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i'm not sure if this has been done before, but rb'ing ok. also feel free to add any other stigmatized disorders i missed. fuck the media, break the stigma!

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my remaining idiot braincells or, as the professionals call them, "alters"

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me, feeling a million emotions at once over stressful events; crying, being angry and numb and more at the same time; describing the feeling like a magnet repelling; getting a giant headache; then suddenly feeling dissociated, floaty and unable to remember anything:

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Happy Pride to all DID and OSDD systems!

To the alters that identify as LGBTQ+ in different conflicting ways to others in their system

To the alters that have conflicting gender identities to others in their system

To the alters that have conflicting sexual attraction to others in their system

To the alters that have conflicting romantic attraction to others in their system

To the alters who can’t date who they want because of their conflicting identities in their system

To the alters who can’t be out and be themselves because it conflicts with the bodies presentation

To the alters and systems with crippling gender dysphoria but can’t transition

To the alters and systems who have transitioned

To the alters and systems who have changed their mind on their gender, sexual or romantic identity - no matter how many times - change your mind as many times as you feel!

To the alters and systems who are constantly confused and distressed about who they are and how they identify and how to label themselves

To the alters and systems who are constantly confused and distressed about who they’re attracted to - sexual and/or romantic attraction - and how to label themselves

To the LGBTQ+ inner system relationships who are beautiful and valid and real

To the LGBTQ+ alters and systems in relationships with other LGBTQ+ alters and systems

To all the LGBTQ+ alters and systems, however you identify - Happy Pride!

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found on fb

#@ Rielle

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I wonder what it’s like to not have to piece together memories and their timelines and then continually doubt yourself over their legitimacy? 🤔

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dissociative identity disorder stuff

because there’s not enough DID content

who’s that in the mirror? that’s not me

people get mad at you for forgetting things a lot

apparently I’m an idiot because I can’t remember information from less than two minutes ago

no, I’m not bipolar

accidentally using “us” or “we” when referring to yourself

trauma? who’s she?

trauma? you remember it all at once

you catch yourself talking in a childish tone

why do I have this thing? I don’t remember buying it

you said I did what? I said what? I acted how? I don’t remember

I don’t remember anything so don’t ask

what’s an identity?

I’m a passenger and my body is a car being driven by unknown forces

horrible headaches

nothing feels real

life is a video game and I’m multiple characters

having recurrent “mood swings”

you can’t remember anything about your childhood

you have random memories pop up out of nowhere that are really intense

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Understanding Dissociative Identity Disorder from a Different Perspective

By: Amelia Joubert Dissociative Identity Disorder, previously known as Multiple Personality Disorder, is a very misunderstood disorder. There is more to Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) than just what is seen in movies and books. DID is very complex and can be easily misunderstood. Many people have heard of “multiple personalities” but do not know the causes of it or details about it.

In the vast majority of cases, Dissociative Identity Disorder is caused by severe childhood trauma that is often sexual, but not always. A child basically goes through a trauma that is so bad for them their mind says “this is not happening to me, it is happening to this person”. The child’s mind does or integrate but rather becomes more separate and a new identity, or alter, is created to hold the memory of the trauma so the child doesn’t have to. After an alter is created they live in a world created by the mind known as the inner world.

All alters stay in the inner world unless they are the one that is “out” at the time. When someone is out, or fronting, they have control of the body. Alters can range in age and can be any age, older or younger then the body. Most alters have different names and look different in the inner world. Alters can be a different gender from the body, can have different allergies and some may even need glasses when they are out. It may seem crazy that there can be such big differences, but one must remember the mind wants the person to believe that their trauma did not happen to them.

There are different types of alters. The host is the alter that is out the most and usually has the same name as the body. Many people think of the host as the “real personality”, however all the personalities are real. One way to look at it is: If you have a pizza and cut it into slices there is no one piece of pizza that is more real than any other piece of pizza. This is a simple way to think about alters. Child alters are also known as “littles” and alters that protect the system are called protectors. The “system” is the term used to refer to all the alters. Switching is when one alter takes control of the body. Switching can be caused by several things including a color, a sound and even a smell. These things are called triggers.

Although having alters and a big part of Dissociative Identity Disorder there is more to it. DID is a disorder that comes from trauma and people with it can share many symptoms of someone with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. People with DID are more likely have problems with depression that can lead to self-harm and even suicidal behaviors. They may also have bad night terrors and flashbacks as well as issues with anxiety.

Dissociative Identity Disorder is very complicated and can be hard to understand. This article will hopefully make understanding DID easier for the people who read it. Hopefully it will help to break down the wall of stigmas surrounding not just DID, but all mental health conditions. I hope, really hope, that this article will make others view people with mental disorders more human and real. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder and I am real, my alters are real and my disorder is real, yet it doesn’t define me.

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Co-fronting is like that car scene from the Cat in the Hat movie where all three of them have their own steering wheels and nobody can tell who’s actually controlling the car and they end up going the wrong way on a one way street

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Having DID is like

Me: I know yesterday I thought someone new showed up, but now I don't know if what happened yesterday actually happened?

Clipped, slightly British voice: I personally don't think it did.

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Treat people with psychosis with respect.  Treat people with schizophrenia with respect. Treat people with personality disorders with respect. Treat people with DID with respect. Treat people who dissociate frequently with respect.

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Having DID is like living in a house. Depending on who’s in the house, only some doors are unlocked at a time. Behind the doors are memories and emotions to go with those memories. Sometimes it feels like you’ve been in certain rooms but you can’t quite remember. Sometimes you wish you could shut certain doors. Sometimes you don’t even realize a door has been locked until you try to access it. It’s always confusing, and you wish you could have all the doors unlocked at once to make sense of it all. But you know that they’re locked for a reason. Maybe it’s better that we don’t remember everything at once.

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me, watching/reading/playing a new thing, admiring a specific character: 

my DID brain splitting in a stressful period of time: 

me: OH NO