#toxic in like. “The implications of this pairing happening are genuinely depressing” kind of way

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March comes in like a lion, it's Portrayal of toxic & healthy relationship and how to compares rivamika + Ereh

Que the longest title everr 😌✨

So before I start on the actual analysis, I recently started watching March comes in like a lion instead of doing my assignments and I half way through season 2. For those of you who haven't watched it, it might be a spoilers so beware of that.

In this analysis I'll be comparing the similarities I found between Rei, Hina and Kyoko.

So watching any anime after being do emotionally attached to rivamika it's only natural that I compare them to the characters with even the tiniest bit similarities in their dynamic but Rei and hina's relationship jump in episode 4 of season 2 really caught me off guard and I was like omg?? Rivamika?? How do I make this about them 😩

Anyway so a little background on Rei's relationship with both girls Kyoko and Hina ( Hinata ). Firstly, i subconsciously placed Rei has Mikasa, kyoko has Eren and Hina as Levi, why? You will know on a minute. Rei is a depressed kid who has known only one way of life and that's through shogi games and after his parents death ( cough cough ) he was taken in by a old friend ( I think ) of his dad's who was also obsessed with shogi. Kyoko is the biological daughter of this man who has "adopted" Rei and later on Rei was came to know Hina and her sisters, they were super supportive of him from the start and having lost family members themselves they related to him on a personal level.

So you see why Eren and mikasa's dynamic matches with Rei and Kyoko and not only as "step siblings" it's also the fact that Rei became somewhat obsessed with her through the time he had spent over at their house, it's toxic and it's been showcased that way ever since kyoko was introduced into the series. Rei thought of her when he heard the word "love" and he even admitted to the fact that having her around is toxic and yet he can't push her away. He said he does not want to stop hearing her voice even tho she , herself is in love with a much older man who is married. Everytime she showed up to his bedroom uninvited and slept next to him my mind went "he is in love with her and their relationship is so toxic why does the author keep bringing her into his life?" Or "girl get the fuck away from him".

Without even thinking too much deep into their physical connection I already knew I would be able to related this dynamic to Eren and Mikasa. Although this series gives us much more depth into the main characters views since it's narrated from his own perspective, and the fact that he metaphorically compared his feelings of being lost and sadness helps me as an audience to understand what's happening much much easier than attack on titan. I personally feel like this kind of series are usually short ( idk how long this is) because it feels like the author knows exactly what he is going for, everything is set in stone.

Going back to Rei's ( mikasa's) relationship with kyoko ( Eren ) it's much much clear how toxic it had become for him in more than just one way. And the show isn't denying Rei of his feelings towards Kyoko and it's not even attempting to distant him from her and yet you just knew there had to be someone better right? That's when they introduced Hina and Kyoko in the same episode, meeting each other and a sense of invisible rivalry gushed over them, especially Hina. She is a happy go lucky girl and extremely sensitive to things to the point it kinda annoys me everytime she bursts out crying ( but hey you can't hate a genuinely good character ).

That's where things get interesting for me maybe because I am on that Levi X Mikasa agenda all the time but just like rivamika their relationship has been portrayed as platonic for the longest time in the seaosns. If I didn't go out of way to search up who Rei falls in love with and it didn't say hina's name I probably wouldn't be making this comparison right now because who wants to have their heart broken for the 2nd time in the same fucking month 🙄.

Anyway so in this one episode Hina comes home crying because of bullying issue at school and as she runs off into the dark streets Rei chases her and eventually catching up to her takes her hand and being able to relate to her problems, comparing his younger self to her present Rei reaches out his hand and God fucking damn it he says "you saved my life..I promise I'll stay with you" ofc I'm making this post now you know the real reason 🤡.

The unseen build up that happen between them reminds me of rivamika, the Portrayal of healthy relationship is rivamika. Hina (in our case Levi ) to Rei is the voice of emotion, she speaks out the feelings that Rei has been surpassing all these years inside of him. Just like how we talked about Levi is the voice of reason, while Mikasa has the impulsive urge to act up. Just like how Levi became the perosn who reasonably always took mikasa's side, he gave her personal reasons to take Erens side everytime have an actual meaning towards the scouts / everyone , he then became someone Mikasa was able to object & voice out her opinion towards because she knew that he would response and guide her the right way and finally he became someone she was able to fully trust.

Much like Hina and Rei, when Hina cried out her heart and Rei couldn't help but go back to his past self and imagine Hina coming to him and giving him a hand, being his saviour. It's much like how Levi saw his past self in Mikasa present ( S1 ), Levi gave Mikasa the hand she needed when she didn't know she needed.

