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teardropsandbs · 2 months
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Heal
I pray and still keep praying that I heal from this awful feeling that my mom caused and continue to cause. I have all the signs and reasons to cut ties but that is just not who I am. She can't accept that she is doing something wrong, she gets defensive when you try to talk, a million times and more, but nothing has changed. There's no trust, no support, and she's the main root of my anxiety. She acts as if she cares sometimes but when I need her the most, she's the one who will make me feel more down. Am I really her child? I asked this question so many times and I know I am but she just doesn't have the capability of at least meeting me halfway. It has to be always her way. I guess it's because I never stand up for myself unlike my sister, who she's so afraid of. I thought all this time I am being respectful by shoving it all away but by doing that, I just let her disrespect me all the time. We are better off away from each other. I really want to move away from them but I love my dad and my ninang so much I can't leave them at this age. They need me most of the time and they will need me more when they get older. I just really wish I could heal and just ignore everything my mom has to say. She creates issues with everyone and she never wants to get corrected. So tiring!
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teardropsandbs · 4 years
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‪You will always be my 🐇. Thank you for everything. What you did today proved so much more than you know. I needed that chapter closed. Til I see you again in 🌌. ‬
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teardropsandbs · 4 years
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Mi Mamba
As usual, it’s been a while since my last post here. There are moments that I wanted to write here but had no time but here I am, 12:58 am, got a writing juice to express what’s up with my life.
It’s been a sad week. Exactly a week ago, Kobe, his daughter Gigi aka Mambacita and some other were killed in a helicopter crash in Calabasas. The whole world is mourning. A lot of people may not get the intensity of Mamba effect in our lives. I was never a fan girl of any celebrity. I don’t get starts-trucked easily with famous people but there are few personalities that I really admire because of the way they live their lives and Kobe tops that list! The guy is just unbelievable. I can not put into words how incredibly heartbroken I am. I just wished he had more years to mentor and inspire more people or at least get to enjoy more years of retirement. He spent 20 years focusing on the game and his time with his family definitely suffered and you could see in his eyes how much he loves being a girl dad. That also breaks my heart. Kobe doesn’t even know me but I’m 100% sure he knows the effect of Mamba Mentality to us fans.
So, as a result of this tragedy, I started speaking to someone who I haven’t talked to for the last decade. The last time I remember talking to him was over the phone 10 or 11 years ago, trying to say goodbye before I left for Canada and the exact words he said to me, “Shet! Hindi na kita makikita Cel?!” 
Yes, he was a huge part of my life, will forever be thankful I’ve met him. He saved me from the greatest heartbreak of my life but also gave me one lol! Though I didn’t really expect that much from him, knowing him as a friend before I dated him lol! But those were good times, great memories that still put a smile on my face. And that’s why we still remained friends. We shared the same love for Kobe and music. His birthday actually falls on the 8th too, which is one of Kobe’s jersey number. I loved his singing, he loved my dancing. He once told me that the best part of every song is the 2nd verse, and ever since, I would always analyze the meaning of the lyrics on the 2nd verse of any song. He loves his dad as much as I love mine. But do I really love him? Love is a very general word. I love life and I tend to love everything around me to be happy. But if you ask me if I wanna be with him? No. We were friends for a while before we actually hooked up, yes, we can be fun but nothing more than that. I do not see myself spending everyday with him or even waking up beside him. Lol! He makes me kilig, that’s it. I am not that shallow. I do not know any other guy who would treat me better than Tom. I married the right guy and that’s love, even more than love. :)
I actually feel the same way with all of my “exes”. They were big part of my life, they made me happy once upon a time, and I am not going to be truly happy if I hold grudges. I will always be thankful for all the memories and lessons I shared with them. They made me who I am today. They made me realized why I kept choosing Tom everyday. In short, they were all a-holes and I’m just grateful I did not end up with them lol!
Moving forward, I will continue reminding myself to live my life the Kobe way. I am actually getting his logo tattooed on my 8th finger. I can’t wait!
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teardropsandbs · 7 years
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  Thank you 2011 for being one of the best years of my life. After 14 long years, Tom and I end up loving each other. Who would have thought that he’s going to be my husband? Seriously! LOL! Cliché but true, no one really knows what the future holds. I want to thank you, my dear 2011 for giving me lots of memories. You started so well by finally giving me a lovelife after how many lonely years haha! And not just that, I had the best of both worlds! I was given an opportunity to work in our Sales department and earn more hehe. My lil sister and I were able to travel to a foreign land together - HK. I was given a chance to visit my hometown, Manila. I was so happy to see my family and friends once again. Home will always be home.
When I came back here in Canada, I had a fun Ontario experience with friends. We went to Harris Hill in Lake of the Woods. Although, my fall and winter had been pretty much all about focusing on my benchmarks and targets, I learned to save up! Haha! I used to save to travel and/or buy stuff that I want but this year, I managed to be future-wise and know my priorities. Mainly because I got engaged! I became more matured because I finally realized what I really want in life. I want to be a wife. I want to be a mom. I want to grow old beside the man I love. Everything that I am doing right now is for my future, for my family and for the future family that Tom and I will have. This year, I surpassed the quarter-year. I have never been this driven, never been this happy and I think, now, I can say that I am growing up haha! Thank you God for all the blessings especially for my sister’s second life. That accident was a miracle! With You, Lord in our lives, we can overcome anything. I am looking forward for another awesome year. I can’t wait to be Mrs. Jun Carlos Custodio!
Thank you for my family and friends all over the world who made this year a memorable one! I need to get up now and dress up to welcome the new year. And oh, Happy 75th Birthday to my lolo back in Manila. We need to be home before the party starts to Skype and celebrate with them. Haha! So bye 2011! I know 2012 will be better but I will forever cherish you.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!
    XO,
A
    2012-01-01 02:47:53 2012-01-01 07:47:53 open Publish post 757991223 Homecoming xaxcxexlx Sun, 05 Jun 2011 15:02:01 -04:00
I'm actually up in the air somewhere in the Pacific on my way to Vancouver. We left Tokyo 4 hours ago so that means I'll be stuck on this aisle seat for another 5 hours. Beside me is an old Filipino man. He's very charming (not that I have a thing for old men), he's like my lolo, a funny gentleman. He was amazed that I speak fluent Tagalog and use po at opo because he thought I was born in Canada. I just finished watching all the travel documentary flicks on my seat TV. The last one was an episode of Billy Conolly's jaunt all over Canada, from East to West coast (made me wanna do that!). He spent 10 weeks travelling from St. John's to BC, exploring some of Canada's most remote locations. The film made me appreciate my second home. I've always hated moving to Winnipeg. Not only because it's boring compare to Manila but mainly because of my family and friends back in my homeland. I didn't cry when I left Manila earlier, maybe because I didn’t look at Tom. I don’t wanna look back at him. I don’t want to see him crying. I didn’t want to face the fact that I’m leaving the man that I wanna spend the rest of my life with. I was in denial that Manila is not my home anymore. I was born and raised as a Manila Girl. I party a lot! And I mean a lot! But Manila is not just about partying or drinking. You’ll only understand the difference between fun and happiness if you try to experience Manila life.
                I spent 4 days in HK and 3 weeks in P.I. minus the 3 days that I got flu and just stayed in my bed while Tom took care of me. We were together all the time. Wherever I go, he goes. We haven’t fought yet, like a real bf-gf fight, and I hope not. I didn’t get the chance to visit my bestfriend, Karen and her baby Kyzer, my RGLC family and my boyfriend’s closest friends since we were in HS. 3 weeks was not even close to enough. I wish I could stay longer. Most of the stuff that I bought was just pasalubong, failed to buy those things I need for myself. But I had the greatest time of my life. Nothing beats visiting your hometown. And of course, spending time with Tomtom is the best part! I could not ask for more. After 14 long years of knowing each other, we never imagined ending up loving each other this much. Sadly, I had to leave and he has to fly back to Singapore as well. We have to be apart for a while first to be together forever.
                I never planned my future with any guy before. I didn’t even want to get married. I’ve experienced all boys’ lies you could ever imagine first hand and got hurt as fck! But I never get tired of loving again.  And when this guy came into my life, everything has changed. He made all the tears, heartaches and waiting all worth it. He was God’s final gift and He wrapped him with a bow. Haha! I am truly blessed, so thankful and much loved. I’ve never been in love like this before, never ever loved someone this much before and never been loved by someone this much before. I want to marry him.
                He changed my perspectives in life. He made me want to have kids, eat veggies, learn how to cook, love what I hate and most importantly, trust a guy and love without fear. He’s just amaaazing! He makes me laugh, cry, smile, frown, smug, sing, dance, dream, blush, he just knows how to make me the happiest person ever! And that makes me love him more.
                One year. We have a year to prepare for our future together. He’ll come here, and that’s huge for me! Nothing’s harder than leaving your family and friends back home. I should know! But Canada is my home now and it’s the only place and the only way for us to be together. In a few hours, I’ll be home. I have a day off before going back to work. A day to overcome jetlag, pay my $$$ Rogers bill, learn changes in my department and a Skype date. But whatever! I know I can get by. I don’t see these as problems. That vacation (especially Tom) gave me a brighter outlook ahead. No bad vibes! Cheers to happiness and to the future… at my home, Canada eh!
    2011-06-05 12:17:53 2011-06-05 16:17:53 open Publish post 749357437 Lilo xaxcxexlx Sun, 05 Jun 2011 12:26:10 -04:00
I may be mean ignoring you, but could u blame me? You hurt me too many times. I treated you more than a best friend, loved u more than my own sister and cared for you like a mother. The happiest memories of my life were memories with you. My greatest, craziest and dumbest photos were with you. Yes, I miss you. But no matter how hard I try, I just can't trust you.
