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haaaayyyyy naaakuuu naamaaann. ang sakit pala? bat ganon. haha

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ikapito.

ika nga'y maraming pagsubok sa ikapitong taon

maraming masasalunga, maraming haharapin

datapuwa't tayo'y tinuruan ng pagibig

pagibig na kakalimot sa mga pagkukulang

at ang Pagibig na nananatili.

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032023 to 032123

wala ka ring pinagkaiba sa nakaraan ko.

mas malala ka lang.

seener. ghosting. blocked.

pero a night before, and even hours before I discovered, you're still on yourself pa.

tapos biglang wala na?

did I do something bad na naman ba? so bad that you choose to leave me hanging from my questions?

the way how we communicate thru gc is what i really wanted talaga.

but your coldness at this instant??

sana naman dahan dahanin nyo naman!!!!

parehas lang kayo...

ang irony.

i know i should have a happy heart as of this moment.

but this is the kind of heartbreak that I shouldnt show to anyone, because this shouldnt be here in the first place

if only na tinupad mo yang "sa gc na lang tayo magusap palagi"

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032023.

gagsti talaga.

delikado pala talaga ung sobrang saya noh?

may clapback after.

ang sakit.

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031923. ❤️💜🩷

another one of the best weekends ~

gumala lang naman ang mga itik.

looking back, I didn't imagined how everything hapepned, kasi I had my plans already.

but my madaldal self had also her unexpected plans 🤣

kasi naman dinaldal ko rin ung gagawin ko sa sunday

at nabigyan pa ako ng gagawin (i wasnt complaining ha, im glad to be of help)

pero ayun nga dahil dinaldal ko, edi nagoffer ng ride. gustong sumama. edi go xD

altho it's okay na mag-isa lang ako pero sige.

so nasa mall na kami. bumili ng shoes, bumili sila ng medyas. kumain. nagcr. nagarcade.

while walking, he said out of the blue. (nonverbatim)

"kung magisa ka lang, edi malungkot ka ngayon"

and yes I would agree.

ang daming tao sa SM coz (1) Sunday, and (2) last day ng 3day sale.

at dahil madaming tao, i would just literally buy my shoes, and uwi na sa dasma

pero with the 2 of them being my bodyguards, one of the tropas, mga batang pagbibigyan ng hiling kasi magaling mambudol haha

it is indeed so much fun.

extended pa kase may nadagdag pa na humabol hahaha

and a lot of little things.

and knowing na we're all happy that day,

it's the nicest thing ever.

thank you~

salamat sa Dios hihe.

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multiple choice of thoughts. xD

#1

kainis napakatouchy hahaha umiiwas na nga since eversincedaworldbegan

#2

kainis napakatouchy hahaha ganon ka rin siguro sa iba

#3

kainis napakatouchy hahaha pero aksidente lang siguro dahil sa may iaabot. pero bat maraming beses na? tuwing may iaabot pa

#4

kainis napakatouchy hahaha kadiri

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feb 2, 2023

i cried.

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i'm just so happy to the point my heart's gonna burst out of overwhelming happiness

what a weekend it has been :)

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admiration lang eh. like a black and white painting.

wala tayong pangkulay wag nang kulayan pa. HAHA

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gaaaagsti talaga feeling ko nakita nya

or nagooverthink lang ako

WAHHAHAHA

huhu

gg talaga kung ganon.

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111522.

nabuhay na naman ung prinsipyong,

kapag iniyakan mo, totoo.

:(

111522 kahit 111622 pinost.

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HAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY

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one step braver

how strong should we be

in order to be called brave?

how numb should we be

in order to called that one?

fighting back is always seen as something brave

a movement we all called offense

fighting for years to get fulfillment

fighting for something you really love

fighting for something you want to prove

but is holding back also considered?

the feeling of denial and defense

holding back words that could pierce someone's heart

holding back gestures that could be seen as something else

holding back tears so no one will know your struggles

holding itself back so others would go through

who is braver

maybe the one who surrender

no one knows your desires

except the One in the skies.

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HATID

102322. The Juans' first concert in Araneta, after a long time.

may story din ang concert, starring Kaori Oinuma and JC Alcantara.

Ang ganda ni Kaori opo. huhu

anyway. hearing the whole story reminds me of the kind of love story I want to write.

the girl came from a wealthy family,

and the boy who's lowly and struggling in life.

and then they clicked right away as they met

but his struggles is keeping his walls she thought was smashed.

she want to be part of him

but he would rather face it alone.

and also, I'll write it with a sad ending

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why

what a weird dream yesterday. 101322

I don't want to think na dahil siya ung last na nakausap ko before I went to sleep, kaya ko siya napaginipan that night.

but I want to think is BAKIT GANUN

we were physically close, as in.. UGHH I don't want to share a detailed one but, pang-couple ung closeness namin sa panaginip

and there's an adult in front of us who's not even scolding us on how intimate--no, i mean on how close we interact there sa panaganip

yes reiterating the phrase "sa panaginip"

COZ NO WAY IT WOULD HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE!!!

I had that dream after I opened my eyes by 730, super early pa so umidlip pa ako. then there's that dream.

the moment i woke up from that, he's also the first person na nagsend ng private message.

I just thought of this:

since lately we haven't had a finished convo,

he's replying to my last message last night since lately we haven't had a finished convo.

okkk shareeee

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10122022

HAHAHAH hello I'm back again for the nth time.

sana hindi maumay ung blog ko sa akin.

babalik lang kung kailan lang gusto.

at least binalikan diba.

hehe.

kaso ang kalat naman ng content ko rito.

anyways, I'm a nobody here, so who cares?

last post? May 2022? tas tungkol sa panaginip pa oh wow.

I really do share some random stuffs talaga here. grrr.

a lot of things happened lately.

unimaginable things na di mo aakalaing maoovercome mo, of course with God's grace and mercy above all.

a lot of feels felt along the way.

a lot of weird stuff too.

on top of all that, I'm grateful, for everything.

yun lang. teehee.

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05202022

first time kong nakapanaginip kasama ang mga taong di ko inaasahan na mapapaginipan ko.

bro arjhay. sis criztel. sis marivic pana

nasa paliparan kami. kumakain kaming 3 girls ng streetfoods

tas biglang lumitaw si arjhay, ipagdadrive nya raw kami, idk kung saan papunta.

di ko na alam ung ibang detalye. i know it's a short dream pero medyo mahaba haba ung actual

ang weird lang kasi andun si arjhay magdadrive daw. hahahaha

ok skl.