#waking up on thursday i knew that it was rw*b night which like. i was so fucking excited about Bing not in the way most people would think

[alexiaugustin]

god nobody understands how fucking happy i was exactly two weeks ago and how much ive been feeling like im never gonna be this happy again ever since

#last thursday/friday night was like My day. #waking up on thursday i knew that it was rw*b night which like. i was so fucking excited about Bing not in the way most people would think #or understand. anyway. i woke up knowing this and to the 1989 tv announcement. it was the first day of summer again after two weeks of cold #and rain. i got up and did my make up and got on a train to a bigger city nearby on my own just to get coffee and buy a book. #then i sent to the supermarket and bought stuff to make my honey we gotta get you on truvada rw*b cake. got back home around midnight and #started making the cake until almost three am which is when the movie dropped and i was like. so fucking excited and had the time of my life #with those first 45 minutes. had barely to none symptoms of mental illness that day. i was SO happy. #and i woke up the next morning feeling so angry about the way the rest of the movie wasn’t a bad masterpiece and also felt so empty. #and i haven’t stopped feeling empty since and rn the mental illness symptoms are back in full force. nice