  2011-02-20 01:53:40 2011-02-20 06:53:40 open Publish post 741726049 Lookbook.nu xaxcxexlx Tue, 21 Dec 2010 00:22:31 -05:00 Acel Libante on LOOKBOOK.nu 2010-12-21 00:21:51 2010-12-21 05:21:51 open Publish post 737620705 I Can't Stop LOL xaxcxexlx Sat, 10 Jul 2010 23:24:10 -04:00
2010-07-10 23:17:40 2010-07-11 03:17:40 open Publish post 729939647 Fast Lane xaxcxexlx Sat, 10 Jul 2010 23:31:16 -04:00
Hello everyone! I don't have much updates (again ;p). Just 'cause my sister's 18th is finally over (pics on my FB, click Facebook up there) and now I'm getting my "me-time" back. It feels like it was just yesterday when we were planning her party and now it's all over. Stressed and drained, I am. It feels fulfilling though. My sister was so happy on her night and so as her guests. She's going to Bora this week and have a week left to spend in Manila to shop (for my stuff too)! Anyway, I'm home alone. It's soooooooo hot outside! +26 on spring????!!!! Can u believe it?! Sun will set by pass 21:00 and Imma go out to jog or maybe eat dinner. It's gonna be this sunny for the whole week so it means I'm gonna wear sandals everyday! Yey! I have to shower now and enjoy the rest of the night!
2010-05-16 19:58:33 2010-05-16 23:58:33 open Publish post 727250670 xaxcxexlx Sat, 10 Jul 2010 23:31:47 -04:00
 Ok. Before I start this blog, SHUT UP PONG! Read it first. LMAO! Anyway, I woke up this morning realizing how much will I miss on my sister's 18th birthday. We've been together forever. Every single birthday she had, all the birthday parties I threw and she was actually the one who blew the candles on my 18th birthday cake. I feel so sad that I won't be able to share this moment with her. Not even dad or mom, but she understands how it is. She knows we want nothing but the best for her. We're giving her everything she deserves. She's the only reason why we're working hard here. We may miss her night but I will surely throw a party once she gets back from Manila. The feeling just got me nostalgic. The party's theme suits her best. If you know her since she was a kid, you know what I'm talking about. Look at her pic up there :)) She was very witty and "bibang-biba"! As she grew up, she became better and better. She doesn't drink/smoke. She barely go to clubs. She knows her responsibilities. She's a walking-periodic-table-of-elements. She knows what she wants and she knows how to get it. She can sing and surely is good in dancing. She says what she wants to say. She's way more than just a Facebook photo-whore. She CAN'T be friends with everyone,  she will befriend you if she feels like to, but if not, she just doesn't like you at all. haha! If u love her, she'll love you more. Hate her? Hell she cares! :)) I experienced everything first hand! LOL! Sure we fought now and then but our personalities are like the Yin and the Yang. There were times that we're on opposite poles but I think for sisters, it comes naturally that you both find your equator.  She is my ultimate enemy and my best-est friend at the same time. She's my greatest critic, my hilarious entertainer, my worst listener, my pentium1-diary, my partner-in-shopping but not in crime and lies, my clothes-sneaker, my pms-ing helper, my messy roommate, my reading-bugger, my party-killer, my science-translator, my stuff-breaker, my finicky shoe-mate,  my meanest boy-meter, my financial-abuser, my weirdest chef, my favorite bugger, my loveliest Barbie, my drive to success, my first favor to God, my priceless treasure, my one and only sister...Reizel.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY PONGALIT!!!
  2010-05-06 04:54:28 2010-05-06 08:54:28 open Publish post 726653699 xaxcxexlx Sat, 10 Jul 2010 23:32:21 -04:00
 I haven't checked my MySpace for ages until today and I received the most retard message I have ever read!
"hello angle how are you to day hope fine i was on ur profile ealre today i found it so intresting. i felt like making u my closed friend. i am so intresting of u so i deside to writte this maill to u i dont know if u will be kind enough to acepte me. u know u girls are some how defficut. i will be gratefull if u acept and maill me back with this maill ikdon@***.com. so to tell u more about me and give u my pic hopeing to ear frome u soonest thanks"
Wala lang  I just find it hilarious! Plus I need to entertain myself while finishing the details on my sister's 18th. It's gonna be huge! I hope she'll be happy even if Mom, Dad and I can't be there. Anyways... I don't have much updates for you. I've been working so hard lately and on my last meeting with my TS, he informed me that I'm currently ranking #1 for the entire department  Isn't it awesome? I still have lates though, BUT I'm working on that! The city bus schedule sucks! I hate it! And I'll never get used to it! I have to buy a car before winter! I still have several months to save up. And speaking of saving up, I might start saving or rather TRY saving after my birthday. Yes! My birthday's coming up in 2 months. If you're in MNL, it's a long time for you but here, it's over before u even know it! But before that, of course, Reizel's debut party is knocking me out. I'm actually finishing the final plot right now so I could send it to my Tita tomorrow. FYI, it's already 4:54 am CST here. Yesterday, I slept after lunch na and I wasn't able to finish it so now I have to really wrap it up. She's leaving soon and I'm dying out of envy! LOL! Last minute preps drove me gaga (like OMGaga! - that's my fave expression lately! haha!)... but they're all set now.  So yeah, that's it for the meantime. I'm just waiting for Rachel's email for the new collection and send eveything to Tita then I can finally sleep.
 P.S. ---- Since Rachel has been a huge help on my chaos lately, pls visit her collection and SHOP! You'll surely love every piece!
http://poisonberrymanila.multiply.com
  2010-05-02 06:05:48 2010-05-02 10:05:48 open Publish post 726439429 BZ xaxcxexlx Sat, 10 Jul 2010 23:33:41 -04:00
I've been so busy lately... with my sister's homecoming and at work. Barely touch my notebook. I'm uber-attached with my new BB ^_^ ...told u guys that I was planning to get Bold or Storm. So, I ended up getting a white BlackBerry Bold 9000. Touchscreens are getting boring . Posted that photo up there 'cause it looks like downtown Peg. Been such a work-a-holic! OT's and yeah, on my last evaluation, I'm ranking #1 for the whole department  All the hardworks are paying off. I'll be busier until the end of next month, it's my sister's 18th (I think e'rybody knows it na anyway!) and I already have my Med Insurance. I'll get my eyes checked (I left Manila with a 20-20 vision and now FML!), teeth bleached (if necessary, braces or retainers), general medical exam (CBC again of course!) and MASSAGE!!! hehe  For this week naman, I'm off tomorrow, chocolate-shopping with mom for pasalubong... and TRY to cook spaghetti haha! I won't be going out nor date anyone, well, not until June. I have heaps of things to accomplish this coming month...so I need to focus focus focus! That's it for now, it's almost 5am CST here! :)) XO
2010-04-26 05:21:42 2010-04-26 09:21:42 open Publish post 726095266 Home xaxcxexlx Fri, 23 Apr 2010 16:49:49 -04:00   I miss home. My sister's going back in a few weeks and I envy her so much! lol 2010-04-23 16:37:18 2010-04-23 20:37:18 open Publish post 725947367 Good Sunday Morning xaxcxexlx Sun, 02 May 2010 06:42:10 -04:00
  I slept late last night (went out w/ friends) but woke up so early this morning. I dunno why, but it's a good thing though 'cause I have to revise the video and edit some photos for the soireè that I was talking about on my previous post. Imma start in a while but before I go, I wanna share these sites. So u guys can go shopping even if ure just bumming on ur couch. I chose these sites because they're my personal favorite shops online. Some of them were already featured on magazines and/or tv shows. I barely shop online just 'cause Winnipeg got American Apparel, Urban Behavior and Urban Planet which I mostly buy my stuff from and if I have more money, I can go to Swank! And oh, you can also be a real winner in Winners! I only buy clothes/shoes online IF I really love it and the price isn't rip off. So here they are... HAPPY SHOPPING!!!
     2010-04-11 13:48:21 2010-04-11 17:48:21 open Publish post 725171897 ClosetKid.com xaxcxexlx Sun, 02 May 2010 06:45:57 -04:00
Hey guys! This will be my first post for April. Boo! I know! Sorry  I've been way too busy with work, family, friends and organizing a very special soirée. My YMCA membership got voided too 'cause I don't have spare time. They require at least 6 visits or use of the facilities every month to keep your membership but yeah I am that busy! I'm in front of my laptop all the time working on an upcoming "something" but have no time to blog. So quick update lang for now but I promise I'll try to post as much as I can kahit using my phone lang. I'm planning to get a new BB next week. If you have any suggestions on what model, just post it on my Chatterbox right there > > >. I had 2 hours of sleep last night. Sabog much? haha! And I'm still up this late tonight. Well, I just want to post this site. So u guys can pick up some ideas for the summer season (spring here). Few people kept asking me for fashion tips kasi on my Formspring.com/xAxCxExLx ...So, I'll just post some fashion feeds/finds na lang online since I'm not a fashion guru naman no! As Ive said, JUST BE YOURSELF and WEAR WHAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF. Nakakaloka lang kasi ung ibang questions sa Formspring ko. haha! Some of 'em, hindi ko na sinagot 'coz they're just lame and might hurt people pa but most of the questions naman, sinagot ko. Anyways, here's the site na... c/o Laureen Uy
http://www.closetkid.com/
  2010-04-09 02:27:10 2010-04-09 06:27:10 open Publish post 725029355 Sea of Shoes xaxcxexlx Mon, 29 Mar 2010 01:31:40 -04:00
Jane Aldridge's fashion blogsite:
www.seaofshoes.com
click! U won't regret it :)
2010-03-29 01:31:00 2010-03-29 05:31:00 open Publish post 724388866 UB xaxcxexlx Sat, 27 Mar 2010 01:12:57 -04:00
Sana matanggap na ko sa Urban Behavior
  2010-03-27 01:11:45 2010-03-27 05:11:45 open Publish post 724277301 Sunshine xaxcxexlx Fri, 26 Mar 2010 01:10:27 -04:00
 I won't rush this time. But yes, I found The One.
