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Two Bad Bitches who pulled each by being Autistic

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peneloise + gazing longingly at each other

BRIDGERTON, season 3 part 1

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i really, really love how they're handling penelope and eloise's relationship in bridgerton - there isn't forgiveness yet, but the space left by the rupture in their friendship is all the more emphasized by how nothing can fill it. penelope gets the same treatment that eloise did by whistledown - she has to suffer a taste of her own medicine. eloise isn't cruel and she still cares for penelope. penelope completely understands eloise's anger. neither is vindictive; both are grieving; both yearn for each other more than anything else; and yet for all that, nothing is or will be the same between them again, and I think that in and of itself is a form of a betrayal, a "you were my person, and then you took yourself away from me."

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Oh but to be Eloise knowing you said something unforgivable to your best friend but unable to take it back because what then of your pain? Who will stay in your corner if not yourself? To see your friend alone without you just as you were alone without her but unable to do anything but watch on and worry. Asking for forgiveness with your eyes but never from your lips because what then would become of the both of you? So you take the road not taken. You try to curb the path where it will hurt the least, knowing full well neither of you will make it out unscathed

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ok im going to ramble for a minute but i think van palmer's turn towards violence is so interesting. like in the beginning, she nearly throws up just thinking about allie's broken leg. she can't watch when shauna sobs over her baby's body. but then she's one of the first to truly believe and accept that they'll end up turning to violence in order to survive - she stops and she watches shauna beat their friend and teammate and she knows. it's brutal and bloody and near deadly, but this time, she doesn’t look away.

despite her weak stomach, she's always been willing to do what she believes is necessary. to her, violence isn't intriguing or sensational or something to be celebrated - but it is something to be resorted to, one of those things she sees as an inevitability, a necessity, no matter how painful or nauseating or depressing. she’ll slap her mother awake, but first she'll call out to her. she'll hunt nat through the woods and she'll let a 14yo drown, but only because she and taissa and lottie and everyone who she cares for, they're all starving, or hurt. she will do what she believes it will take to keep herself and her loved ones alive, at least most of them, at least as many of them as possible - because, of course, she’s always tried so hard to be the protector. that's who she is, shown in a thousand little ways. she plays goalie. she tries to break up the fight between tai and shauna in the pilot and she starts to defend nat when travis is being a dickhead in bear down and she helps hold shauna back until lottie tells them not to in burial. she tries to look after tai when she sleepwalks, like how she possibly had to look after her mother for years. she jokes around and she tells the group stories, trying to keep them connected to the outside world.

i think it's interesting to see a character so solidly rooted in the idea of protection to be the one spearheading violent action. it's ironic and tragic and it makes sense, because as yellowjackets shows, over and over - care is not an inherently gentle or bloodless act!! it's van telling the others to leave her bleeding in the woods after the wolf attack and it's tying herself to tai even though she gets hurt and it's helping carry bodies onto the plane and digging graves. it's telling tai she loves her for the first time by literally writing it in her own blood.

sometimes it’s painful. sometimes it's not healthy or righteous. sometimes it’s the hard choice - putting forth the playing cards and joining the hunt and watching with grim determination as javi struggles and cries out for help, and then separating herself and the others from the choice to let him die by claiming the wilderness made it for them. reaching out and turning his face away from shauna when it’s time for the bloodletting. convincing travis to cannibalize his little brother by telling him that he owes javi this final act of love.

it's giving up retelling movies and tv shows and instead telling a different story, a quiet, cold one, because she believes the only way for them to survive out in the wilderness is to give themselves over to it fully, no matter how horrible - because, after everything, what choice does she feel she has but to persist? even in wiskayok, living was always a fight, another series of necessary actions in order to Get Through It and Get Out. after the alcoholic mother and ambiguously unmentioned father and the trials of being young and gay and butch in the suburbs of 90s new jersey, she wants a future, so badly. and after having to pull herself out of the crash and surviving the wolf attack and the pyre, after spending months watching the others around her suffer and starve and die, she can't pull out of the fight. she wouldn't even know how. like a brutal, desperate instinct, she must survive, and she must protect.

it's agonizing but she won't let herself feel it and it's endless but she can only think about the end result. it's selfish in the way they're almost all selfish and it's loving in the way they all love - but especially van, who is so deeply and fiercely protective, who has always cared so much. in the end, that protective instinct both keeps her painfully human and pushes her out into the deep end. it's the kindest and most wonderful piece of her being and it's an intense force that leads her towards brutality. because sometimes caring is the violent thing!! sometimes love is violence and violence is love!!!!

