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johnny blinks. ❝ & you don't think you & robby have been hanging out with ethan too much..? ❞

perhaps slightly stubbornly, miguel shakes his head. ❝ absolutely not, sensei. we hang out with our fiancé a totally normal amount. ❞ he suddenly pauses like a thought has occurred to him. he looks down at ethan fast asleep, the taller boy's head resting comfortably on his lap, a blanket thrown over his body, miguel's hands running through his hair. robby's next to him. shit. ❝ uh, ignore ethan. ❞ he stutters out. ...& the fact that they've been hanging out since this morning. they just got back from furniture shopping for the new house, of course ethan's sleepy! adulting is super taxing. johnny doesn't look amused, rolling his eyes & clicking his tongue, his question answered. miguel smiles guiltily.

oops.

#ooc. / mia speaks. #muse update.

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miguel: no one tell ethan this, because he'll get an ego about it, but i'm pretty sure his dryer humor has rubbed off on me, &-

ethan, busting through the wall like the kool-aid man: that is fantastic news, why would you want to hide that from me, what the fuck.

johnny: starts complaining over the state of the ethan-sized hole in the wall

#ooc. / mia speaks.

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SHAMELESS | 5.06

#dyn.: taughtdefense. #having thoughts™️

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miguel vc: if i see auryn repulsa breathe anywhere near my eth, i'm taking a baseball bat to his car.

#ooc. / mia speaks.

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THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT - THE ANTHOLOGY BY TAYLOR SWIFT PROMPT LIST *  assorted lyrics from the album, some lines slightly adapted for meme purposes but feel free to adjust as necessary

even if it's handcuffed, i'm leaving here with you.

trust me. i can handle a dangerous man.

i love you. it's ruining my life.

does it feel all right to not know me?

i am who i am 'cause you trained me.

quick. tell me something awful.

i loved you the way that you were.

we were just kids, babe.

i can fix him.

you and i go from one kiss to getting married.

you said i'm the love of your life.

way up there, i actually love it.

i just don't understand how you don't miss me.

do you hate me?

did you think i had it in me?

what if i told you i'm back?

i still miss the smoke.

i'm not trying to exaggerate, but i think i might die if it happened.

you look like stevie nicks.

it's hell on earth to be heavenly.

i still can't believe it.

this happens once every few lifetimes.

didn't you hear? they called it all off.

it's happening again.

my friends say it isn't right to be scared.

i might just die.

fuck you if i can't have us.

tell me about the first time you saw me.

are you gonna marry, kiss, or kill me?

no one's ever had me... not like you.

stay away from her.

there wouldn't be this if there hadn't been you.

i don't think you've changed much.

that's where i was when i lost it all.

life was always easier on you than it was on me.

i hoped you'd return.

do you believe me now?

what if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time?

what are the chances you'd be downtown?

is it something i did?

oh, we must stop meeting like this.

they say what doesn't kill you makes you aware.

i'm not a donor, but i'd give you my heart if you needed it.

looking backwards might be the only way to move forwards.

the story isn't mine anymore.

what a charming saturday!

none of it is changing.

wild winds are death to the candle.

one bad seed kills the garden.

i'm bitter, but i swear i'm fine.

this place made me feel worthless.

i didn't want to come down.

everything had been above board.

blood's thick, but nothing like a payroll.

you can mark my words that i said it first.

the professor said to write what you know.

all of this to say, i hope you're okay.

your words are still just ringing in my head.

i built a legacy which you can't undo.

who do i have to speak to to change the prophecy?

the effects were temporary.

no, i'm not coming to my senses.

babe, you gotta fake it 'til you make it.

you know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart.

i guess a lesser woman would've lost hope.

thought of calling you, but you won't pick up.

you're a professional.

long may you reign.

you're an animal. you are bloodthirsty.

now i seem to be scared to go outside.

i don't believe in good luck.

i hate it here.

if i'd been there, i'd hate it.

only the gentle survived.

i'm lonely, but i'm good.