2010-03-26 01:09:47 2010-03-26 05:09:47 open Publish post 724220664 HAARP Technology xaxcxexlx Thu, 25 Mar 2010 02:40:09 -04:00 2010-03-25 02:39:29 2010-03-25 06:39:29 open Publish post 724165685 After reading about the 2010 Haiti earthquake, the 6th deadliest earthquake in recorded history, and the 2010 Chile earthquake, the fifth strongest earthquake since 1900, I started reading a bit more on HAARP. http://templestream.xanga.com/731631025/do-christians-need-a-head-adjustment/ 1 2010-08-18 09:34:00 2010-08-18 13:34:00 templestream [email protected] http://templestream.xanga.com/ 0 34825592 0 1515783879 Springing Spring xaxcxexlx Sun, 02 May 2010 06:47:22 -04:00
Hey everyone! I'm on a break right now, so might as well blog. Not a work break... but a break from a major room cleaning. I worked 7 days straight this week and now enjoying my 3-days off... cleaning! haha! It's fun! For real! I didn't notice I have this much stuff already since we moved here! So they need to be organized. Plus I'm switching my wardrobe from Fall/Winter to Spring/Summer 2010  'cause today is the first official day of Spring! Bye winter coats, hello summer dresses!
And while I do that, here's what I have on my tube:
2010-03-20 19:05:45 2010-03-20 23:05:45 open Publish post 723905524 xaxcxexlx Sat, 13 Mar 2010 00:42:40 -05:00 Im currently on the tub right now. ;p I dont wanna fall asleep so I thought of blogging. There are so many random things in my head right now. Bills, him, school, work, party, friends, family and my sister's 18th. 2010's first quarter had been pretty expensive for me :D and now I have more splurging to come. The sectional this month then Bravia on April 2nd, iPad will be out on the 3rd but Im thinking of MacAir instead, I need a new laptop! Im not MALUHO ok? I just wanna stop fighting with my dad over his Farmville! LOL! Reizel's 18th is the most pain in the a$$! From the very small details to the huge plans, I have to organize everything. And it's the hardest party I have ever planned! Not to mention the pasalubongs that she has to bring for our family and friends back home. I have to do some budgeting. I might have to use my savings. But it's all good. Whatever makes her happy, Im happier. And of course I would never stop thanking God for all the blessings. Every part of my life at this moment is all in control. That's why I dont want a bf right now. I admit that I'm crazy-in-love with a guy though. But I like it to stay this way, no strings, just inspired. :) Tomorrow, I'm scheduled for a morning shift and have to head straight to Jo's 18th after work (kasama narin paperview for Manny's fight! Haha!). On Thursday, Republic (the busiest club here) turns 1! I won't miss that! If I have to go with my white friends, I will but I really wanna go with my pinoy friends of course. I need to have some fun and learn to balance work and play before school starts. 'Cause for sure I'l be so dead by then. Less than 4 months and I'll be on the quarter of my life. Yay! Im excited to plan my bday! Imma rent a Hummer-Limo! I swear! Haha! Reiz will be legal by that time so we gun party hard when she gets back for my 25th. Imma bring Manila life here! Why mope around missing the limelight back home when u can juz bring it on here!? Life's short. We only live once, make it worth it! 2010-03-13 00:41:59 2010-03-13 05:41:59 open Publish post 723443112 Blair aka juicystar07 xaxcxexlx Thu, 11 Mar 2010 01:01:23 -05:00
Kahit super arte nya, I'm learning a lot from her vlogs
2010-03-11 01:00:43 2010-03-11 06:00:43 open Publish post 723328743 When I Grow Up xaxcxexlx Thu, 08 Apr 2010 02:22:56 -04:00
Sorry guys! I promised to blog yesterday but I didn't.  I slept for like 15 hours! I had to rest after all the chaos of the past weeks. Well, I'm still in chaos though.   But I'm starting to manage it. The mass yesterday helped me a lot in realizing which should I prioritize in my life right now. Back home, I've had the most excruciating heartbreaks. Malas! But I've realized it wasn't just because of my unlucky fate in love, it was certainly because of my decisions and actions before. I was not wise enough. I always let my heart dominates.
I didn't realize I've been here for almost a year now. Canada is truly a fast-paced place. Work, eat, sleep, mall, Church and Internet. Simple life. For months, I had liquor twice, I went out once and I haven't been to a club yet. Very far from my life back home. I miss it so much. I miss my friends and of course my family. But I chose to move here. I made that decision together with my family. Not just because of my own future, but also for my sister. I'm going back to school this fall. By then, my future starts. That means I'll be much busier. I'm still debating whether to take Pharma or CGA. Pharmacy is my sister's course, so we could share books and be cheatmates  but I'm also thinking it will take me years. So I thought of taking Accounting, not only it can be my MBA but I already have knowledge and experiences on it. But that doesn't mean I don't have any on Pharma. I love Chemistry! But these are not the issues or those so-called chaos I've mentioned. Love always knocks me down whenever I'm on my best. I'm all set now and ready for my plans in life. Then someone came along. Unexpectedly. The worst part is, he is the best man I have ever met. I've never felt this crazy ever! And you know what's funny? I rejected him. Stupid much? I know!!!  But I have to use my brain this time. I can't let loose right now. I am so in control of my life. I have so much responsibilities, plans, goals and dramas in my life right now. I just can't fall. I've grown up
http://kelvinlesterlee.wordpress.com/2007/12/21/career-vs-love-which-would-you-pick/
  2010-03-09 01:26:35 2010-03-09 06:26:35 open Publish post 723215185 It's So White, It Hurts My Eyes xaxcxexlx Sat, 06 Mar 2010 22:51:11 -05:00
  Hi xangans! I'm sorry for not blogging these past few days. I've been so busy with work and with my new "Sunshine"  . Did I just say that? Haha! Yeah, I am head-over-heels in love with a guy right now and this is the very first time I felt this extreme towards a person! I'm actually starting to become annoying! Haha! So, Imma shut up now!  BTW, we just got home from Brandon, visited Ate Ela and her family. It has been a freezing foggy day today. Too scary to drive on the road but I love the scenery though, everything's white. Imma have supper in a while and rest, can't go to Republic with friends tonight 'cause I'm still tired from the trip. I have to rest and we'll see if I can go out some time soon. I promise to blog tomorrow. Xoxo!  NA
  2010-03-06 22:50:32 2010-03-07 03:50:32 open Publish post 723089895 Signs? xaxcxexlx Sun, 28 Feb 2010 19:18:39 -05:00
 From all the devastating calamities that are happening in the world today, call me a freak but it really is scary.
  2010-02-28 19:18:00 2010-03-01 00:18:00 open Publish post 722723646 ▌♥ ▌GO CANADA GO ▌♥ ▌ xaxcxexlx Sun, 28 Feb 2010 15:11:32 -05:00
 CANADA vs U.S.A
Men's Ice Hockey Finals on now!!!
Sa inyo na ang basketball! Hockey is our game!!!
2010-02-28 15:10:51 2010-02-28 20:10:51 open Publish post 722716459 In 5 Years. xaxcxexlx Sun, 28 Feb 2010 04:37:11 -05:00
2010-02-28 04:36:33 2010-02-28 09:36:33 open Publish post 722679978 Spring is Coming xaxcxexlx Fri, 26 Feb 2010 02:09:49 -05:00
my favourite morning! Tims Double Double
   I can wear shorts now  ...with leggings though
  2010-02-26 02:07:59 2010-02-26 07:07:59 open Publish post 722550863 xaxcxexlx Fri, 26 Feb 2010 02:03:17 -05:00
Gold: Yu Na Kim (South Korea)
Silver: Mao Asada (Japan)
Bronze: Joannie Rochette (Canada)
  2010-02-26 02:02:39 2010-02-26 07:02:39 open Publish post 722550697 xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 20:02:11 -05:00
Tessa and Scott won gold in Ice Dance for Canada...IN CANADA!
  Tonight, I have two skaters to cheer for! Joannie Rochette for Canada and Kim Yu Na of South Korea but with a Canadian coach and training in Toronto. Kim Yu Na, as the reigning world champion and Grand Prix champion, she is expected to win gold tonight. But with plenty of competitions on the rink just like Mao Asada of Japan, one of Kim's fiercest rivals, is capable of throwing a triple axel, something no other competitor is likely to try and other Japanese skaters Miki Ando and Akiko Suzuki as well as Canada's Joannie Rochette pose a formidable challenge.
 Few minutes and let the game begin!
