#this project is 2 days late AFTER a very kind extension i recieved

[worldofgoo]

i wish there was a way to make it easier. taking a nap? having coffee? getting some kind of help? liveblogging as i go? i dont know, i really dont want to discourage myself, but it feels like the well of my motivation has been completely dry, and im just kind of tired and morose about it

#this project is 2 days late AFTER a very kind extension i recieved #with the emphasis from my professor 'DONT FORGET TO ASK FOR HELP IF YOU NEED IT THERES NO STUPID QUESTIONS' #yet i still dont really understand when a question is appropriate and when it isnt. sometimes the answer has to be 'its your assignment. #you need to do it.' #like what i need a professor to drag me through basic preliminary tasks that im not doing not because theyre impossible but because i suck #ive mapped out what i think i can do today [with drastically reduced expectations] #and i have a plan for the day [work at home until about noon (in an hour) and if i cant get myself to be productive go on campus to work] #im gonna have to go whether i like it or not bc my brother is coming over and its going to distract me #antsy bc my first shift alone at work is tomorrow (ive only come in once before to be shown around) #tonight noy tomorrow lol #coffee sounds like a pretty bad gamble because if it has unpleasant effects / makes me worse then thats the day lost #god i know complaining on here is just another way to procrastinate its just 😞 i dont want to #disturbing kitty to get my headphones maybe music will help