#uhh fyi being dramatic is the point of everything. ok.

[tibialtybalt]

I'M UNWELL ABOUT LOOP imagine being trapped and so miserable you cry "help me, someone, anyone, I need help, someone save me!" And the universe listened and said "okay :)" and scooped you up and sat you down in front of a younger you and said "you want them to be helped? saved? then help them. save them." And you do your best but you couldn't save yourself so how are you supposed to save...yourself? But you try.

While you help your understudy, you watch them. It's hard to feel any sympathy for them (you've had it worse for longer why can't they just get over themself) and it's hard to feel anything but sympathy for them (you know, you know, you've felt what they're feeling and you know it hurts, you have to make it stop). But there's very little you can do aside from talk, so most of what you do ends up being teasing them, sometimes with more teeth than either of you expect.

And y'know what? While your help amounted to absolutely nothing*, the understudy does do better than you. They make progress faster. Learn more about the trap than you ever did. They get out! They get saved! And that begs the question**: where did they go right that you went wrong? What did they do better, how are they better than you, how are they worth saving and you're not-

Because that's it, isn't it. They're not an understudy. You're a prototype. The first draft. They're new and improved, better than you in every way, and that makes them valuable and you abandoned scrap metal. No, no, you abandoned yourself, didn't you? If you had just tried harder, you would've been saved, wouldn't you? But you gave up! You told the universe to help you run away and be a mentor instead of solving your own problems so now the final draft's problems are solved and yours aren't! You don't even belong here anymore, since they stole your life, you're extraneous!! What are you supposed to do now?

*That's a lie. There are differences between you and the understudy, but the only one that matters is that they had you to help them, and you had no one to help you. Their success hinges on you being there.

**With the other footnote in mind, the question changes slightly. Not "what did they do right?", because what they did right was have you with them. The question is "Why them? How are they worth saving and you're not? Why couldn't they have helped you instead?"

#tia posts #isat act 6 spoilers #um. yeah so. what am i supposed to do with this #there is some part of my brain that is going 'you cant post this its too dramatic!!' #uhh fyi being dramatic is the point of everything. ok. #.....i am scheduling this to post at 3 am though. to save me some dignity. (<- ??????)

[angst-in-space]

For the fic ask meme, 8, 10 and 13?

8. Favorite plot point/chapter/moment?

ooh boy idk….maybe chapter 14 of altea rising?? finding the red lion and all that Klance Content…*clenches fist* it was just so much fun to write and i have kind of a soft spot for it since it’s one of the first parts i came up with when i was plotting out the whole fic, and altea rising is my baby so *wipes away tears*

10. Favorite line or lines of dialogue that you’ve written

answered!

13. Are there any things that might have happened in any of your stories, but you changed them at the last minute? (So-and-so dies, they don’t actually kiss, main character has long extended ballet-based dream sequence, etc.)

sdlkfdj i’m not one for big last-minute changes and typically i don’t change very much from my original outline plot-wise but just some things i can think of off the top of my head:

i originally kinda wanted to write “if the silence was a song” as like a dual-pov thing from both keith and lance’s perspectives, but 1) i was writing it under kind of a tight deadline so i kept it to a single pov to make it shorter, 2) i thought it ultimately worked better to have lance’s identity be kind of a “”mystery”” at first and that keith meeting him at the end would feel more big and dramatic yknow…. but from time to time i do consider writing some kinda companion piece or sequel in lance’s pov since a bunch of people have asked me about that haha. 

ok like i said i usually don’t change a ton from my original outline but “red skies” is….another story hahaha. my initial concept of it was pretty different…

i sort of wanted it to be a star wars au at first but then it morphed into its own thing.

i also considered it being more of a steampunk/space pirates au but ultimately that’s just uhh not really what it turned into lol.

keith was originally going to be like purple-furry galra keith (i planned out the fic soon after s1 and that was the popular galra!keith hc at the time so…..) but then later came along the white haired!keith thing and i liked that better lol.

lance and hunk were going to be adopted brothers but idk i ended up scrapping that idea bc it just didn’t seem to work.

i wanted there to be other talismans besides the blue and red talismans, and tried to come up with a way to fit voltron into the au, etc. but ultimately decided against it bc it was too complicated along with everything else, plus it felt a bit too similar to what i was doing with altea rising. 

….i actually added the whole talismans idea in kinda last-minute. before that i’d had a very vague concept of the plot, but once i came up with that it was kinda the catalyst that got me thinking up the whole story.

i don’t want to spoil the ending but let’s just say i’ve changed my mind about how i want to end it about 5 times lmao.

not related to plot but i had the absolute Hardest Time coming up with a title….i had like 20 options i was considering and most of them were terrible, but anyway. i was super close to calling it “we own the sky” (after the m83 song of the same name) but decided on “red skies” cuz it’s a bit snappier and thought it fit the mood of the fic more. (fyi it was vaguely inspired by that old saying “red sky at night, sailors’ delight / red sky at morning, sailors take warning”)

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