2010-02-23 20:01:31 2010-02-24 01:01:31 open Publish post 722420662 My #1 Style Icon xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 18:03:57 -05:00
Olivia Toledo Palermo
2010-02-23 18:03:19 2010-02-23 23:03:19 open Publish post 722417528 I Strongly Recommend xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 17:51:58 -05:00
 http://www.bergdorfgoodman.com/
   2010-02-23 17:51:20 2010-02-23 22:51:20 open Publish post 722417111 The Wait is Over xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 17:47:01 -05:00 2010-02-23 17:46:22 2010-02-23 22:46:22 open Publish post 722416947 xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 03:10:48 -05:00
  2010-02-23 03:10:08 2010-02-23 08:10:08 open Publish post 722377004 Yoga Accepts. Yoga Gives. xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 02:15:14 -05:00
  After gaining weight due to the holidays and so
much pigging out lately, I need this.
  2010-02-23 02:11:04 2010-02-23 07:11:04 open Publish post 722375355 I Am So Back In Xanga xaxcxexlx Tue, 23 Feb 2010 02:16:17 -05:00
I just recovered this blogsite. This is my first ever blog. So now, I decided to revamp it. From now on, I'll make it public so everyone can check it.
2010-02-21 20:22:56 2010-02-22 01:22:56 open Publish post 722303590 C H A N E L xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 18:53:57 -05:00
     2008-02-17 15:05:30 2008-02-17 20:05:30 open Publish post 642877664 Anna Wintour xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:30:46 -05:00         2007-10-23 05:59:03 2007-10-23 09:59:03 open Publish post 623037643 Dream Room xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:36:37 -05:00
 Mariah Carey's closet.
  2007-10-11 16:28:55 2007-10-11 20:28:55 open Publish post 620980034 Spice Girls is LOVE :)) xaxcxexlx Sat, 23 Jan 2010 20:14:09 -05:00 2007-10-08 13:40:48 2007-10-08 17:40:48 open Publish post 620412775 Jason and LC xaxcxexlx Sat, 23 Jan 2010 20:18:50 -05:00 2007-10-08 10:09:03 2007-10-08 14:09:03 open Publish post 620357229 Very Audrey Hepburn xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:49:31 -05:00
2007-10-05 19:02:46 2007-10-05 23:02:46 open Publish post 619883787 The Last Hug xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:47:37 -05:00
Reserved the best for last. THE LAST HUG!
How do u say farewell to a person who you selflessly loved? I dont know how, although a whirlwind it was, it was the best rollercoaster ride of my life! So I just hugged him near, in that instance I had no sense of time! I just remember trying to embrace the love of my life, praying time would stop running forth, unfortunately no cooperation, the clock kept ticking! I released him but couldnt bear it, so I held him close one last time, cherishing preciously this human being that taught me to let go of my jadedness and allow myself to love. The most difficult moment was that last farewell glance, turning & walking away. Wish I could pull myself to glimpse back but I was scared I couldnt control myself and would run back, then I wouldnt be able turn my back once again. Im fulfilled with my decision to let be my emotions, to just let go, stop trying to control. No regrets. It was liberatingly freeing!
 Thanx ATE... for all the night-outs, drinking sessions and melancholic songs that made me cry out really loud! It felt so good to let it all out though! and yah thanx for escorting me with all the bottles of beer even if u cant even finish a bottle! It's the effort that counts! lav ya!
Thanx RIA... for never getting tired of listening to my endless ranting! and for being my hero against Pyke! hehe! Thanx for the long hours of chikahan!
Thanx BRY... for always checking up on me, for ticking me off when I skipped meals and for the libres! hehe!
Thanx ANGEL... for all the sleepless-sleepovers! haha! and for being my pretty nurse! We've been together for 9 looong years, u know the whole story! Thanx for EVERYTHING!
Thanx PYKE... FOR NOT SPEAKING TO ME FOR TWO MONTHS!!! It helped! I know how much u despise him! If y'all will form a petition party against him... I know u will be the President / Founder / Vice-Pres / Sec / Tres / blah blah blah!!! I still love u though! BUT It doesn't mean that I finally realized that I should've listened to u coz Carlos, It won't happen! COZ I HAVE NO REGRETS!!! I dont care if u dont understand why, how come, what am I thinking blah blah blah... basta! WE'VE BEEN HAPPY AND THAT'S ENOUGH. Believe it or not!!! Just pls be happy for me, I may not be able to smile at the moment.. but in time I will... hope soon... it's painful, still... but it will pay off sooner or later... I just need you beside me :) luv u Pyke! ..and happy bday! thanx again for inviting me... I ran out under the heavy rain just to get to Mindanao Ave! hmp! but it was worth it coz of our CEASEFIRE! hehe!
Thanx BEZ(Yadh)...for the calls and for making me cuento sooo daym long! Thanx for listening and helping me realized everything! I miss u! See u soon!
 U'll be the last guy I'll ever love this much!!! Thanx for making me the happiest!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! I miss everything we used to do together! There are so many things that remind me of u! It's getting harder and tougher! Just pls don't waste everything, PLS BE SURE THAT WHAT HAPPENED WILL MAKE U HAPPIER!
  2007-10-05 15:07:29 2007-10-05 19:07:29 open Publish post 619869888 Be Deaf! xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:50:47 -05:00
WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW WON'T HURT YOU!!!
2007-09-17 11:26:21 2007-09-17 15:26:21 open Publish post 616516200 Me Missing You xaxcxexlx Sat, 23 Jan 2010 20:46:02 -05:00
Missing You – Case
Standing here looking out my window
My nights are long and my days are cold
Cause I don't have you
How can I be so damn demanding
I know you said that it's over now
But I can't let go
Every day I want to pick up the phone
And tell you that
You're everything I need and more
If only I could find you
 Like a cold summer afternoon
Like the snow coming down in June
Like a wedding without a groom
I'm missing you
I'm the desert without the sand
You're the woman without a man
I'm the ring without a hand
I'm missing you
 Driving 'round thought I saw you pass me
My rearview mirror's playing tricks on me
Cause you fade away
Maybe I'm just hallucinating
Cause my loneliness got the best of me
And my heart's so weak.
  2007-09-13 19:48:38 2007-09-13 23:48:38 open Publish post 615827491 aww I miss Cold Rock :D ya bet we can do this better! haha! xaxcxexlx Sun, 04 Nov 2007 22:38:54 -05:00 2007-09-05 18:09:58 2007-09-05 22:09:58 open Publish post 614322473 xaxcxexlx Sat, 23 Jan 2010 20:48:39 -05:00 Will I ever find someone like you again? 2007-08-31 11:53:39 2007-08-31 15:53:39 open Publish post 613289781 Stupidity and Love xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 18:54:58 -05:00
I was browsing some multiply sites and ended up at my sister's schoolmate's multiply. lil lady yet big heartache! tsk tsk tsk! WE'RE IN A COMMON STATE. So I got interested with her blog.  I felt sad and disappointed again. kanino? kanino pa ba? eh di sa mga boys!
I hate forcing myself to let go of one person that I need in my life, it's the only thing that makes sense but at the same time, it's the same thing that complicates me! I KNOW THAT I AM BETTER OFF WITHOUT THAT PERSON, YET I FEEL EMPTY WHENEVER I TRY TO LET GO! Is emptiness better than constant hurting?
*even the smartest people make the most stupid mistake.. WHEN IN LOVE.*
2007-08-25 06:27:13 2007-08-25 10:27:13 open Publish post 612099335 xaxcxexlx Fri, 20 Jul 2007 06:39:22 -04:00 The Allstars @ Wave's D'Gathering Sheenz for Mtv VJ Hunt(check out Jon on the last part! haha! so so dazed!) Kenjhons' single: "I'll Be Your Angel"(I really looove this song!!!) 2007-07-20 06:39:22 2007-07-20 10:39:22 open Publish post 605126993 Hey Doll * just browsing around xanga. your page is wayy cute! feel free to stop by mine & comment/subscribe! take care xOx &hearts' kate 1 2007-07-20 09:17:00 2007-07-20 13:17:00 BoMBSHELLandBRAiNS [email protected] http://bombshellandbrains.xanga.com/ 0 26294079 0 1349249707 Simei Singapore xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 16:58:42 -05:00
2007-07-16 10:28:28 2007-07-16 14:28:28 open Publish post 604347320 The Art of LV xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:01:51 -05:00
2007-06-04 16:10:07 2007-06-04 20:10:07 open Publish post 595534428 Bento Fun xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:05:56 -05:00
I don't want to eat it!
2007-05-17 15:15:57 2007-05-17 19:15:57 open Publish post 591443064 Funner Shopping xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:08:57 -05:00
LV Japan
    2007-05-12 03:56:08 2007-05-12 07:56:08 open Publish post 590166962 last weekend @ Tierra Nevada xaxcxexlx Mon, 23 Apr 2007 06:51:23 -04:00
2007-04-23 06:50:34 2007-04-23 10:50:34 open Publish post 585846806 I'm A Big Fan xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:12:30 -05:00
Steve Aoki is LOVE!!!
2007-04-19 08:54:00 2007-04-19 12:54:00 open Publish post 584988403 xaxcxexlx Sat, 23 Jan 2010 20:57:15 -05:00
“Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.”  -English proverb
2007-04-06 17:38:51 2007-04-06 21:38:51 open Publish post 582169400 xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 18:56:14 -05:00
2007-03-29 11:00:16 2007-03-29 15:00:16 open Publish post 580278146 PHA xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:16:09 -05:00
2007-03-17 20:47:36 2007-03-18 00:47:36 open Publish post 577599925 The Dance of Love xaxcxexlx Sat, 23 Jan 2010 21:04:58 -05:00
I heard the crowd clapping and cheering as I stepped on the ice. My skating friends shouted, “Go, Ace!” I tried hard not to blush, but a grin crept over my face just like it always did whenever my friends called out their support to me. I reached my starting spot on the ice and took my opening position. I hoped all the hard work and many hours of practice would help me achieve my dream to win.