you have no room in your dreams for regrets.

i thought it was just goodbye for now.

are you still a mind reader?

let it once be me.

i haven't decided yet.

i still dream of him.

i'm so afraid i sealed my fate.

it was always the same searing pain.

i can't forgive the way you made me feel.

it wasn't a fair fight or a clean kill.

she used to say she wished that you were dead.

tell me all your secrets.

they tried to warn you about me.

you're in terrible danger.

i'm the life you chose.

yes, i'm haunted, but i'm feeling just fine.

no one asks any questions here.

tell me i'm despicable. say it's unforgivable.

i'm running back home to you.

you should see your faces.

you knew the price going in.

was any of it true?

who the fuck was that guy?

i don't ever want you back.

did you sleep with a gun underneath out bed?

you don't get to tell me you feel bad.

you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me.

am i allowed to cry?

there's no such thing as bad thoughts. only your actions talk.

they're going to crucify me anyway.

i know i'm just repeating myself.

that's the closest i've come to my heart exploding.

#prompt.

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nah bc xolo absolutely ate the "she doesn't love you, she loves me!" line during the school fight. robert 'robby' swayze keene were you silent or silenced. i need to write miguel being a Menace more

#ooc. / mia speaks. #if i thought that was bad wait until i actually write the school fight drabble ft ethan

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samguel for the ship meme

ship meme! / @taughtmercy

Who asks the other on dates: Miguel asks Sam!

Who is the bigger cuddler: Miguel!

Who initiates holding hands more often: Miguel

Who remembers anniversaries: Hmm, I think Miguel

Who is more possessive: Sam

Who gets more jealous: Sam

Who is more protective: Miguel

Who is more likely to cheat: Literally neither

Who initiates sexy times the most: Hmm… I’d say it’s 60% (Sam) / 40% (Miguel). That™️ make-out scene in the MD Dojo, circa S4 pretty much confirms that, lol.

Who dislikes PDA the most: Dislikes? Neither. There’s times where it’s not appropriate, sure, but I think Miguel & Sam make up for it later… in private. -coughs-

Who kills the spider: Miguel ( humanely ) takes spiders out of the apartment.

Who asks the other to marry them: Neither ( Ethan took care of that. Ethan vc: ☺️ )

Who buys the other flowers or gifts: Miguel!

Who would bring up possibly having kids: Miguel does.

Who is more nervous to meet the parents: n/a

Who sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: Miguel, I guess.

Who tries to make up first after arguments: The thing with this question & the above one is, is that I don’t really know what they’d be fighting about, both post ot5 & esp. ot5 engagement, but I guess, if it really came down to it… Miguel

Who tells the other they love them more often: Miguel! He says the words to Sam during 5x10, & then he can’t stop saying it. Sam’s leaving the apartment for whatever reason? Miguel bounds over to her like a puppy & smooches her before saying “I love you 😊”. Miguel leaving the miyagi dojo to hang out with Johnny? “I love you, babe, I’ll see you later.” Miguel making breakfast for himself & his loves, & Sam hands him something without Miguel even needing to communicate it? “I love you ☺️”

#taughtmercy

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OUT OF CONCERN FOR HIS BEST FRIEND, MIGUEL HAS BASICALLY BEEN KEEPING TABS ON ETHAN THE ENTIRE NIGHT.

despite his internalized jealousies, he’d been trying to butt out of ethan & auryn’s relationship at first, but that quickly became impossible given how differently ethan’s been acting lately. he went from his usual chaotic self to something… sadder. he’s been pulling away from his trainings, he’s been skipping school. it’s done nothing but make miguel worry. miguel’s been a little more angry lately because of it, just in general. his mom & abuela can’t figure out what’s going on with him. everything’s going good with sam, miguel catching her staring at robby & tory dancing at prom earlier notwithstanding. he hasn’t taken his annoyances out on anyone, certainly not sam, but he also hasn’t expressed the reason(s) why he’s angry—all of which start with an a & ends with a n. it helps some that chase, rosalie, ciro, icarus & emma—along with their other friends—are clearly concerned about ethan, so he’s not alone in the alarm bells ringing.

