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“ Being a mutant would be easier without the constant danger of getting stabbed by angry martial artists, but life doesn’t do easy for me. ”

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unprompted

@stripedmutcte​ said: I blame you guys for making people think all turtles are secretly ninjas.

Donnie takes a moment to lean back in his wheelchair, folding his hands in his lap for a moment. then, he gives a sort of half grin, offering a sort of sheepish shrug.

“To be fair we weren’t exactly trying to make people think all turtles are secretly ninjas.”

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                                                          they think me macbeth; ambition is my folly                                                                  i’m a polymath, a pain in the ass,                                                                               a… massive pain…

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Oh shit I remembered my password.

A n y w a y I’m not sure if I’ll be active again here anytime soon but if you want to find me you can hit me up at any of my active Transformers blogs (most active being @ofvaporex​, @gctthehcrns​, @mechanicinclined​, @wiindvoiice​, and @pariahsparked​). All of them are multiverse friendly and will always be happy to interact with folks I know/knew from here. <3

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        ANGER   WAS   :                                      BETTER   THAN   TEARS                                     BETTER   THAN   GRIEF                                     BETTER   THAN   GUILT

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“You can ask me for help, you know. I know I keep to myself a lot these days, but I’ve always got time for you.”

“ɪʀᴏɴɪᴄ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ sᴛʀᴇᴛᴄʜᴇs ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴍʏ ᴍᴜsᴄʟᴇs sᴛɪᴍᴜʟᴀᴛᴇᴅ, ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴇᴛ ɪ sᴛɪʟʟ ғᴇᴇʟ sᴏ ᴄʀᴀᴍᴘᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴏᴜɴᴅ ᴜᴘ.”

#╰ an endless progression of little apocalypses ☣ v : sainw ╮ #techniicality

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Send my muse a word and they’ll tell you something about their past related to that word (Angst Edition).

@everythingisoverturning said: Loveless

“Does thirty years alone with your brothers believing you’re dead count?

There was a common thread in Karai’s torture during that time. That my family didn’t care enough about me to confirm that I was dead or find a body. And for a time, I think I started to believe her. That I was the weak link... that they didn’t really need me. Even after they broke apart in petty squabbles, all of it started to feel... kind of like a fantasy.

Had they ever loved me? Had they ever loved each other? Had we all spent eighteen years fooling ourselves? Were we just too different? Would they care if they found me? Would they even want me back? Someone who left on a foolish mission and got himself captured and tortured for so long...

I still have doubts that they can find love for me after all this time. Maybe Karai’s words sunk in deeper than I thought.”

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Send my muse a word and they’ll tell you something about their past related to that word (Angst Edition).

@shiningsilverarmor​ said: Loneliness

“I don’t think people really understand what loneliness can do to someone until they’ve experienced it on the long-term. I spent thirty years secluded from my family, with only memories of better times replaying in my head like worn film to keep me company. It was painful, and maddening. Something in you breaks, I think, after a few years of it.

Oddly, the worst of it wasn’t the start. The worst of it was in the last few days after the war ended. I was alone in a cell and suddenly, not even Karai or one of her goons came to harass me. It was nothing but silence, crushing in on me for hours. I started to think the end had finally come. That they’d gotten tired of keeping me alive and were content to let me starve away the last few weeks of my already miserable existence. I think...

I think for the last few hours, before April and her recovery team made it that far in during their explorations, I actually cried for the first time in thirty years. Because all of a sudden, I had no one. Not my father or my brothers, not my friends, not even my enemies. Just me and my thoughts.

Thoughts of how I could’ve done things differently, escaped or gotten away before they had the chance to fake my public “execution.” It fucks with your head, far worse than you would think, that kind of loneliness.

Even now, after months back with the people I love, I can feel it in my bones. I flinch when I’m touched and I wake up in a panic because I don’t know how to respond to the sort of fullness that comes with being around other people, being hugged and fed and treated kindly for the first time in thirty years.

I don’t think I’m the same Donatello the Shredder’s forces captured thirty years ago. My brothers don’t know how to handle that, for all they say that I’m their brother and they still love me.

And that’s a more painful loneliness than anything else in this world.”

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Send my muse a word and they’ll tell you something about their past related to that word (Angst Edition).

For starting angsty, sometimes difficult, conversations. The words can be taken in any loose way the mun/muse can use them. Trigger warnings apply.

Nightmare Loneliness Forget Heartbreak Luckless Anger Confusion Neglect Fear Illness Death Loss Monster Misunderstanding Loveless Dark Painful Cold Disloyalty Abandonment Escape Break Injury Dissociation  Panic Cruelty Lost Misfortune Lies Abuse Emotionless Blood Goodbye Incomplete Hollow Evil Noise Threat Unrequited Change

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I would die for Donatello the Turtle rt if you agree

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“forget? he never forgets. he doesn’t forget the ghosts in his lungs or the skeletons in his closet. he doesn’t forget when he wakes up screaming and he never forgets as he falls to his bloody knees finished to the bone. don’t ask him if he forgets because he never forgets. he’ll never forget this.”

— s. s. (via spareheiress)

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Got confirmation from Sophie Campbell herself that we won’t see any gay turtle boys in IDW TMNT, largely because while she didn’t receive a HARD no on it, they required a lot of planning and discussion she just didn’t have the energy for. Which I absolutely get.

My Donnie won’t change from being 110% gay but it was really cool to hear from the writer herself, and to know that she’d definitely put it out wanting to do that for at least one of the boys.

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Experimental coloring based on some events from my 2012 Donnie rp blog @techinclined. Not unhappy with this, honestly. Not my best work but it was fun playing around with an unfamiliar coloring style. I’d like to neaten it up a bit if I did it again.

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I really think a lot about how bad Donnie feels about so many things.

He throws himself into his work to keep himself from focusing on it, but he just. It sticks with him. Feeling like he failed Seb ( @bracedvigilante​ ). Hating how distant he was with the others the older they got. Cursing a temper born of sensory issues and frustration when his mind was moving SO fast but no one could keep up with him.

I've talked about it in the past, how the older he got he withdrew from his siblings. It was difficult to relate when he had few peers. Sure, he had Nico ( @techniicality​ ), but Nico could also connect with Seb. As a result, Donnie felt uniquely alone growing up. It's at the farm that he makes a connection with Seb and starts actively trying to make up for lost time, but with his other brothers, it's hard. He doesn't know how to reach out, to any of them.

It's largely why I frame his relationship with April so differently than canon. Where they focused on "ooh boy with stupid crush" I pivot to a boy who doesn't know how to people but wants a friend. Someone who sees him without knowing his genius intellect first. The problem is he doesn't have the first clue who he is, because he's worn so many masks.

He's had to learn that while recovering from the accident. He's shy and awkward and possessed of extremely dry wit and humor. He loves his brothers, so much, but doesn't know how to tell them. He only knows how to show them. Sure, it can seem like he gets annoyed or doesn't like some of his brothers sometimes because he never learned how to express when he got overstimmed around the more excitable ones

And all of that plays right into his situation in the accident. He knew he loved his family.

He just didn't know how willing he was to lay his life down for them until he was staring death in the eye and making sure it saw him first.

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                                     ❝ half of the time I don’t know what they’re talking about;                             their jokes seem to relate to a past that everyone but me has shared.                               i’m a foreigner in the world and i don’t understand the language. ❞

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