 My music began – a selection from the flick soundtrack of Step Up (it was the fastest routine I’ve ever danced!). Like a light stroke of a paintbrush on a canvas, my arm drew across my body, and my eyes followed out to my fingertips. I pushed off on my left foot with three powerful strokes into a Mohawk followed by a loop jump. I smiled as my blade curved a clean cut through the ice, and I held the landing, making sure all the judges could see. I pumped my legs with powerful crossovers until I was at the corner of the rink. I stretched my leg and jabbed my toe pick into the ice, which lifted me into a flip jump. Yes! I thought and gave another giant smile.
 My next moves needed to match the beats of the music exactly. I did a waltz jump, with a ballet jump following. I could hear the music; I was going too fast. I did some fancy three turns so that the music would catch up. Now! Tinkle, tinkle, tinkle. I danced on my toes to the high notes of the piano. I tightened my body for my low, fast sit spin and came out of the spin with two back crossovers. So far, things were going great. My energy was high as I followed the music in my mind.
 Already it was time to wind up my program. My last 45 seconds included required footwork, a combination jump, and a sequence of spirals. To position myself for my footwork, I prepared to do a second Mohawk. I swayed my leg. Then suddenly my foot slipped out from underneath me, and I hit the ice with a thud. The crowd gasped. My teeth were jarred from the impact, but I popped right back up.
 I had never fallen in a competition before, and my first thought was to skate off the ice into my mom’s comforting arms. I had worked so hard, and now I felt like I had thrown it all away. After all the hours I had spent preparing, why did I have to fall on such a simple maneuver in front of an audience? The judges would never award me a first. I had ruined everything.
 But in that same instant, I kept going. I remembered my coach saying, “The skater who gets up and keeps going, no matter how hard it is, is truly a winner.” I remembered my parents telling me, “It doesn’t matter whether you come in first or last as long as you try your hardest and enjoy yourself.” I had worked too hard to quit now. I was determined to focus.
 I smiled as I skated toward my flip-loop combination and landed with a wobble. The crowd clapped enthusiastically and my music began to slow to the end. I stretched my back leg for a spiral sequence across the ice. I stretched from one edge to another, lowered my leg , and did a slow back pivot to a standing pose with my chest in the air and my head and arms arched back. The crowd applauded loudly as I bowed and skated off the ice.
 I stopped at the boards and stepped of the ice. MJ smiled encouragingly, and my mom hugged me tight, whispering in my ear that I had done a wonderful job. I slipped on my guards and sat down on the “kiss and cry”. I was still breathing hard and my legs wouldn’t stop shaking. As  I waited for my score to be posted, I thought about how much I love this sport, and I decided it didn’t matter what I had placed.
 Later that evening I was scheduled to skate a coupletech performance with my lil sis, Reizel, so we decided to eat first and rest. I changed into some warm-ups, smoothed my White velvet ice dress, and tucked it into my skating bag. As we walked out of the ice rink toward our car, Vernice, one of Reizel’s skating friends, asked what I had placed.
         “Fifth,” I told her proudly.
        “That’s great, Ate,” she said. “And goodluck tonight.”
        “Thanx!” I replied.
 As we drove back to our house, I thought about my day. I had grown up a lot, and I had a new way of looking at performing. I truly realized what my coach meant when he said, “When you fall, especially in a performance, you get stronger, because when you finish something, even if it’s not perfect, there is a feeling of accomplishment.” I was a winner today because I got up and finished my routine with a smile.
 When I am skating, I feel relaxed, peaceful, and as light as the sand crystals that blow along the beach. What matters is that every day I am learning and trying my best. What matters is that I LOVE TO SKATE.
 It was my final competition. I will miss iceskating so much! Bye ice, Hello waves!
2007-03-13 09:27:37 2007-03-13 13:27:37 open Publish post 576571779 Up North xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:28:35 -05:00
 Here’s a cuento from my Baguio trip last week…
  THURSDAY night (Feb 22 ‘07)
 ©      Went to GB3 – foodtrip! Chill! Cof!
©      Pert gave me a CD – their album! coz I told him that Ikaw Pa Rin is my fave song! He’s so baet! Hehe!
  FRIDAY (Feb 23 ‘07)
 ©      Bad news: couldn’t sleep!
©      Good news: fell asleep at 3AM
©      Worst news: 4AM – have to wake up na agad!… leavin’ in an hour!
©      1st destination: Shell-Maya (Gil Puyat – in front of The Columns) – gas up!
©      groceries! Yey! Bought 3 bags of chicha! Kahit bawal skn chichiria! haha!
©      Crossing EDSA: I fell asleep once again :D
©      7AM: NLEX – breakfast!
©      8AM: on the road again!
Background music: Jamelia’s Superstar (the girls gone gaga!)
  ©      10AM: Our Lady of Manaoag shrine (Pangasinan)
- they have the best Mais Con Hielo! Hehe ;p
©      12AM: La Union! …but of course!!! Hehe
©      “Surf All Day And Do The Hula!” – Roxy
I got the ugliest tanline! Coz I was wearin a shirt! d@mn it!
SURF’S UP!!!
 ©      5PM: up up up north to Baguio!
…took McArthur instead of Kenon! Hehe! I was scared to death!
Background music: STRAIGHT CUT!!! (Georg sucks! Haha!)
©      7PM: SM Baguio (ate first)
©      saw Raja Montero (motorcade)
©      9PM: Kuya Ian’s crib (the rooms upstairs has the best hill views!)
©      1st night in Baguio – so cold!!! Water was like melted ice!
©      Stan’s friend & the pretty twins (Ela & Lyka) lives juz near our house! Same hill.. Quezon Hill! They’re from Silver St. lang! Our streets are crossing each other! Chico’s hometown! Hehe!
©      11PM: zzz…zz..z.
  SATURDAY (Feb 24 ‘07)
 ©      7AM: :’( I missed the sunrise! I so envy Reizel’s good-morning-Baguio pic!!!
©      9AM: Session Road!…watched Panagbenga Festival – Street Dancing (dame tao!)
©      11AM: shoppin’ time!
©      2PM: -others went to La Trinidad (strawberry farm)
-5 girls (including me!) went to Burnham Park
-riding a banca was fun! Rowing’s not though!
©      3PM: - Botanical Garden, Wright Park, The Mansion, Mines View Park… I don’t have much picz coz I was the group’s photographer! How nice of ‘em no?! hmp!
©      6PM: - went back home!
- they ate dinner, I did not, my tummy ached!
©      7PM: - went to Grotto (a 250 staircase up to the Altar)
- camwhorin’ and shoppin’ with my cousins!
©      9PM: - *porch* fireworks from Burnham Park! Yey! Hehe!
©      9:30PM: - they ate again! I did not AGAIN! :D
-after dinner, the girls and I played like lil kids with the uber fun help of the camera! ***check out my multiply: http://acel07.multiply.com/ ***
©      11PM: - zzz!!!…
  SUNDAY (Feb 25 ‘07)
 ©      4AM: - breakfast! Dami ko nakain! Wahaha!
©      5AM: - Sun wasn't up yet when we left the house.
©      6AM: - Baguio Cathedral
©      8AM: - Session Road (waited so ‘kin looong under the Sun!)
©      9AM: - Panagbenga Festival – Flower Floats Parade!
·          30 floats! Politicians! Celebs! Vast crowd!
©      12NN: - walked up hill back to the Cathedral’s parking area with my 2 ½ inches heeled pumps! Lolz!
  - ate pizza in the car then left Baguio na!
©      1PM: - camwhorin’ with Reizel along the “kakahilo-yet-awesome” Kenon Road!
- Background music? – Lady Sovereign! Best roadtrip ever!
       ©      4PM: - reached NLEX! …ate @ Jobee!
 ©      7PM: back to Manila! Finally home! Haaay… I LOVE THIS TRIP!
©      (I should’ve blogged my Singapore trip too! Sayang! Hehe!)
2007-03-12 07:09:06 2007-03-12 11:09:06 open Publish post 576302030 Breakfast at Tiffany`s xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:31:43 -05:00
Thanks Babe!
2007-02-18 20:53:19 2007-02-19 01:53:19 open Publish post 571391131 Sentosa xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:36:41 -05:00 2007-02-18 20:38:56 2007-02-19 01:38:56 open Publish post 571389363 You Copycat xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:36:56 -05:00
YOU’RE FLATTERING ME TOO MUCH!!!
  2007-02-08 19:17:29 2007-02-09 00:17:29 open Publish post 568945017 Adrian and Paris xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:37:13 -05:00
They look so cute together!
  2007-02-03 07:28:42 2007-02-03 12:28:42 open Publish post 567615300 Sheena, the Japanese Doll xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:38:20 -05:00
@ Emba Cafeteria
2007-02-02 15:03:07 2007-02-02 20:03:07 open Publish post 567488892 One Day xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:41:19 -05:00
I will see the northern lights someday.
  2007-02-02 01:27:54 2007-02-02 06:27:54 open Publish post 567336203 Walk Away xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:48:33 -05:00
Bez! C'est très dur vous permettre d'aller!