auryn was invited to the miyagi-do dojo by ethan a few days ago, & auryn spent the entire time distracting ethan or pulling him away from his trainings. their senseis—all of them, including sensei wilson—hadn’t been thrilled with that. miguel’s noticed with how… off ethan’s been acting lately. he’s been more subdued, quieter. nothing like the person he knows. he’s convinced that auryn’s constant presence isn’t helping matters. this morning, miguel had pulled ethan aside to ask him if he’s okay, if his relationship with auryn is good. ethan had told him that everything’s great between him & auryn. he told him with a smile, & it reached his eyes. if he was anyone else, it would have convinced them. but miguel’s known him since the first week of school, & he’s his best friend.

ethan is standing across the living room in one of the corners with auryn, hunched in on himself slightly & holding his boyfriend’s hand, his eyes on the hardwood floor. auryn’s clearly passionately talking. it doesn’t sound like he’s yelling: his body language isn’t quite that, but ethan looks a little sad for some reason. with the after party chaos around the house, no one else is paying attention to them, but miguel is. the dark circles underneath his eyes are obvious in the lights of stingray’s home. something’s about to go wrong with those two. the little voice in miguel’s head screams. while he can’t read minds & has no proof to back the claim the voice says up, his shoulders tense, adrenaline spiking alongside his heartbeat kicking up. ethan responds, but miguel can’t hear them over the music, the voices & chatter throughout the whole house too loud, & the distance between them. he doesn’t have super-human hearing.

the blood in his veins boils as auryn reaches a hand up to ethan’s earplugs in his ears, the anger in his eyes increasing by the tenfold. ethan, who looks scared, blurts something out then surges forward to kiss auryn. miguel supposes he should look away, but the voice in his head tells him that he shouldn’t. not in a creepy, voyeuristic way, but out of concern. the blond’s hand freezing around the white wire of his corded earplug before he can yank(?) one of his earplugs out (or is he just adjusting the cord?), then pushing on ethan’s shoulders to make him stop kissing him. ethan still looks very nervous as he pulls away, & auryn drops his hand away from ethan’s earplug.

ethan still doesn’t relax.

absolutely furious & thinking only on his unfiltered rage, miguel takes a step away from the snack table. but he doesn’t move towards sam out by the pool, or towards the couple in question, but to @taughtpain nearby. he storms across the room like a man on a mission, his hand lashing out to curl tightly around robby’s suit-jacket clad arm before he even makes his presence fully known to the other, knuckles bone white.

❝ i need to talk to you. now. ❞ he rushes out. it isn’t a request, but a demand, that much is clear in his tone, in his body language. there’s no fucking shot he’s going to let ethan out of his sight, not after what he just witnessed.

ethan makes eye contact with robby for a half-second, then quickly looks down again, shoulders deflating. it makes miguel’s heart break. unfortunately, auryn is scarily perceptive. it causes him to whip around mid-sentence to where ethan’d been looking. it leads him to finding him & robby, miguel’s hand still wrapped tightly around his arm. miguel’s not going to fight robby, not here, despite making the first contact. the rage on his face—solely directed towards auryn—clearly spikes. ( by the way the curious look on his face turns into a knowing smirk, auryn looks very smug about that. )

#taughtpain #they can be salty together #in character. / season 4.

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3x3 | 7x1 | 7x5

#dyn.: taughtdefense.

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Send me a ship and I’ll tell you...

Who asks the other on dates: Who is the bigger cuddler: Who initiates holding hands more often: Who remembers anniversaries: Who is more possessive: Who gets more jealous: Who is more protective: Who is more likely to cheat: Who initiates sexy times the most: Who dislikes PDA the most: Who kills the spider: Who asks the the other to marry them: Who buys the other flowers or gifts: Who would bring up possibly having kids: Who is more nervous to meet the parents: Who sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: Who tries to make up first after arguments: Who tells the other they love them more often:

#prompt.

