#we'd probably all have drifted apart more naturally if we'd kept up a friendship which might have hurt more

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Finding the blogs of some of your ex-friends is so wild

#sam's rants about life #I found the blogs of the 2 people who were my best friends back in like 2013 #They're the reason I got on tumblr in the first place so props to them for that #but wow #we literally could not be more different people now #I don't even think the 2 of them are friends anymore which. cool. lol even #I'm literally the reason why the two of them met but that's besides the point right now #I'm talking about our differences #They're both like super into feminism and stuff (which is cool) but also really inti shit like fire emblem or other fandoms #that I wouldn't even dream of joining or fucking around in #and it makes me feel better that we parted wats when we did (even if it was on such shitty petty terms on their part) #we'd probably all have drifted apart more naturally if we'd kept up a friendship which might have hurt more #like I've had friendship where the relationship just fizzles out until you've slowly become ghosts to one another #ships that have finally parted in the night #and its really sad and while ending things on quick but painful terms hurts for the few months after it's finished #it hurts more knowing that you're no longer close to the people you were before even if nothing happened between you to warrent the drift #it hurts knowing that you slowly lost interest in one another #but in regards to these ex friends like I said things ended shittily #I was a weird kid and acted like one and got treated like one by finally being pushed out of the friend group #and I'm not going to say it was completely unjustified. because again I was a weird kid #losing those friends changed me and taught me a lesson so I don't regret things ending #its just interesting to see how we've all turned out 10 years later