Walk Away PAULA DEANDA I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI saw you with your new girl just yesterdayAnd I feel that I must confessEven though it kills me to have to sayI'll admit that I was impressedPhysically just short of perfectionGotta commend you on your selectionThough I know I shouldn't be concernedIn the back of my mindI can't help but question
Does she rub you feetWhen you've had a long dayScratch your scalpWhen you take out your braidsDoes she know that you
like to Play PS2
till 6 in the morningLike I doI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
I can't forget how we used to be
 I guess i gotta live my life from day to dayHoping maybe you'll come backAnd though I tell myself not to be afraidTo move on but it seems I can'tBut no other man has given me attentionIt ain't the same as your affectionThough I know I should be contentIn the back of my mindI can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the foreheadBefore we playShow up on my doorstepwith a bouquetDoes he call me in the middle of the dayJust to say
hey baby I love youLike you used toI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away
I can't forget how we used to be
 So hard to express this feeling Cause nobody compares to youAnd you know she'll never love you like i do
 I can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk AwayRemember You(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)
2007-01-31 15:35:14 2007-01-31 20:35:14 open Publish post 567019776 Irina Slutskaya xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:46:08 -05:00
2007-01-29 15:59:45 2007-01-29 20:59:45 open Publish post 566548974 Moonriver xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:48:02 -05:00
The Glamorous Audrey
2007-01-28 06:24:54 2007-01-28 11:24:54 open Publish post 566193610 xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 17:51:42 -05:00
SINGAPURA
 Ready to hit the shops in Singapore? You have come to the right destination as shopping, along with eating, is rated as one of the top favorite pastimes here. Shopping is a serious business in Singapore where even hardcore shopaholics who have perfected the art of shopping will surrender to the sheer volume, range and diversity.
 Having earned a global reputation as a true shopper’s paradise, Singapore is one giant mall where all your shopping needs can be fulfilled. Each year, millions of visitors from around the world explore the shopping delights in Singapore and treat themselves to one shopping spree after another.
 Singapore is a city of duty-free luxury goods, cutting-edge technology and high fashion. It is also arguably one of the best places to hunt for the latest high tech gadgets at competitive prices. From international or local fashion designer labels to made-to-measure clothes in any fabric of your choice, Singapore offers it all. You can also choose to experience shopping in a swanky air-conditioned malls in downtown areas of Orchard Road and Marina Bay, or pick up unique finds in the ethnic claves and for the more adventurous, the suburbs where local residents shop.
 For the shopper, the seamless shopping experience is unrivalled. You can be assured of the value and quality of your purchases, especially with the Star Retailers’ Scheme for consumer technology products, and Quality Jewelers’ Scheme for jewelry.
With all this diversity, value and quality that Singapore has to offer, it’s up to you to decide how to vary your shopping experience to create your Uniquely Singapore shopping experience.
 No matter where you are on this island, you will never be short of an opportunity to shop to your heart’s delight.
 ORCHARD ROAD
Tanglin Area:
©     Tanglin Shopping Centre
©     Tudor Court Shopping Gallery
©     Tanglin Place
©     Tanglin Mall
©     Tangs
©     Delfi Orchard
©     Forum The Shopping Mall
©     Palais Renaissance
©     Hilton Shopping Gallery
©     Liat Towers
©     Wheelock Place
Scotts Area:
©     DFS Galleria Scottswalk
©     Far East Plaza
©     Scotts Shopping Centre
©     Shaw House
©     Pacific Plaza
Tangs to Paragon:
©     Tangs
©     Wisma Atria
©     Ngee Ann City
©     Paragon
©     Lucky Plaza
Mandarin Gallery to Park Mall
©     Mandarin Gallery
©     Cineleisure Orchard
©     The Heeren Shops
©     Centrepoint Shopping Centre
©     Specialists’ Shopping Centre
©     Plaza Singapura
©     Park Mall
 MARINA BAY
Citylink Mall
©     Lee Hwa Jewellery
©     OZOC
Raffles City Shopping Centre
©     LIFEbaby 
©     Swarovski
Raffles Hotel Arcade
©     Raffles Hotel Gift Shop
©     Louis Vuitton
CHIJMES
©     Empress Myanmar
Suntec City Mall
©     Dashing Diva
©     New Urban Male Store
©     MANGO
©     Fountain of Wealth
Millenia Walk
©     Cortina Watch Espace Boutique
©     Harvey Norman
Esplanade Mall
©     Thetres on the Bay!
Marina Square Shopping Mall
©     Buffalo
 CHINATOWN
©     Chinatown Complex
©     People’s Park Centre
©     Chinatown Point
©     Pagoda Street
©     South Bridge Road
©     Trengganu Street
©     Temple Street
©     Club Street
©     Ann Siang Road
©     Trishaw Park
©     Chinatown Night Market
©     Smith Street
©     Eu Yan Sang
©     Yue Hwa Building
 LITTLE INDIA
©     Mustafa Centre
©     Tekka Mall
©     Little India Arcade
©     Tekka Market
©     Serangoon Road
©     Upper Dickson road
©     Dunlop Street
©     Cuff Road
©     Chander Road
©     Race Course Road
©     Syed Alwi road
 KAMPONG GLAM
©     Bali Lane
©     Haji Lane
©     Arab Street
©     Bussorah Street
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Dad! She's a real lady now :'(
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I had to wake up as early as 5 AM today to start training for the upcoming 2007 Grand prix Philippine Open Figure-Skating Championship. This will be my last competition coz I decided to enter the pipemasters world! Yeh boi! I am so excited to ride the waves!
 Today, my goal will be the Bielman position and spins. My lesson will start at 10 AM but I have to warm up and try freestyle before getting to coach MJ. Reiz has her dance class (8-10AM), I’ll just meet her at the rink later together with Rozz.
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2007-01-04 12:44:03 2007-01-04 17:44:03 open Publish post 560734816 Cherish xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 18:01:27 -05:00 Let's take a walk together near the ocean shore hand in hand you and I Let's cherish every moment we have been given for time is passing by I often pray before I lay down by your side If you receive your calling before I awake Could I make it through the night?  Cherish the love we have We should cherish the life we live Cherish the love, cherish the life, cherish the love Cherish the love we have For as long as we both shall live Cherish the love, cherish the life, cherish the love The world is always changing, nothing stays the same But love will stand the test of time The next life that we live in remains to be seen Will you be by my side I often pray before I lay down by your side And if you receive your calling before I awake Could I make it through the night? 2006-12-30 17:33:49 2006-12-30 22:33:49 open Publish post 559597262 random pix xaxcxexlx Thu, 04 Jan 2007 13:02:36 -05:00
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 Life for Anne Marie has been one long Pipe dream. She's about to make that dream a reality if she can keep from drowning in her own fear. As the clock ticks down to the Pipe Masters surf competition on the North Shore of Oahu, more is at stake for Anne Marie than the pressure of competing in one of the world's most dangerous, aggressive and male-dominated sports. She must first win a dreaded contest within. Sharing a beach shack with her best friends Eden and Lena, and her rebellious younger sister Penny, Anne Marie lives for the adrenaline-charged surf scene, rising before dawn every day to charge the Pipeline's deadly waves. The friends eke out a living as maids in a luxury resort hotel. The humble job pays the bills and lets them keep their focus on the water. But things change when a pro football team with slovenly habits and fat wallets checks in. Like it or not, Anne Marie starts losing her balance--and finding it--as she falls for quarterback Matt Tollman. Suddenly there are options: trophy wife or trophy winner? But there's really only one choice for someone like Anne Marie. Matt knows it, too--that's why he likes her. And when Anne Marie faces a paralyzing moment of truth on the biggest day of her life, Matt is there along with Lena, Eden and Penny, to help her remember why the goal that has driven her for so long matters so much.
Also Known As:
Surf Girls
Surf Girls of Maui
Production Status:
Released
Genres:
Action/Adventure, Comedy and Romance
Running Time:
1 hr. 49 min.
Release Date:
August 16th, 2002
MPAA Rating:
PG-13 for sexual content, teen partying, language and a fight.
Distributors:
Universal Pictures Distribution
Production Co.:
Imagine Entertainment, Shutt-Jones Productions
Studios:
Universal Pictures
U.S. Box Office:
$40,118,420
Filming Locations:
Oahu, Hawaii, USA
Produced in:
United States
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Ever tried to let go of something so close and dear to your heart that letting it go would be like giving up a part of your life? Sometimes we have to let certain things go even if we don’t want to, because sometimes we end up hurting ourselves even more if we hold on to it.We're only human right? So, I'm pretty sure that we get tired. Maybe at first you'll be like "I can't do it. I can't let go" but trust me you’ll find the strength to let go. When you let go of a person or when the person lets you go, you shouldn't be bitter. You should thank the person for teaching you a lot of things. Maybe someone better was meant for you. Maybe he just had something to teach you. Maybe God gave that person to you to teach you to become stronger. Sometimes letting go is easier. (Yeah, yeah, easier said than done.) It's like holding on to a piece of broken glass, you hold on, you keep on hurting yourself but when you decide to let go, you feel the pain and your hand bleeds but the pain doesn’t last a lifetime. It heals but there will be a mark. Just like in your heart. There will be a mark, a proof, that once in your life you loved someone so much and he taught you a lot of things and that someone taught you to be strong. It won't be easy, but you'll get through it!
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By Benjamin Joseph D. Collado IIIPublished on Page C1 of the July 26, 2006 issue of the Philippine Daily Inquirer 
IT'S ABOUT WAKING UP IN THE morning with a bad hangover and being hit by a very familiar feeling that you went overboard again last night.
It's about a one-night stand with a girl you met at a party, sneaking out of her room before she wakes, checking your things if something was missing, looking for her phone and purposely deleting your number from her phonebook.
It's about meeting a girl at a bar and offering her a ride home. It's about asking her if she wanted to go someplace private so you can talk--when both of you are aware that you have a different "talk" in mind.
