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#will catch onto me being an “alien” or not quite fitting their mold or having a difference of opinion and i get bullied or ostracized
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✨️Magenta✨️
#I've been really sad lately
#its logical I've had a lot happen and a lot going on
#and I've been mostly bedridden the past week cause of fibro flares
#my brain can see the logic of why my body feels burnt out and why i feel anxious
#but i also have this profound sense of loneliness that's been weighing on my chest
#I feel the need to isolate and get away from people because it feels like it doesn't matter how much i try to blend in someone
#will catch onto me being an “alien” or not quite fitting their mold or having a difference of opinion and i get bullied or ostracized
#out of participating with folks or doing activities
#and i get so overwhelmed by people and their literal energy/vibes that it feels as though I'm caught in a sneaker wave and being pulled
#from shore and this is compounded on top of that feeling of being surrounded by people like tons of them who may even enjoy your company
#but still feel very much isolated and alone the whole time
#it could be winter triggering trauma responses in me due to childhood abuse related to the holidays
#and then there's me trying to brainstorm how i can make money with my creativity when i have little to no help with anyone
#and no one will give me a chance to bounce ideas and get a third persons opinion
#its felt like this since i can remember: people value that i listen and reflect all the while show compassion
#and then when i really need it myself and attempt to reach out i get the door shut in my face
#it feels like the only people that have truly listened to me are therapists lmao and it hurts cause its like i gotta pay someone
#just to listen to me go off on this idea i have for a side hustle a creative pursuit something i love
#and i can't really share that with anyone irl because I'm supposed to be everyones therapist
#and its shitty i dont get paid for it if thats the case lol
#i feel like tumblr is the only spot I really have where i can share a lot of myself and make things that make others and myself happy
#i don't know what id do without it
#magenta is my safe word for venting
#thanks for coming to my tedtalk as i write into the void
#getting shit off my chest at 4am
#i aint gettin no sleep cause of yall yall not gon get no sleep cause of meeee
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