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my fall motivation is wanting to wear sheer black tights without making that horrendous squeaky noise from the fabric rubbing against each other on my inner thighs when i walk

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Reasons to lose weight <3

• being able to wear shorts

• feeling confindent in Swimsuits

• to be the skinny friend

• „i wish i had her body“

• taking pictures and feeling pretty

• your crush thinks you are pretty

• feeling sexy in underwear

• wearing the clothes you want

• not having a panic attack when someone wants to pick you up

• sweating less

• being seen as „fit“

• looking good in pictures

• to show everyone that you can do it

• shocking the people you did not see for a long time

• eating outside and not receiving looks because you are fat

• looking good naked

• „Do you eat enough“

• not thinking it is a joke when someone finds you attractive

• being someone else bodygoals

• people using your pictures for their bodygoals

• to feel your bones

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Today I'm really feeling really tired of this damn weight thing ... This is my 3rd relapse and I don't know fuck!ng when and how I stop caring about my weight and gain. And I gotta be now so fixated on food and what goes through my hands and what everyone eats and on every single fucking body check. I was so focused on feeling strong and building muscle and now I just want to be fucking skinny and get my collar bones, my hip bones and my thigh gap no matter what. I hate myself for letting everything go and making myself fuck!ng huge and fat. I wanna be small and skinny again... I'm on the right track because I already know the rabbit hole this ana thing is and how everything is gonna be. But I'm gonna hate myself more with the stupid comments everyone is gonna be making "oh you look much better skinny" "oh I'm glad you're caring about yourself again" and them not fuck!ng knowing that I'm sick again until I'm fainting from eating a single blueberry and drinking black coffee everyday, and even when fainting and with those stupid comments, never feeling skinny enough and feeling like the ugliest, fattest mf around.

Let's go down the rabbit hole again...

#th!n$p0 #tw ed diet #tw ana fast #ana meal #ana trigger #thin$po #tw ana shit #tw ana diary

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EVERYONE DRINK WATER RIGHT NOW AND REBLOG TO KEEP THE HYDRATION GANG CHAIN GOING

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my brain every time after i finish eating

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The feminine urge to lower my ugw everytime I look in the mirror 😍

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Paris Opera Ballet Academy

(Photographer(s) unknown)

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I'm so funny.

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I wish I could loose 80 pounds overnight

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when will ppl understand reporting ppl doesn’t make them less sick it just makes them sick and alone

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Some of my favorite thinspo✨🍓

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚my fav low cal munchies˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

- cucumber, yes a whole cucumber.

- melon, any melon cut in small pieces.

- no actually frozen watermelon is the best option, its sooo good(*´꒳`*)

- crackers

- cracker with cottage cheese and marmalade

- tomatoes

- berries, i swear they taste sooo good!!

- baby food ☆

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That feeling when…

⋆♱✮♱⋆Eating small portions fills you⋆♱✮♱⋆

⋆♱✮♱⋆Food disgusts you⋆♱✮♱⋆

⋆♱✮♱⋆You look good in all your clothes⋆♱✮♱⋆

⋆♱✮♱⋆You feel light and graceful at all times⋆♱✮♱⋆

⋆♱✮♱⋆You’re losing weight every day⋆♱✮♱⋆