teddybearstud

[teddybearstud]

I write down all my thoughts here and just delete them later I don’t have anyone to tell them to it makes me feel a little better usually

[teddybearstud]

I wonder how much I want someone to make my lunch and leave a little note in it is because I made my lunch since I was 5 and it was a pb & j with chips and a capri sun everyday by the time I graduated hs I didn’t even eat it I just gave it to other people I got yelled at when I wouldn’t make it but I wasn’t allowed to make anything else

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I started eating sugar again and now my face won’t stop breaking out my back hurts and I wish they had just let me die nothing actually gets better

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The only thing I was looking forward too was ruined

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I’m not even a space filler in people’s life like something under that.

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There’s no point in me having feelings about anything idk what I’m doing I don’t even think my dogs would miss me at this point

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Too anxious to sleep too late to take meds I hope I don’t have another anxiety attack tomorrow

[teddybearstud]

I thought working out was supposed to make me happier I’m in pain in multiple places I’m still anxious I want to cry and now I’m worried about one of my dogs because it was acting different

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I always should have taken my anxiety meds and then it’s too late cuz I’ll sleep all day

[teddybearstud]

I am merely a man, if a pretty woman says please in the right way I will drop to my knees in public with no shame

[teddybearstud]

I will never shut up about my love for desperate slutty subs, subs who see their dom and can’t stop thinking about bending over for them, subs who get all needy when they’re called things like “fuckable” or “dumb toy”, subs who do anything to turn their partner on and make them feel good, subs who whisper all the dirty things they want you to do to them

[teddybearstud]

People who use masculine lesbians to figure out their sexuality are gross. We're not your experiments. We're not here so you can throw us away if you figure out that you're still straight. In the same breath, other queer people who use masc lesbians as an intro to being gay or expecting masc lesbians as a replacement man is annoying. Please, figure it out without putting it on the backs of masculine lesbians.

[teddybearstud]

My chest hurts so fucking bad

[teddybearstud]

Crazy that someone with agoraphobia literally has more friends and people who care about them than me

[teddybearstud]

Guess it’s a good thing I grew up by myself because all I have is me and my dogs and literally nothing else

[teddybearstud]

No job no friends no sleep no food maybe tomorrow I’ll find something to be excited about tonight I’m just gonna hold my pillow and hope I sleep some

[teddybearstud]

Idk how I’m supposed to sleep now