#this was just to challenge myself on perspective so that’s probably why lolz

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2.22.22

Get Rich Exercises: Faith and Gratitudinal Gold

Five things that bum me out and why I’m grateful for them:

1. Ross’s Death -- had I not gone through the experience of grieving Ross, I’d feel completely ill-equipped to support my mom as she works through Jennifer’s death. I also know in my heart of hearts that Ross wasn’t the right person for me. So even though I liked him and I was attracted to him and his death was completely tragic, it set me on a path of self discovery and love and healing that I probably wouldn’t have started had he not taken his own life. I’m approaching life with fresh perspective and a deeper soulfulness than I did before, and that’s a lovely gift.

2. My Dad’s Personality Disorder - My dad is helping me learn to set boundaries and stay in-tune with myself. These are skills that support me across all of my personal and professional relationships. His challenges give me the opportunity to exercise my empathy, too. 

3. Taking Care of Charlie - the knowledge that one day Charlie and I will cohabitate just the two of us is a powerful reminder that I need to live my life and work toward my dreams NOW. My life doesn’t end when I take over his care, but I’m grateful for the extra push to build the life I want now. 

4. My body - It does so much for me every day. My body holds Tucker. My body walks me to places I enjoy. It soaks up the sun. It hears music. It stretches. It bends. It tastes. It keeps me moving forward. It supports my big ol’ brain. It’s not holding me back, it’s supporting me in my pursuit to get everything I ever wanted. 

5. My Perfectionism - My perfectionist part works so hard to protect me. To keep me safe and grounded. She has gotten me to where I am today. She keeps my home nice and tidy and my pup well-behaved. She knows how to put together a classic outfit and she has a great eye for home decor. She keeps me from being over-indulgent and under-disciplined. She’s an essential part of me and I wouldn’t be who I am without her. 

And ten more things I’m grateful for: 

1. PBA! I’m learning so much and appreciating this investment in myself.  2. My amazing family, especially my mama (nuff said)  3. My little baby Babadook (who is my sunshine on a cloudy day and my favorite living creature on this planet)  4. My apartment - my little safe haven and the way it’s coming together 5. My income - it allows me freedom to travel and buy fancy groceries 6. My beauty - I’m a cutie patootie if I’ve ever seen one 7. My skills and talents - God has blessed me with the ability to write, speak, and give meaningfully to the world 8. Friends like Kate Coll and Allison Good - the ride or dies who always have my back (and always keep it real)  9. My Whitman College education  10. Living in Iowa - my people are right here and there’s Target less than 10m away at all times lolz

Five reasons I have faith in myself: 

1. I’ve got the goods  2. I want to succeed for the right reasons - to make the world a better place 3. I’ve broken the mold before and I know I can do it again 4. I’m willing to put in the work 5. I’m simply worthy of a luxurious and fulfilling life