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stole this from twitter!!!

https://moviesr.net/p-yellowjackets-season-3-complete-filming-schedule-revealed

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i've only completed like one fic from van's pov so far but i have Such. a precise way that i like to characterize Van and Love

it's unhealthy. it's so unhealthy!!

van's the type of person who attaches herself onto any girl that she thinks can provide her with Safety and Love, and she gives back everything she is in return bc she believes it's conditional. she thinks if she doesn't let them feed off her organs they won't love her anymore.

it's tai. it's lottie. (god i hope) it's nat.

and she plays so well off the three of them and their relationships with love.

tai loves van, she needs van, she needs van safe because she hurt van before, but shes also a narcissist. she needs to feel important and van gives her that. what's more important than being the center of this girl's world?

lottie doesn't want to be worshipped, but she will, if it helps van. she'll cut herself into pieces if she thinks it will help someone. it doesn't even really matter that it's van, but also it does, because van is the only one still around who's never thought she's crazy.

natalie didn't ever want to lead, but, god, it is so good to be loved. and van has so much love to give, so nice and docile and sweet like a dog, as long as lottie says, this is who we listen to now. this is who the wilderness speaks through now.

#the cult of sisters #dee and april #jamie and april #April and elizabeth

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Ginger Snaps (2000) ~ Yellowjackets (2021)

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jackie admiring laura lee’s faith SO MUCH and she really believes that maybe she’s going to get them help for van and shauna and then. POOF. she’s dead. and there’s nothing getting better and she figures out who shauna’s baby daddy is and she’s not getting along with anyone and they’re not getting rescued and nothing matters! nothing she does or ever will do matters because shauna doesn’t love her and no one wants her and laura lee put her faith in god and died! any faith or hope jackie still had left died with laura lee

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This is me trying to spread the poly plastics message along

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i loveeeeeee nonlinear storytelling. show me where we are. now show me how we got here. the end before the beginning. show me how it was inevitable or how many chances we had to change things(nothing was ever going to change). let's meet in the middle as all the puzzle pieces slide into place hell yeah that's the good shit.

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Dialogue Responses

"What is wrong with you?"

"It's a long story."

"Very good question."

"Oh, so many things."

"Too many things to count."

"Well, thank you for asking..."

"I'm tired of defending myself."

"Don't act like I'm the problem!"

"How much time do you have?"

"Do you really want to find out?"

"Nothing, but what is wrong with you?"

All the Dialogue Responses can be found here.

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THEY MIGHT BE DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE BUT GODDAMMIT THEY FOUND HAPPINESS WITH EACH OTHER AND CHOSE TO ENJOY THEIR TIME TOGETHER DESPITE THE INEVITABLE TRAGEDY AND THAT IS WHY I LOVE THEM

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Thanks so much, your art is amazing❤❤❤

soon :)

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shauna never fully letting go of jackie and her and jeff visiting her parents on her birthday every year. misty being willing to do anything for nat. lottie saving nat’s life. van writing i love you to tai in her blood. shauna crying when she realizes that she has to kill nat. the other version of tai whispering “go to her” and leading her to van. lottie getting beat up just to make shauna feel better. shauna and van not letting tai sleepwalk. misty being with nat when she finds travis’ body. tai paying for nat’s rehab and doing whatever she can for her. ALL OF THE SURVIVORS DANCING TOGETHER IN THE SNOW THAT TRIED TO KILL THEM 25 YEARS AGO IT’S NOT A LOVE STORY BUT IT’S A STORY THAT HAS LOVE IN IT ARE YOU GETTING WHAT I’M TRYING TO SAY??

#the cult of sisters

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SHAUNA SHIPMAN + BRUTUS BY BUTTRESS

how could it not have been me? after everything? when i was the only one willing to do what it took to keep us all fed? i used to think it was jackie who made me feel invisible but—

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 "We always knew how and when she was going to die. We had word-for-word, scripted, and a memorized pitch that we made a lot of people sit through. The final phrase was, ‘And as the first snow begins to fall, we end Season One.’ We knew that Jackie was going to die. In the most straightforward way, our show is operating on that Lord of the Flies level. She was symbolic of society and the home that they had known, and the ways of thinking and behaving, and all of those structures. It felt important to us. She just didn’t seem like a character who was going to make it. That said, we wanted to give her the dignity of an emotionally moving death and not just a shocking death. We were interested in playing out her friendship with Shauna, because teenage girl friendships can be volatile. It’s always this push and pull and ebb and flow, and you get into a fight and then you make up. I think, had they been at home, this fight and this fissure in their relationship was inevitable, but we were interested in the ways that the consequences would just be so different out in the wilderness.. […] This just felt right to us in terms of what needed to happen.“ — Yellowjackets Co-Creator Ashley Lyle