#wehhhh i made this whole post hoping to feel better after i vented but i still feel bad

[volinare]

i called out... like right before my shift too. i am truly a monster. like they're going to have to find someone to cover my trucks. i just can't. like yesterday wasn't even that bad and i've been having fun, i enjoy the job i enjoy working and i just.

#like i put up with deep open sores on my ankles for this job. theyve only just now healed #and that didn't drive me to quit #but the last week has just been. like i didn't even go in that much because i hurt my knee last week and monday was labor day #my knee is fine now and i'm fine but i like had to leave early on tuesday because i was about to start fucking sobbing #and my brain was like . going joker mode. #i feel like. i have failed. #well actually i feel like a failure but i'm going to try and not be a bitch about this #i just want to have a job i keep and that i can go to while still like... feeling okay. and this is certainly not it #i guess i still had hope that this was... sustainable. because it was fun and easy #and really i'm being a baby like im not injured or anything #god being a quiter used to be so much easier before i like. realized i was doing that thing #that greg does in school in crazy ex girlfriend #he sings a song about it #like 'well i failed cause i didn't try' #and now im like. i tried. and i still weh weh weg #im also quitting before i like worked my self to the absolute bone and for some reason that makes me feel like i actually didn't try at all #do you think that black and white thinking is autism or bpd? vote now in the comments #i feeling like carving something pretty into my skin #wehhhh i made this whole post hoping to feel better after i vented but i still feel bad #i hope i die in my sleep #and the timing you know? the timing like this is just so fucking embarrassing but i dint fucking care #like congrats you got what you wanted there was a retard within 2 feet of you and now there's not