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Conrad Fisher + being jealous of Cam Cameron

#miggy watching et.han au.ryn interact #study.

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Eddie + being a jealous petty little bitch

#study. #yeah™️

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I’d be nothing without @taughtdefense-a.

#ooc. / mia speaks. #the fact that this works both ic & ooc #i wouldn’t have made miguel’s blog without ethan’s & miguel loves ethan to pieces

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:: 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒 ! ──── ⪩⪨ 𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐋 𝐐𝐔𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 ; 𝐩𝐭. 𝐢𝐢

‘ they’ll crucify you if you stay ’

‘ you have chosen the worst ending for yourself, and one day you will come to terms with that ’

‘ listen to the beating of your heart. what does it tell you in this moment? ’

‘ maybe the hurt would be worth it all in the end ’

‘ your life will end in solace or violence. you would be wise to remember that ’

‘ they are sin themselves, aren’t they? be careful ’

‘ ah, the classic feeling of rejection. i see romance is just as alive as ever ’

‘ you know who you are beneath it all, do you not? ’

‘ one of us has to survive this, don’t we? ’

‘ i hope you’re not thinking about killing me. it won’t end the way you want it to ’

‘ i want to hate you so much. why won’t you let me do this? ’

‘ you cannot distance yourself from this violence ’

‘ i love you ; i will gladly give all of myself to you ’

‘ inside your heart resides a wrath. when will you put it to rest? ’

‘ the life you lived was made of cruelty ’

‘ you should be dead by now. don’t you understand that? ’

‘ do not forget, you are more than a thorn in my side than an ally ’

‘ crying is not a weakness. there’s no need to hide it ’

‘ forgive me for all the things i can’t say ’

‘ it would be so much easier, wouldn’t it? to wake each morning and know that you would not be throwing yourself into the jaws of death ’

‘ you are my home. i will always find my way back to you ’

‘ maybe i’ll see you in my dreams ’

‘ okay, tone down the ego ’

‘ the day of reckoning will come and i’ll kill you a thousand times over ’

‘ you can do this, you know. if anyone can, it’s you ’

‘ something tells me that you aren’t thinking about me right now ’

‘ it is a very sad thing, to meet a downfall you cannot save yourself from ’

‘ you are so desperate to be loved ’

‘ they warned you of holy beings ’

‘ did you forget that you are no longer who you once were before? ’

‘ they will understand, but they won’t understand like you do ’

‘ it’s easier to be numb in the face of war ’

‘ focus on nothing else but what survives in us ’

‘ i am grateful to spend another day with you like this ; may we share many more together ’

‘ have you forgotten the sins i’ve committed? ’

‘ your heart tells you that there is no safe passage here ’

‘ you could come back to us, make this right ’

‘ it’s either them or us. don’t think too hard about it ’

‘ it doesn’t matter where we came from or who we were supposed to be ’

‘ you’ll have to try harder if you want me to feel anything ’

‘ you can be the one to take me out of this misery ’

‘ i’ve never been one to count my blessings, but with you, maybe i should start ’

‘ survival is easiest when you’re alone ’

‘ be careful, time is a merciless being ’

‘ you should have left long ago, foolish little lamb ’

‘ you can put down the knife, you know ’

‘ you’re not calling me weak, are you? ’

‘ it doesn’t do good to overthink ’

‘ another dead body doesn’t mean anything when you’re always wearing black ’

‘ you never knew, but you should have ’

‘ you treat me like you are made of tenderness. that doesn’t exist in you ’

‘ what a fucking coward you are ’

‘ careful. gods are the only ones who determine life and death ’

‘ let go. don’t be frightened ’

‘ keep away. you should not be here with me ’

‘ speak. tell me what is on your mind ’

 ‘ your violence will consume you ’

‘ a single beating heart would not make a difference in the world ’

