#wooooooof this'll be somethin else

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#reading experiences with changing yr name and gender marker and it's either /went fast #was ok/ or /death would be preferable/ and it's getting me #but i know i have anxiety so i try to hold onto hope and tell myself /it could go well! nothings lost yet/ #sometimes i read about how difficult it is to be trans and i wonder how people here do it bc i instantly get /i can't do this i need to die #thoughts in my head but i also know that's probably the anxiety (and depression tbh) #journal eb #i hope for my own sake that when i go through this which is hopefully sometime this year i have people to help me keep going and who will #help keep me from losing my mind #idk yet #this year will be so uncertain #idk who will be there for me and who i will have to let go #and it's all probably going to happen while i'm writing my thesis so impeccable timing on my front once again #wooooooof this'll be somethin else