Hina despite being much younger than him, was able to make him realise that he too was shutting out his emotions and was able to let himself be free through Hina when she cried, expressing her frustrations and very human like emotions. In the forest of the giant trees when Mikasa and Levi saved Eren for the first time he told her " we got your precious friend, didn't we?" A slight wake up call he had given her for the very first time, an attack on Mikasa's ego and evoking a different emotions within her. Like telling her it's not only about Eren and getting revenge, risking your life so easily, Levi had lost his entire squad in order to protect Eren so now that he is safe they better leave now.

So the question is did Levi and Mikasa save each other?

What can I say that I haven't said already in here about these two?

"you saved my life" Rei says to Hina as he reached out her hand and the beauty of that scene was the fact that it was delicate and soft despite it not being anything romantic. Remind me of that panel of Mikasa touching Levi's shoulder. How ironic is the fact that I'm comparing Hina, a openly emotional character to Levi who is said to be the most emotional inside?

Levi physically saved Mikasa a lot of the time however emotionally Levi saved Mikasa from being selfish and from herself. What if I said and ignoring 139, that Levi was one of of the biggest reasons Mikasa took the initiative and decapitated Eren that day?

Wait why does it feel like I already said it before lol

Through Levi, Mikasa learnt to trust more, learnt that even though they gave difference not only in height, age and in how they treat Eren ( Levi with force and Mikasa with care ), Mikasa still came in terms with Levi and relied on him, shared her burden with him. I think that's the biggest character twist Mikasa had, the fact that she was ready to draw sword at anyone who treated Eren wrong and everyone was scared of her and then came the grumpy shorty who beat her beloved brother right in front of her but eventually he became the biggest form of support she had in the end. I just can not help but laugh at all the unseen development this ship has had and all the implication of Futher interaction after season 3 between them, it's really obvious they had something going on because imagine you don't talk to someone for like 3 years and suddenly when you engage in battle against , paired up with them suddenly you become the strongest duo known to humanity. +?)!#)# make it make sense.

Sooo now you see the that having toxic relationship with a partner is only natural and inevitable but growing from that, opening your eyes to those who actually care there for you is rather healthy. So moral of the story is guys make sure stick with those who tells you to stay with them, the end.

Omg guys this turned out so much longer than I intended, anyway hopefully y'all liked it. I know it's not the strongest comparison or analysis but I feel like I'm running out of words for what I want to say about rivamika it feels like I'm recycling my sentences from previous analysis over and over again because ✨ lack of content ✨ and my inability to think of something new.

Please ignore all my spelling mistakes I have decided to embrace my mistakes instead of fixing them simply because I'm too lazy 😉

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headcanon #011: 2016 scandal

word count: 1,575 words

triggers: brief mention of depression

the scandal dropped around valentine’s day of 2016. because what better time to risk ruining someone’s entire career and personal life than the day of love? in total, ash was linked to four different women by the end of the scandal, although the company pretty successfully buried one. bc entertainment denied any romantic involvement with any of them, though in truth, ash had had casual romantic or physical involvement with three of the four at some point, but only one was ongoing at the time of the scandal.

the whole thing started when a media outlet obtained pictures of ash and a junior girl group member (though she was senior to him in age) who he’d gone on a few dates with in late 2015. they had called any prospective romantic relationship quits after a few dates and became only friendly acquaintances afterwards, and being unable to catch the pair on any more dates is what prompted the outlet into considering releasing the pictures before they could become old news.

the outlet had gotten a number of pictures of ash and the girl group member and had been paid off for the more incriminating pictures of them getting into his car or being obviously affectionate. the scandal wouldn’t have blown up from these pictures alone, as even though pictures of ash kissing or embracing a girl would be terrible for pr, if there were only pictures of them meeting up, they could easily be buried and written off as senior and junior friends. bc entertainment had much more power than the girl group member’s company who probably couldn’t afford to pay off or buy the pictures on their own. no one told ash or the girl group member in advance of the pictures dropping and they found out when everyone else did.

if everything had gone as expected, the pictures would have earned ash some minor criticism for hanging out with a female friend in a way that could be misconstrued, but unfortunately, the release of the pictures prompted a much bigger situation than anyone had anticipated thanks to there already being rising discontent among ash’s more “““devoted””” fans.

a few of ash’s sasaengs knew about ash’s recent dating history before any pictures were released, but had kept their knowledge a secret out of “““loyalty””” to ash, until he was exposed by the media outlet. at that point they turned on him thanks to their increasing annoyance with knight’s falling image and a perception that ash was ungrateful for them due to his more reserved nature and his having dated consistently since debut. a number of fan sites released pictures (either through fan forums or by selling them to media outlets) they had of ash with three other girls which were equally or more damning than the initial pictures. they didn’t gain much steam at first as bc and ash’s remaining fans tried their hardest to bury them.

