#working on finding a ride atm bc i don't drive. maybe talking abt it will keep me accountable

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tbh the anxiety is making me feel physically ill but fingers crossed that i can get through an assessment at a hospital soon 🤞🏻 my boss recommended an outpatient program to me, if everything works out i'll hopefully be taking a leave of absence from work for a few weeks to get my life and, more important, mental health under control

#no idea how quickly this will be happening bc i've never done anything like it before #but i already told HR i was planning on it. just a matter of getting myself to the hospital #working on finding a ride atm bc i don't drive. maybe talking abt it will keep me accountable #bc im really bad abt saying im going to do something to help myself out and then .. Not doing it #ig i usually feel like i can simply nut up and shut up and be fine but things are getting to a point where they Are Not Fine #and i can't keep pushing away my problems #maybe a little tmi idk but i like keeping you guys updated #anyway i know i've been distant as fuck and i never answer anybody anymore and i swear to you that's nothing personal #i'm just not myself right now and i don't like exposing people to Me when i'm majorly depressed