‘ you can fall if you want. who would i be, after all, if i couldn’t catch you? ’

‘ something is coming. something bad is coming ’

‘ you are not made of holy beings ’

‘ are you worthy, little lamb? ’

‘ those who betray are the most wretched of all ’

‘ surely you cannot love something that is incapable of feeling anything but horrid things, can you? ’

‘ you dreamt of those angels, didn’t you? ’

‘ it will be okay in the end. it has to be ’

‘ i’m sorry, i should have done better to protect you ’

‘ forgive me for doubting myself ’

‘ i’m plenty nice to you. i don’t treat everyone like this, you know ’

‘ didn’t you know the soul was meant for breaking? ’

‘ i love you, i hope you know that ’

‘ stop looking at me, ugly ’

‘ i’m begging you, spare me the embarrassment ’

‘ to be born with a heart is both a curse & a blessing ’

‘ there’s a home to be found everywhere and nowhere ’

‘ i hope you don’t forget me when the time comes ’

‘ what’s so important that you aren’t paying attention to me? ’

‘ wherever you go, i go ’

‘ i will carry you in my heart until we reunite ’

‘ foolish are those deserving of death, and you are no different ’

‘ but it is love, after all, that intertwines us ’

‘ this world frightens you so dearly, but you keep on living anyway ’

‘ you’re such a damn liar ’

‘ are we allowed this? ’

‘ you should not get too attached. this will hurt more than it should if you allow it to ’

‘ i think it’s okay to be selfish now ’

‘ i changed my mind. i don’t like you at all ’

‘ what a foolish god you are ’

‘ it doesn’t matter, anyway, the difference between sinner & saint ’

‘ you are a soldier first and foremost ’

‘ did you survive? ’

‘ look into the mirror. are you there? where have you gone? ’

‘ we’ve got all the time in the world, so let’s wait, okay? ’

‘ the only gods to exist are those who know worship through love ’

‘ i think you care more than you let on ’

‘ so what does it really matter, anyway? ’

‘ you’re not who you were anymore ’

‘ you told me that we’ve met before, so why don’t i remember you? i know you ’

‘ i will love and find you in every lifetime ’

‘ should the nightmares revisit you, i will be here ’

#prompt.

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i need to update miguel’s carrd SO badly i’m yelling. maybe i’ll do that tonight.

#ooc. / mia speaks.

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A FEW VARIOUS SENTENCE STARTERS

❝ i wouldn't find the need to tell you 'i told you so' if you weren't so allergic to admitting i'm right. ❞

❝ there are better hills to die on but i find this one quite comfortable. ❞

❝ would you come with me please? i adore your company. ❞

❝ that's not the worst thing i've ever heard but it's certainly up there. ❞

❝ i would love to help you but i'm afraid i'm suffering from a terrible case of 'it's not my problem.' ❞

❝ could you just think about anyone other than yourself for once? ❞

❝ i'm not going to stand here and argue with you about how much you need to get some rest. if i find you passed out on the floor i'm leaving you there. ❞

❝ would you be a dear and shut the hell up. ❞

❝ i know i need help but i'm not quite ready to ask for it. ❞

❝ do you know where we're going or are we just trying to get lost now? ❞

❝ i have confided this in you, please do not betray that trust. ❞

❝ do you like it here? with me? ❞

❝ are you still happy? with me, i mean. with us. ❞

❝ i didn't lie, i simply presented a selective truth. ❞

❝ do you actually like spending time with me? because i feel like all you do is argue. ❞

❝ one of us will eventually have to have the strength to be honest with ourselves about each other. ❞

❝ i want to tell you something i just need a moment to figure out the right words. ❞

❝ if you were the religious type i would challenge god to win your devotion. ❞

❝ don't tell me to quit being melodramatic it's the only time i have any fun. ❞

❝ were you ever going to tell me or were you just going to make me guess what you're thinking and feeling. ❞

#prompt.

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Pour one out for #dyn.: taughtdefense..

#real #ooc. / mia speaks.