first to be released were pictures from one of ash’s most followed fan sites, although they did so semi-anonymously. this time, they were photos of him with an established actress four years older than him. she was generally well-liked and had a very clean image, so the release of pictures of ash entering her at her apartment building and pictures of them meeting up outside of ash’s hotel during a time when their overseas schedules overlapped were pretty scandalous in the eyes of fans and the public. the fact that the date of their overseas hotel meet-up wasn’t very far from the dates the media outlet had claimed he had with the junior girl group member didn’t go unnoticed and started the real fire under a scandal that would have otherwise blown over pretty quickly. while the source of the photos being one of ash’s most followed fan sites was never officially confirmed, cryptic tweets about having worked so hard to protect his image for him and an immediate closing of the fan site right before the release of these pictures are often pointed to as proof. it’s an open secret at this point. in truth, his relationship with the actress was very similar to his relationship with the female idol from the media outlet’s pictures, which was some casual dating and hookups, but the periods of time he was seeing each of them didn’t overlap like netizens claimed must be the case.

a few photos also surfaced of him with a rookie model, but he was genuinely only ever friends with her and they gained the least attention thanks to how blurry and relatively innocent the pictures were and their respective companies catching on quick enough to bury them and take down any posts that gained steam. only his dedicated fans and antis seem to really know about those pictures, though antis have tried their hardest to spread them around to further ruin his image.

the last photos that got released were the final nail in the coffin. again, they were released by a sasaeng and involved pictures of him with a female idol, this time one who was his industry senior. she was the only girl ash had actually still been seeing at the time the pictures broke, but they hadn’t been dating, only hooking up. following the handful of pictures of them together surfacing, the idol cut off all contact with him.

eventually a post was written on a fan community site tying all of the pictures together and, in the most clear way possible without risking legal action, made enough implications for the title of player or womanizer to begin to be attached to ash’s name. the writer of the post claimed he was already well-known among fan sites for being a player, when really, it was more like it was known among some stalker fans that he had been dating around like an average young adult for the past few years. the post blew up and became a top trending post in the fan community, which made other news sites in toxic cyclical fashion.

in the aftermath, fan communities were ablaze with rumors and criticism for ash, though most of it never extended beyond fans passionate enough to keep up. members of the communities brought back old blind items about alleged womanizers in the industry and attributed them to ash without any proof and over-analyzed every interaction he’d ever had with a woman. his image suffered especially because he had previously been seen as shy and reserved and fans felt these couldn’t possibly be true traits of his if he’d been dating girls. people claimed they’d seen him out with girls without any proof and over-analyzed his smallest public interactions with female friends. in very specific corners of the internet that never blew up too much beyond dedicated netizen fans, others claimed they had convenience store receipts of him buying condoms with girls (think that invasive ka*stal receipt mess). for the most part, most people doubted or criticized these receipts for invasion of privacy and lack of sufficient proof, but some committed antis believed and latched on to them. there were also lovestagram accusations as come with any dating rumor, but the accusations were very obviously a stretch to most. this all happened in the span of a few weeks among fan communities, which helped to amplify voices of antis.

many of ash’s fan sites closed permanently or rested after the scandal and some of those who remained open received criticisms from knight antis and fans of other members who believed ash should be kicked from the group. some fans claimed to be more upset ash was careless enough to get caught and put knight’s career in jeopardy, while others were upfront about being disappointed in him dating or sleeping with girls while under a dating ban.

the saving grace to his scandal that didn’t get him completely blacklisted or kicked out of the group was that there were never clear pictures of him kissing any of the girls released (though there were some pictures with varying levels of skin ship), so the claims were based on him being in popular date locations with girls alone and meeting them at apartments and hotels at night, allowing bc to officially deny all dating rumors and also allowing for a small minority of fans to still insist to this day that ash has never dated anyone and that he was “framed”, though, in general, people agree that bc was doing damage control.

ultimately, the scandal took an incredibly bad toll on ash’s mental health and it set off the worst bout of depression he’s ever experienced which lasted for months and has, in the long term, led to a lot of paranoia in his dating life and a general distrust and even dislike of and resentment toward his fans. it’s harmed other relationships he’s had afterward since he’s now private about his relationships to a fault and doesn’t tell even his closest friends when he’s seeing someone.

it also led to a change in his image, with less emphasis on any kind of innocence, and, for a while, less of an emphasis on a boyfriend-like image. instead, his image began to shift to really play up a heartbroken/~fixable~ aspect to the brooding artsy guy image to reel fans back in. the effects of the scandal are still ongoing, really, and have contributed to him being pushed in a sexier and more mature direction now.

#this is terrible but it's been in my drafts + i don't wanna panic about getting other stuff done for activity check on at least one muse #no one read this i know there's gotta be typos and stuff that doesn't make sense but i can't reread it before i queue it or it'll never go u #*up #&& holding on to something | headcanons #&& bring color to my skies | character development #&& queued