEL LIKE tasks and chores to categorize.

its like you have me do paper work to get a therapist in the first place. which stressed me out as is... and now u want me to do more paperwork and treat this like my feelings are being graded ? hoping i get a good grade on 'writing out why i cried over a little bug yesterday'?

like thats so awful to me. cbt therapy is like torture tbh.

asking me 'what do you wanna accomplish at the end of this' is the most loaded thing u can ask someone who has issues w that and u just found that out not even ten minutes prior.

absolutely ridiculous stuff to expect out of somebody out of the gate.

#sorry im ranting so much #this is me not using birdsite #this is my.blog so i hahe the mental spirals