It's about meeting your ex again after quite some time and noting how much better she looks now than she did before. It's about pushing the right buttons for her to give in. And finding yourself in bed with her without strings attached, all the while being grateful to your friend who told you it's good not to burn your bridges with your exes.
It's about seeing a girl and finding ways for you to meet her. With pickup lines being overused, you have a better chance of getting her number by having a friend go over and ask her politely if he can have his friend over there introduced to her.
It's about texting with her the whole day, getting to know her, showing that you have a genuine interest in her, sharing sweet nothings on the phone and forwarding her cheesy quotes that work almost all the time.
It's about having your friend, your partner-in-crime, the Robin to your Batman--or whatever you want to call him--validate to her all your pledges of devotion and loyalty.
It's about perfecting the art of lying. Telling your girlfriend it was just you and the boys last night--go ask Robin. And not bothering to tell Robin what to say because he already knows the routine.
It's about keeping your girlfriend happy. Giving her gifts and surprises so she won't suspect your wayward ways.
It's about not caring if your girlfriend broke up with you because she caught you cheating. There are other fish in the sea, you say. You're better off a free man, free to do anything you pleased without worrying about getting caught.
It's about asking the girl you just met out for a date. Convincing her that you're for real. Making her forget about the warnings her friends gave about you.
It's about doing anything so you can bring her home tonight. And if everything else fails, it's always a good idea to have a plan B.
It's about saying the L word without breaking eye contact. Making her believe that you really mean it and that you're starting to fall for her. That's plan B.
It's about thinking of ways to break up with her if she starts to get clingy. Thinking of the standard breakup lines and wondering if she'll buy it.
It's about rushing to your friend's girlfriend with a shoulder to cry on. Telling her that everything's gonna work out fine. Comforting her one minute, making out the next.
It's about going out with your friends and partying all night. Drinking till dawn and playing around with girls.
It's about waking up in the morning with a bad case of hangover and a very familiar feeling that you went overboard again last night.
Deja vu.
Ugly cycle
It really is an ugly cycle. After years of a life like this, you begin to ask yourself if there is more to life than drinking all night and finding someone to hook up with. And in the morning when you wake up, no matter how much you soap yourself, you still have this uneasy feeling that you're still dirty.
Your friend has found a girl that he's serious about. When you go out with your friends, you find him taking a raincheck because he has to spend time with his girl. You and your friends wonder what has gotten into him. You even wonder if he's lost his mind. How can he even think about trading this kind of life? There's nothing better than a bachelor's life.
It's all fun and games the first few years. But after a while, you look at yourself in the mirror and find the traces of abuse you did to yourself. And if you don't change your ways, you fear that maybe someday you'll find yourself alone and lonely.
And after all the years of booze and girls, you can finally sum up your life in one word--empty.
Maybe it's not good to spend your life that way. Maybe your friend hasn't lost his mind, after all.
What you need is to find someone who can make you look forward to another day. Someone who, when you think about her, never fails to put a smile on
your face.
Someone who makes you want to be a better man--to steal a line from pareng Jack Nicholson.
Someone who fills that emptiness in you, making you complete.
Before, when you used to wake up in the morning and find somebody in your arms, your first thought was how you could get rid of her without hurting her feelings. But now, what you need is a girl who makes you want to think of reasons and ways to let her stay in your arms.
Because when she's right there beside you, it is as if everything's okay. That nothing else matters but you and her.
You need somebody who makes you miss her so much that you buy a bottle of her perfume and spray it on your pillows so, when you go to bed at night, you can hug the pillow with her scent on it and wish that it was really her you were hugging.
You need somebody who makes your heart skip a beat when she smiles at you. Who makes you feel so comfortable and safe that you pour out your heart to her, unburdening secrets that you've kept for a long time. And having her tell you that it's okay, you have a new slate now, that you can leave everything where it belongs, in the past, and concentrate on what lies ahead of you.
You need someone who makes you listen more to love songs on the radio. Someone whom you pray for at night before you sleep. Someone you wish you'd dream about, for even while you sleep, you still want to be with her.
Someone whom you can finally look in the eye, without all the guilt and deceit, and tell her you love her. And you get this mushy feeling inside that tells you it's true. You want to shout over the rooftops, you love her, and she loves you!
There's no better feeling in the world.
I have found my someone. I have found my all. I've been wanting to ask this for a long time now. And I think there's no better timing than now.
So here I am, down on one knee, asking you, my someone.
Will you marry me?
Its when you hurt the worst that you have love the most.
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I LOVE THIS VIDEO!!!
LIKE YOU - Bow Wow featuring Ciara
 (Chorus) I ain't ever had nobody show me all the things That you done showed me In a special way I feel when you hold me We gon' always be together baby That is what you told and I believe it cuz I ain't never had Nobody do me like you Bow Wow Now I done been with different kind of girls So like I done seen them all But ain't none of them at all (like you) And I done seen the best of the best Baby still I ain't impressed cuz Ain't none of them at all (like you) and if you know how I feel when I chill Look if I'm seen with a girl Then she gotta be just (like you) And baby thats the way I feel And I ain't got no choice But for me to keep it real Cuz when we first got together Starting hanging out you was skeptical at first Had to figure out if I was the kind of guy Would try to dog you out but I ain't that kind of guy you try to make me out You found out when you turned to my baby I showed them other brothers How to treat a lady I let you drive when I ride that Mercedes And I ain't trippin' or actin' shady Cuz baby you know (Chorus) I ain't ever had nobody show me all the things That you done showed me In a special way I feel when you hold me We gon' always be together baby That’s what you told and I believe it cuz I ain't never had Nobody do me like you Ciara And everytime I think about you I smile When you ride when you call when you come around Your love is amazing to me I can't wait till I see you (I wanna be with you again) And everytime your out on the road (I'll make a trip) And whenever I'm doing a show (Don't you forget) That I'm your main chick Who got that game chick One in the same chick The one you can hang with (Chorus) I ain't ever had nobody show me all the things That you done showed me In a special way I feel when you hold me We gon' always be together baby That is what you told and I believe it cuz I ain't never had Nobody do me like you Bow Wow Ok we hit the mall pop tags Spend a few G's (Cheesin') Hit the runway to a new season It ain't nothing Spoil the one I care for Feel like I ain't doin' enough That's when I shape off I give you this give you that What chu need love You know I got it Holla at me if you need love In affection cuz I'll be your protection Kinda hard job but I'll do until perfection And you can tell that I ain't tryin' to let you go I get with you when I can So thats how I let you know And you be trippin' cuz sometimes I gotta go But chu the first one I hollared to right after my show Hey now I was trippin' in a sense I was tense but my body's lose around you But I'ma do without you I gotta get it together say whateva Since I met you my life seems so better (Chorus 2 x's) I ain't ever had nobody show me all the things That you done showed me In a special way I feel when you hold me We gon' always be together baby That is what you told and I believe it cuz I ain't never had Nobody do me like you
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Southerz…see you this weekend!
I effin miss Daytona! Bry… beat me! Haha!
I felt like… I came out from a tomb! Haha!
Can’t wait 2 use my “inaamag” TZ-card again!
Miss hanging out with y'all! I’m comin with my cousin k?
Don’t worry… they’re loadz of fun!
C u all dirtee southerz!
2005-08-17 09:40:19 2005-08-17 13:40:19 open Publish post 328780553 xaxcxexlx Sun, 21 Feb 2010 19:06:22 -05:00
Aya asked me to post this.
"Miss... I don't deserve yer boifriend...I'm too good fer him!...and besides, he doesn't need a lover...he wants a BITCH!!!u deserve him!"
onga naman :))
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I remember the time when there was a special someone who was so much a part of my life. There was hardly a moment we weren’t together. It seemed so perfect. Sure we fought every now and then… but problems were there to help the relationship grow stronger. We would work through the problem, and not just ignore it and hope for it to go away. With all that he and I had been through together for 3 long years, I thought that nothing would ever separate us. But as life would have it, you can’t stay on cloud nine forever.And then… IT HAPPENED!… HE ENDED IT! And found someone else (though I’m still clueless how he lowered himself for that kinda girl). I never thought he could hurt me. I thought I know him that well. That he’s not that kind of person. And worst, hurt me in that fuckin way! LEFT ME… back to ZERO!
I kept asking God why it happened. I totally flipped. I was angry, frustrated, depressed, confused, and hysterical all at once. I kept asking myself… Why? What happened? What did Ido? I couldn’t sleep nor eat for a week… I’d just cry my eyes out! I would close my eyes and see his face. I’d look around me and almost everything would remind me of him. I’d hear songs and remember him. There were times that I’d be out with our common friends and I would think I’d see him but it was just my mind playing tricks on me. I’d wake up my mom in the middle of the night and cry to her because I felt like my heart had been ripped out. My world was shattered!!!
Then of course I hit the stage of depression, then anger, then bitterness. I got so angry and bitter, that I gathered everything he gave me… letters, notes, gifts… and put everything in a box. I carried it around with me to school, and I was debating with myself whether to give it back or not. Well, eventually I did not. I did what Howard told me. But I did it badly. Coz of the fact that I couldn’t resist calling him and still talked to him for more than a couple of times. Plus another fact that his family wouldn’t want to let me go! I love them so much! But it was not exactly the smartest nor the most proper thing to do. But sometimes when our emotions get the best out of us, even the smartest people make stupid mistakes. It was really difficult for me. I just wanted to forget it all happened. When people would ask me what had happened, I’d just say I don't want to talk about it. I cut off all ties with him and he did the same with me. I went out with my friends, and just had fun. Of course there were still moments when I’d think about him and then I’d miss him.
