#which is terrible. ppl I can call rn are either total strangers who have no clue who I am or close family members

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parents trying to pressure me into a phone call hrrgs

#'well you did it multiple times this week so it should be easier for you now' #these are wildly different circumstances tho #1. I did the other phone calls bc I wanted to #2. They had a specific time frame #3. I knew about them in advance #4. They were what I deemed 'important'. I had to do those or I will never get a therapist #the phone call rn would've been to order food so #1. unexpected #2. not important (to my anxiety brain. 'we can just eat bread at home idc!') #3. we order food there pretty often so the people there are in the acquaintances category #which is terrible. ppl I can call rn are either total strangers who have no clue who I am or close family members #4. I didn't have a script for what I should say #doddie redet #and telling my parents 'no I won't do it' also makes me anxious af (but less than phone calls) so I'm still feeling bad even tho #I didn't make the call. aaaAAAAA