#yay! so fun! would definitely choose this for myself again if I could 🫠

[userkoo]

existing with a phobia is hell on earth and i am truly sorry to anyone who has to live with one :/

#i hate all spiders #but there’s a specific one that’s just Worse for me #and i have found three in my room within the past ~two weeks #(plus even more in my whole house) #i feel so on edge tonight :( #i cried earlier because i feel so uncomfortable in my own space. #it’s such a terrible feeling. and it’s even worse when my family downplays it #i have been told ‘it’s just a spider’ more times than i can count #like. do you think i don’t wish i could see it like that?? #i don’t want to feel this way. obviously #if i was even just scared of them the way most people are. that would also be fine #but nope! i get a debilitating fear. one that’s making it hard for me to sleep rn #yay! so fun! would definitely choose this for myself again if I could 🫠