#what if they CANT find smth out and it rly is anxiety. or smth 😰

[sanchoyo]

The good news is that I went to the dr today and he didn’t dismiss me at all! He listened and did a few tests and got blood and a stomach xray but said he doesn’t rly know what the problem could be so he’s sending me to …a specialist AND to the hospital later this week for additional tests and. A scope of my stomach and I’m like 😰 I know it was probably unrealistic to think he’d just immediately kno what the problem was and be able to prescribe something to fix it but I’m like. A little SCARED now bc now it feels Real and more serious aaaa 🫠

#also medical tests. cost money I already don’t have and I’m worried and glued to indeed rn #but eVEN IF I START A NEW JOB ID BE MISSING DAYS BC OF THE APPOINTMENTS AND RANDOM . EPISODES. AAA!!! #very turbulent time but not for the reasons I expected December Panic to be for #hope they don’t do any tests that would impair driving hahah…🫣 #I still feel faint from how much blood they took eugh 😭 bury me already I’m TIRED #and I’m afraid if it’s serious. or what if it’s not and I spend so much money just trying to figure it out?? #what if they CANT find smth out and it rly is anxiety. or smth 😰 #I don’t think it is but what if!!! #also my brain blanked bc I was so scared and I forgot to bring up the therapy stuff or the mood swings LOL #well I will simply set those problems on the back burner I guess. too late now 😐 #sanchoyorambles #my sister came with me so I wouldn’t forget anything but we both forgot bc I said smth. embarrassingly socially inappropriate and it had us #cry laughing while the nurses were just like 👁️👁️⁉️ #SO. MAYBE I WILL WRITE THINGS DOWN NEXT TIME. AHSJDJCJ #also just got some bad news abt something totally unrelated and it’s like. well things always do this don’t they. avalanche of Problems #never just one at a time 😔 understandable but also I believe I’ve been cursed by a warlock of some sort #if ur that warlock hmu so I can behead u and break the curse please 🙏 ty