I don’t remember the exact moment I realized I was over him but I’ve realized them all by going to our fave place. There! It just happened. I finally got my sanity back and realized I have a future to prepare on. That he's no longer part of it and someone will come someday. Now, after almost a month, he and I talk occasionally, the things of the past forgiven. There's still that part of me that will always care. I believe the past is there for me to learn from. I also believe that I am meant for someone. I know he’s out there somewhere, and I trust God that He will bring us together. I’ve tried doing things on my own and I usually just mess‘em up. I’ve had my heart broken into pieces so small you could fit the pieces through the eye of a needle. That’s why I decided to trust in God instead of doing everything MY way. And besides, why mope around and be depressed when there is so much in this world to experience? We all have friends who’ll stick by us until the very end, friends who stick by us through the good and the bad. And we have a Friend up there Who wants to take care of us, and all we have to do is let Him.
Now, I’m abso-bloody-lutely over you.
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teardropsandbs · 9 years
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Mr. Jones
K. Now I can really say I give up! Rejecting me over and over again, acting like a single “boy” and now eyeing on a former coworker?! U gotta be kiddin’ kid! That’s it! I am not even gonna try to save this anymore. Kulang na lang ilike mo literal lahat ng Instagram photos nya eh. Ako namang si gaga unlike ng unlike. And mind u, not just ordinary pics, but bikini pics! Wow! I felt so fucking humiliated. And now adding her on Facebook?! Have u lost ur fucking mind AND YOUR RESPECT TO UR WIFE?! Well, u just lost mine! I don’t know how to start this but no more turning back. I have to tell my dad. Hindi ko na kaya. I married a fucking boy. A boy who only cares about porma, kicks, tv, games and now girls lol! Fuck sake! I gave u everyfuckingthing! I’m not going through this again. Not again. Not anymore. Tangina! I don’t fucking deserve this!!!!!!
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teardropsandbs · 9 years
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Ugly Truth
Over the last year, I’ve been heartbroken by how my husband reacts to me sexually. Or better yet, how he doesn’t. And yes, I'm not even 30 yet. I've done everything to save our marriage. Right now, I'm so exhausted. I just want to look for a graveyard shift job so I don't have to cry myself out every fucking night. I can't leave him. I have no choice but to just stay away from him and stay away from being hurt all the time. I don't feel like I have a husband. I feel more like we're just in a bf/gf relationship and he lives his life like an unmarried boy, not even a man. He doesn't take charge of our plans, his responsibilities, his life. He naturally cares about shoes, cars, basketball, games, tv shows, etc. I love him but I can't live like this anymore. I get all the burden and I'm doing this alone. I'm so tired. I'm so done.
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teardropsandbs · 9 years
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It Should Be A Two-Way Street
Picture this and tell me how would you feel. Late night, you started touching your husband and taps your hand 'cause he didn't want to have sex. What would you do if your partner keeps rejecting you over and over again? It's been like this for over a year now. I still try to be sane with all these. I try to stay put 'cause I have no fucking choice.
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teardropsandbs · 9 years
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I Need A Husband
Yes. I do. I've literally done everything to keep everything to myself and not hurt him. Ang hirap ng hindi mo masabi yung mga gusto mong sabihin kasi ayaw mo syang masaktan. Ayaw mong sabihin sa pamilya mo, sa pamilya nya, sa mga kaibigan nyo, kasi ayaw mong masaktan sya, ayaw mong masaktan yung ego nya, ayaw mong mapahiya sya at lalong ayaw mong maliitin sya ng pamilya at mga kaibigan nyo. Pero tangina, ako na lang ba talaga ang magpapasensya at maghihintay kung kelan sya kikilos, magbabago at for fuck sake, BE A MAN, A HUSBAND. God knows, I am doing everything I could to save our relationship. God knows, I'm exhausting all efforts and patience. God knows, pinipilit ko makita yung mga ginagawa nya for me. I appreciate everything he is doing for me. Hindi kulang eh, kundi mali. He acts like the wife and I'm the provider. I've said everything to motivate him, to guide and help him be more productive and ambitious pero bakit paulit-ulit na lang ako? Tuwing kakausapin ko sya, magbabago sya for a day or two. Tapos babalik din sa dati. I'm just fucking fed up! I don't want to be in this marriage anymore.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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Back to the Usual
Almost 3 weeks of almost fixing everything and then tonight went back to normal. I got rejected again. Lol! I'm trying so hard to focus on the things he does for me, for us, but then again, I feel like he no longer needs me. He no longer wants me. There's no more desire, no more passion and everything makes it feels like there's no more love. I don't know how long can I live with this.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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All Cried Out
Literally for every single night I cry silently in our bed or sometimes when I can no longer hold it quietly, I get into the washroom and just cry it all out, he doesn’t know.
Tonight, I’m feeling numb again after crying so hard for an hour in the washroom. It’s our 2nd wedding anniversary and he just slept on me. I honestly don’t know what to feel anymore. I wanna leave. I want to be away. I want to go somewhere where I won’t feel this pain. I don’t wanna be like this every night. I don’t wanna be like this for the rest of my life.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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One-Way Street
It’s been a while since my last post cuz I wanted to focus on the things that will make me feel better about our marriage. Not that this is making me feel bad but I tried to make myself busy with working on the relationship and the friendship but I hit my limit last Saturday morning, the 28th. I was ready to go. I didn’t even care what my family would tell me or think. I just wanted to leave this unhappy home. It wasn’t the love that was lost, it’s the passion to make each other happy. I always get rejected. He would only want me if he is in the mood to make himself happy. It wasn’t a two-way street anymore. I felt used. I felt unwanted. I felt like an object. I was just not happy anymore. I just wanted to leave. I didn’t want to be here or be with him anymore. I was ready to be alone than continue hurting. And then he hugged me, didn’t want to let me go, apologized and promised to not take me for granted anymore. So I stayed. I stayed not because I believed what he said but because I suddenly felt numb from the pain. I was like high for a while. I was staring to nothing with an empty mind but a heavy heart. I couldn’t even cry anymore after crying so hard for almost an hour. I was just stunned and numb.
Last night I cried again, tonight, I am crying again. Nothing has changed and for the longest while, we still don’t talk before sleeping. He still has no clue of how much pain I am going through. He just knows I am being immature and sensitive. He doesn’t know I am almost at my boiling point, the peak and the rope will soon snap. If that day comes, I know for sure I will be the most stone-hearted person. I just don’t know how to deal with this pain. I still pray though. I sure do want us to be passionately in love with each other again. I just don’t know how to bring back the man I loved and the man who made me feel so loved.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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Today, I’m giving up and saving myself from complete destruction.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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Poof! Coco Crunch!
That moment when u dressed up trying to look pretty today cuz u’ll go home at lunch and u know ur husband is waiting for u then he wasnt. Ok ok not his fault. But then he wasnt wary about how u would feel when he said not so long ago “Magkasama naman tayo ng lunch mo kahit pang umaga na ko eh”. And still, he just know ure mad because he wasnt there. And u cant explain. Maybe u can but ure already too tired explaining things, trying to make him realize how unhappy u are becoming.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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He's Just Not That Into You...Anymore.
One day he's sweet, next day he's not. When he is all caring and sweet, it makes me think that maybe I am just over-reacting to things and expecting more of him. I swear I am trying my best to keep everything to myself to avoid annoying him. I don't want things to escalate more than they are now. I can take it all but I can only take so much. Yesterday, I tried to talk to him about how I feel in this marriage. That "talk" lighten the baggage. I was happier until now. There's only 2 days in a week that we get to spend time together, making memories. I asked him to go to The Forks so we can enjoy the rare nice weather outside. Of course, he is lazy and refused to go. So here I am blogging again. One day, I'm going to read these blog entries. It may be a day when I am no longer suffering because I already gave up or on the positive side, it may be a better day with him, a happier one. For now, one thing I am sure of, I am starting to fall out of love and I sure don't want this to continue but what can you do if you're being dragged by an unhappy life you vowed to live for the rest of your life. Good night...
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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After Happily-Ever-After
There is no fairytale in real life. Forget about the glass slipper or winning over Maleficent. Even when you “Let It Go”, it won’t give you a happy ending. Everything happens because they were meant to happen. You may be amazingly happy today and start crying tomorrow. Life is not just about pleasant memories. Life can be bitter-sweet, sugar and spice or full of twist of fate. It’s learning to live and love the best of all worlds. The more experiences you get, the better memories you'll earn and the more lessons you'll learn.
I always have to remind myself especially now that I can’t stay happy forever, we can’t be in the honeymoon stage for the rest of our lives together. He may be head-over-heels in love with me 3 years ago and next thing I know he is already taking me for granted. I’m becoming more and more sensitive. I keep seeking his attention, begging for love and affection and demanding more of his time for me alone. But I still feel left-out. I feel like he doesn’t enjoy my company anymore. I feel the hate and anger growing in my heart. And it’s painful fighting everything that I am feeling right now because I want to save our marriage. It hurts so bad that he looks at me so differently now and that most of the times I get rejected and unappreciated. Majority of the time, he will only gets romantic and becomes sweet to me when he needs me or needs something from me. I am such a stubborn loser, trust me I know. And I hate myself for still holding on, fighting falling-out of love, trying my very best to not give up on something I vowed, convincing myself that everything will get better, that he will be back to the same guy I fell in love with or just simply say love me again the way he used to. But no matter how much more painful this gets, I am staying… I will try until I learn when is enough, until I become too numb to feel anything and walk my way out.
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teardropsandbs · 10 years
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California King Bed
He's asleep, I'm wide awake. What happened to us? 💔
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