#through kinda warps al just being busy and preoccupied and not thinking about anyone else to singling her out and doing the same thing her

[arklay]

i didn't really talk about it cause i think most mutuals know. but the reason that fic causes me so much pain is because they've been together for over ten years at that point and have never had a fight where they need a break from each other... they've never even had a fight where they yell

#leah.txt #pair: ewskers #tw: body image #they've bickered a lot like that's just how it goes. especially when you have two big defiant and domineering personalities. but they would #always laugh it off or just leave the room to clear their head then come back and apologise over getting shitty with each other but they #always talk things out and have these big just discussions to clear up any misunderstandings or you know just to air it out. they don't #like to let things fester. but the problem with this is like diana didn't want to bother him because of how busy and obsessed he was with #the project and his work so she just kept it all to herself and ofc you combine that with her love languages not really happening (physical #touch and quality time) because he rarely came to bed so they weren't having their moments of just cuddling and talking for ages. and #quality time ofc wasn't happening then too but when they were together it was always about just work work work. there were no breaks #and like he didn't really confide in her much anymore with what happened with spencer. like he did at first and they worked through that #and diana thought like he was Okay. like he was dealing with it. but he really just shut it out. he didn't want to confront it. he didn't #let himself *feel* the pain (which is why post volcano momence its A Lot for him to deal with... but they actually work through it better #then) but yeah like there's a lot going on behind all that fic. and with diana too. okay. so her childhood is one i don't really talk about #much but really high expectations were put on her from really young and even though she excelled in all areas like it was never good enough #and plus a few other things like it led to her constantly seeking for praise and admiration and recognition and like she was actually a #people pleaser until she was in uni for her bachelor's and before she moved to america. like. there was a lot going on there. so like she #had a lot of feelings of inferiority growing up and like not feeling worthy ever sooooooo it hurts + the humiliation her ex-husband put her #through kinda warps al just being busy and preoccupied and not thinking about anyone else to singling her out and doing the same thing her #ex did to her. so yeah. plus her body changing with the virus over the last few months has made her very like just. lies on the floor. like #because he always found her so beautiful and loved her eyes and made her feel beautiful when she had a bit of insecurity so now she's like #oh no but i look different now... maybe he doesn't think that anymore. lies on the floor